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Caesura 𝄓 a brief, silent pause, during which metrical time is not counted.
In a river of harmonious lines, you are the sole counterpoint. You are not part of the melody or the harmony; you are something else entirely.You are the silence that swallows up the music altogether.
or; an ivan character study in music terms.
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"for narnia!" and other such famous last words by paralogistical for atrophiedemotion
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
14 Jan 2026
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“So, remind me why I’m here again?” Sua grumbles.
“Because you’re the best cousin in the world, obviously,” Ivan singsongs, far too giddy at the prospect of checking off this particular item on his bucket list. It had taken the better part of the last month and a rather hefty bribe to convince her to do this for him, but it was going to be so worth the cost.
What was “this,” one might ask? Well… Ivan was planning on popping out of one of the closets in IKEA whilst shouting “For Narnia!” and he needed someone to record it for him.
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The touches at Ivan’s waist become more blatant; he’s openly feeling him up now, hand curved around the small of Ivan’s back. During one of those times he leans up to murmur into Ivan’s ear, “All that talk about my waist being ‘deliciously grabbable,’ but you’re not so bad yourself.”
Ivan makes a— noise, from the back of his throat. Till wonders what it would take to pull more of those noises out of him. He resolutely ignores how his own face grows warm at the sound.
or; till gains the upper hand for once.
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After, Till flops over on Ivan’s bed and stares up at the ceiling, contemplating every single life decision he has ever made up until now, because what the fuck.
or; till makes some ill-advised decisions—like sending a booty call text to his best friend.
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college au - till's mysteriously lost his portfolio and after searching everywhere, he's left with no choice but to check ivan's dorm room. unfortunately, he finds a bit more than he meant to.
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09 May 2026
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Lately, Till has been feeling a bit down and he can't seem to pinpoint the reason why. As he decides to rest on campus for the night; and prepares himself for an upcoming exam, he finds out he can only focus on one thing: thinking about Ivan.
One thing leads to the other and soon he's found himself in a... Difficult situation. And to make matters worse, Ivan –who wasn't supposed to be there just yet– walks in on Till and his... Disgusting act.- Language:
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06 May 2026
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He is all too aware his feelings are filthy, far too twisted to ever be reciprocated. To call it “love” would be dumbing down something so complex he has never even managed to understand himself. Ivan does not love. He wants to possess Till, to live inside him, settle in his heart, carve out a space meant for him, invade his mind and body. But Till is perfect, far too perfect for him, and Ivan knows he may break under his touch if he is too ravenous. So he will take, he will welcome whatever Till chooses to give him, he will tame the monster inside of him. He will do it if that means Till won’t leave his side.
In another life, would he have been cleansed of these impure feelings?
Or: Ivan remembers Alien Stage.
This story is now available in Russian, translated by Tsukimi_77.
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06 May 2026
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He feels just as free as this filthy air, free from that perfect cube that made up his world for years.
"Where are we going?" He asks, eyes trained up on the sky.
"Anywhere!"or Till doesn't let go.
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30 Apr 2026
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Love Me Like Music (I'll Be Your Song) by thinkpositiiv
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
12 Mar 2026
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For synesthete Till, Ivan is not just a person, his best friend, his bully, or his music's biggest fan; Ivan is colours, sounds, scents, & sensations all unique to him that give Till such incredible longing. As with everything else, though, Till feels Ivan will just tease him if he ever tried to tell him, so he keeps it to himself, along with all the tender feelings he holds for Ivan, despite their confusing relationship.
Ivan calls after school to ask if he can help with Till's insomnia, but it turns into Till confronting him about the bullying. Surprisingly, Ivan genuinely apologizes & tries to take responsibility, which he's never done before. Trying to keep the momentum, Till accepts his offer & Ivan intends to bore Till to sleep by reading from his homework. That is Absolutely Not what happens, but Ivan is sure under the impression it is.
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28 Apr 2026