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Buck knows it’s not sustainable by the fourth night, when he wakes up sweating and unable to breathe, one hand clutching his ribs where she’d stuck him the first time with the cattle prod and the other reaching to turn on the lamp at his bedside.
It’s been one week since he got back, so four sleepless nights puts him firmly in the "more bad than good" territory. What the hell is he supposed to do about all this shit? He alluded to therapy when he talked with Eddie at work the other day, but he’s not going to do that. Therapy is totally hit or miss for him. He’s been to two therapists, one was a miss, one a hit, which means he’s due for another miss.
He’s sure as hell not going to talk to Maddie about it, because that’d be, like, super triggering or something. She just got over her own kidnapping a few years ago. And who else, Eddie? Eddie had a traumatic experience in New Mexico as well; he doesn’t need to be responsible for Buck’s too.
But the fact of the matter is, something’s got to change. So, Buck decides to start self-medicating.
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or canon compliant up until s9ep14 (DIY), after that it's just angst and hurt and maybe occasional comfort
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16 May 2026
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WARNING: Drug use/addiction
WARNING: Season 9b spoilersBuck asks Chimney to fire him. Chimney calls a family meeting instead.
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12 Apr 2026
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed.- Language:
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10 Mar 2026
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It's all Canadian Vodka's fault by FriPie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.
The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive.
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19 Feb 2026
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“I’ll do whatever you want, just, please.” Buck sobs out the last word, eyes burning with unshed tears.
“A vow.” The man leans uncomfortably close to Buck. The knife brushes against his neck, lightly scratching across the top layer of Buck’s skin. The man’s cold blue eyes hold Buck’s full attention. “That’s what I require. Sell me your allegiance.”
Buck stares back at the killer, unable to fully process what is being asked of him. He sees a flash of anger dance in the stranger’s gaze. He's impatient. Unpredictable. Fear pours into Buck's chest as he realizes he might not get a second chance at this. He has to make this count. “I vow to give you complete control over the remainder of my life. My body is yours to destroy—so long as you let my sister live and return safely to her family.”
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Or, After Eddie leaves for Texas, Buck goes to seek comfort from his sister and walks in on her kidnapping. In order to save Maddie's life, Buck offers up his instead. Unintentionally agreeing to something worse than death.
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19 Feb 2026
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Small Serendipity by the_hemlocked
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.
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15 Feb 2026
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“What are you talking about?” Maddie’s voice asks, slightly tinny.
The door struggles to open behind him and he drops the phone.
“Mads,” he says, panic slinking into every syllable. “I—I think—“
“Buck, come out,” Bobby says. “Please, baby.”
Buck’s stomach turns and he shakes his head. No, absolutely not. That—crime against humanity is what that is. As if lunch hadn’t been traumatizing enough.
“Was that Bobby?” Maddie’s voice is distant but rightfully alarmed.
“Something’s wrong with them,” Buck yells down at the phone. “I—I know I said I can get anyone to fall in love with me but this is not what I meant!”
or, the 118 gets dosed with a love potion.
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27 Jan 2026
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The Hands That Made You by HH_Arrow
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Jan 2026
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Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.
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- Part 1 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 3 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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21 Jan 2026
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"There’s more to mental health than just suicide, moy lyubimiy," Ilya reminded him gently. "You know this."
A Tampa player's brother commits suicide, and the press are determined to get a statement from Ilya.
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19 Jan 2026
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He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane.
And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike.
// or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.
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15 Jan 2026
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Duty of Care by boopboop
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
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- Part 3 of Duty of Care
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15 Jan 2026
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Before Buck can go back to work after recovering from his injuries from the ladder truck crushing his leg, he finds himself struggling in more ways than one, leading to him having to move back into his Jeep after he thought he'd never have to again. Struggling to believe he deserves the help he needs, he keeps this secret to himself, accepting that maybe it's just what he deserves.
just an fyi this is very much not a character bashing fic! we love all of the 118 firehouse crew here
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10 Jan 2026
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Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.
If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.
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- Part 1 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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22 Dec 2025
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A pair of fics exploring Shane and Ilya's lives, together and apart, pre and post-canon.
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13 Dec 2025
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home's just a distant town by insatiablegaydesire
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Dec 2025
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The snow smells different here.
It’s the first thing Ilya thinks when he exits the airport terminal onto the street, the flakes falling thick and heavy from the late evening sky. Is the altitude different from Boston? The temperature? The pollutants? Maybe it’s the cigarettes—he can pick up the distinct smoky vanilla of Chapmans from the guy on the corner, harder to get in the US, and his fingers itch to light up something himself. Whatever it is, he hasn’t smelled it in years.
Ever since Sochi, he’d only had summers in Russia.
After his father's death, Ilya returns to Moscow to pick up the pieces of what's left of his family, only to find that his grief encompasses more than he ever expected. A look into Ilya, Russia, and the inexplicable meaning of home.
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12 Dec 2025
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Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.
But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”
—you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—
So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.
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24 Nov 2025
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"You look exactly the same," Eddie says with tears in his eyes. "How is that even possible?"
"I don't know," Buck says, his thumb swiping across Eddie's knuckles. "I don't understand it."
He may be the same, but looking at Eddie, Buck can see the years on him. His hair is a bit different, the creases by the corners of his eyes just a bit deeper. There's a new scar on his right hand that Buck hasn't seen before.He'd know these hands blind, but it takes him a moment to notice it still. His fingers brush over it once, and then again before he actually looks down and sees the thin golden band wrapped around Eddie's ring finger. Then he just—stares at it, stupidly, for a second. Before Eddie pulls his hands back, and leaves Buck's hanging empty in the space between them.
"You're married," he says.
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09 Nov 2025
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Everyone knows that when you touch someone who's going to be important to you for the first time, you'll leave a mark on them. It's not just romantic love; parents and children, siblings, close friends all share marks too. At least, they do in theory. Maddie's the only person who's ever touched Buck and left anything behind.
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It’s funny, growing up knowing your parents don’t care about you. The kind of funny that would get Evan uninvited from sleepovers, which is why he always changes into his pajamas in the bathroom. The kind of funny that he’s not allowed to ask his parents about. The kind of funny that makes Maddie look at him so sadly sometimes, when she doesn’t realize he can see her out of the corners of his eyes.- Language:
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06 Nov 2025
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On a very windy night with rain falling down at the speed of a bullet, the tree that canopies Eddie’s house rocks and groans with the force of the wind tossing it side to side. His neighbor sends him a video of what it looks like, says, Thing looks like it's ready to go down!
Eddie sends back, at 8:15 P.M., Haha.
The thing goes down an hour later.
Suppose he hadn’t kissed his best friend that Monday. Perhaps the universe wouldn’t have done such a thing. Perhaps he wouldn’t be theorizing about the world’s motives right now. Perhaps he wouldn’t have to be facing the music and going downstairs to where Buck is working out and ask for a place to stay because, oh, hey, a tree destroyed my home.
or: Joy has never come without consequence for Eddie, so it only makes sense that once he kisses Buck they don’t speak for three days. And, oh—a tree falling on his house is the only reason they break the silence.
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14 Oct 2025
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Bit by bit, Buck stopped.
It began with the little things. First, he stopped checking his phone when he woke up. He used to do it everyday. He’d check for notifications on Chimney’s instagram, or maybe a new message from the 118 group chat. It wasn’t that anyone other than him texted at one in the morning, but sometimes he’d sleep past one of Cap’s old-timey GIFs or whatever.
Sometimes, Athena would text and greet him good morning. And a few weeks into knowing him, Chris would send a morning message begging for help, normally because Eddie was trying to make pancakes again.
So, with everything going on, Buck always made it a point that the moment his eyes opened, he would check his phone.
Until the first week after the lawsuit, and for the seventh day in a row, there wasn’t anything there except a pitfall in Buck’s stomach.
Nothing.
Never.
Not even a quick ‘hello’.
So, Buck ceased checking his phone. After all, why did he even need to?
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12 Oct 2025