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    Phil has learned that the problem is, once it's all over, you feel like nothing. They’ve trained you. They’ve worked their way inside every single part of your brain until you don’t know who you are anymore. So the hardest part is finding yourself again. It’s learning who you are, because you have only been what they wanted since they became a part of your life. It’s terrifying, and Phil isn’t sure if he’ll be able to do it.

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    01 Nov 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 14

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    Dan wakes up to a panic attack after having a bad nightmare. Phil comforts him. Takes place July 4th, 2018. Established relationship. Please heed the tags.

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    28 Oct 2025

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    phil fainted. he's fine, but dan might not be

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    28 Oct 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 69

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    By definition, Dan Howell is not mentally well. He’s slowly losing hope and realizing that he’s not capable of having a ‘normal’ life with the list of mental disorders that suffocate his will to live.

    Honestly, Dan isn’t sure if it’s really worth it to try and survive.

    Until Phil Lester involuntarily steps into Dan’s life and by Phil’s definition, Dan’s more than worth it.

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    28 Oct 2025

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    Phil ^_^ (5:31 PM)
    Dan?

    danisNOTonfire xD i swear im really not. come check. (5:31 PM)
    yeah?

    Phil ^_^ (5:32 PM)
    I think I'm in love with you
    I just
    I can't wait to meet you
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    Skype conversations between Dan and Phil, leading up to their first meeting. 2009!Phan. Prepare for fluff.

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    27 Oct 2025