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The Weight of the Light by shanesmouthguard
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Mar 2026
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Two years into their run as teammates, the "First Couple of Hockey" has reached an internal collapse. Shane Hollander is spiraling into a dangerous obsession with bodily control, while Ilya Rozanov has succumbed to a deep, depressive episode. When their mutual resentment finally erupts into an on-ice altercation during practice, they are forced into a two-week suspension. Trapped together in the suffocating silence of their home, they must confront the physical and emotional wreckage of their marriage before they both completely fade away.
This story explores a much darker timeline for Shane and Ilya during their second year together in Ottawa. Please take the content warnings seriously, as this fic deals heavily with the physical and psychological toll of their high-profile relationship, including disordered eating, unmedicated depression, and a breakdown of their domestic safety. If you feel like any of these things might trigger you, please prioritize your peace and step away from this story. Your wellbeing is far more important than any narrative.
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06 Mar 2026
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I Tried to be Better, I Tried by Xielianfp
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Mar 2026
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Shane heard Jackie behind him talking to the nurse in a failed attempt at keeping her voice down. He heard the words, ‘possible suicide attempt’ and, ‘no pulse’ before they were out of ears reach. He shakily exhaled and let himself be led into the family bathroom.
“He’s a fighter.” Hayden supplied gently.
“I know.” Shane replied.
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05 Mar 2026
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Something was weird about this. There’s no way Ilya is dead. He can’t be. Shane can feel it. He’s not. He thinks he’d be telling himself that either way, there would be no reasonable explanation for his 29 year old boyfriend to die randomly. But this. Shane isn't just telling himself this in denial, he’s not doing it as some form of grief. He knows it. “There’s no fucking way he’s dead, Hayden. There’s no way.”
or: alternative version of the long game, the centaurs plane crashes, the world thinks they’re dead. but they’re not. they’re alive, shane is the only one who doesn’t give up on them.
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04 Mar 2026
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A devastating on-ice collision changes everything for Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and everyone who loves them.
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17 Feb 2026
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To Be Remembered, Is To Be Loved by BrokenColors
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander forgets his marriage.
Ilya Rozanov doesn’t forget how to love him.
As Shane recovers from a concussion that fractures his memories, the life they built together resurfaces in quieter ways. Through routine, touch, shared space, and an intimacy that refuses to disappear.
Love, it turns out, doesn’t always need memory.
Sometimes, it just needs time.
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tl;dr - Hollanov's Amnesia AU in which Shane's last memory is July 2010, a.k.a the first time they hooked up in Toronto after shooting the commercial. Problem is, it is 2022, and they have been married for almost a year, but Shane cannot remember the past 12 years of his life with Ilya.
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13 Feb 2026