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    a different take on the plane situation, in which it lands a little more roughly, ilya gets injured, and shane drives 13 hours to get to his man.

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    “Shane? Sweetie, are you okay? We saw the news,” his mother says immediately upon answering the phone. She sounds like she’s been crying.

    “No,” he answers, too raw to even think about lying. “I’m—I’m on my way to Tampa.” There’s no point in lying about that, either—they’ll find out one way or another.

    “You what?” He can hear the panic in his mother’s voice.

    “Hayden helped me get a rental car,” he grits out, taking a steadying breath. “I-I have to get to him.”

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane has never been religious. But he found himself praying, to something, to anything, to the wind that can anchor every wish he had for Ilya—to keep him safe, to keep him healthy, to make him happy again. 

    He thinks of Ilya’s cross on his necklace, and thinks of his Mom. 

    Is he going to meet her now? Will he get the chance to tell her how wonderful her son grew up to be? Will he be able to tell her that he tried to love him for the both of them the best way he knew how? 

    Or: what if it's Shane's plane that almost crashed?

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

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    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane sees one too many photos of Ilya with other women and decides if he has to suffer, Ilya does too.

    Enter: thirst traps, questionable decisions, and captions written for an audience of exactly one.

    Ilya absolutely does not handle it well.

     

    Or: Shane weaponizes Twitter, and Ilya falls for it every time.

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    Shane Hollander never got that concussion, and Ilya Rozanov breaks up with him. Shortly after, Shane suffers a career ending injury. They don’t speak again.

    Of course, stories don’t end like that. At least not theirs. When Shane adopts a little girl with familiar curls and deep blue eyes, Shane writes letters to Ilya, imagining he was with him, raising the girl together.

    Movers get things mixed up. Letters get sent. And after 4 years of no contact, Ilya moves to Ottawa to see Shane again. The only question is—will Shane let him in? Or is he still just as scared as he was in 2017?

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