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    Shane doesn't love making decisions. Ilya does. Isn't that convenient?

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Ilya: Image Attached
    Ilya: look is you
    Shane: what
    Shane: how is that me

    Or, Shane and Ilya's texts through the years. They think about each other more than they'd admit.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    “Did you like them? My parents?”

    Ilya squints at him. “I love them,” he says simply, like it should be obvious. “They’re your parents.”

    But, Shane thinks idly, there's a difference, isn't there, between loving them and liking them?

    (5 times Shane thinks Ilya doesn't like his parents and 1 time he finds out the truth)

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    04 Jan 2026

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    watch the moon flower bloom by sunshineonrye

    “Did you like them? My parents?”

    Ilya squints at him. “I love them,” he says simply, like it should be obvious. “They’re your parents.”

    But, Shane thinks idly, there's a difference, isn't there, between loving them and liking them?

    (5 times Shane thinks Ilya doesn't like his parents and 1 time he finds out the truth)

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    Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.

    “Do you still read New Yorker?”

    OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.

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    04 Jan 2026

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    Judges by a_good_soldier

    Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.

    “Do you still read New Yorker?”

    OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.

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    The part of Shane that is not panicking goes soft with how…eager Ilya seems for Shane and Svetlana to meet, for Shane to like her. It’s strange, it’s new, it’s wonderful to be able to think about making plans like this. Dinner with Shane’s parents, meeting Ilya’s friends, like that’s something they can have.

    So that’s why Shane beats down the urge to crank up the gas on the stove and light a match, gives Ilya a wide and normal grin, and says “Yeah, of course. I’d love to meet Svetlana.”

    Ilya sighs and his eyes light up and, oh, Shane wants to love him in the light of day. Suddenly, Shane has an idea that will hopefully stop him from doing something rash that will get him on the news and/or in prison. “And you should meet Rose!”

    or: shane hollander tries to get over his overwhelming urge to blow up svetlana vetrova with his mind at saturday brunch

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    04 Jan 2026

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    im going to walk into the ocean, never to be seen again by eunoise

    The part of Shane that is not panicking goes soft with how…eager Ilya seems for Shane and Svetlana to meet, for Shane to like her. It’s strange, it’s new, it’s wonderful to be able to think about making plans like this. Dinner with Shane’s parents, meeting Ilya’s friends, like that’s something they can have.

    So that’s why Shane beats down the urge to crank up the gas on the stove and light a match, gives Ilya a wide and normal grin, and says “Yeah, of course. I’d love to meet Svetlana.”

    Ilya sighs and his eyes light up and, oh, Shane wants to love him in the light of day. Suddenly, Shane has an idea that will hopefully stop him from doing something rash that will get him on the news and/or in prison. “And you should meet Rose!”

    or: shane hollander tries to get over his overwhelming urge to blow up svetlana vetrova with his mind at saturday brunch

    part2 of a series, part 1 is also great