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The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.
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25 Dec 2025
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The Shane Hollander Thing by fandom_commitment_issues
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Dec 2025
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Cliff Marlow has been on Boston’s team with Ilya Rozanov for the last seven years.
Last week, he figured out the Shane Hollander thing.*** Now with a 2nd Chapter of Shane's *slightly* more serious POV***
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20 Dec 2025
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my drug is my baby by strandnreyes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Shane is adamant he’s never been high, but Ilya remembers a loopy Shane in a hospital bed.
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20 Dec 2025
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please leave a message by Ravenesta
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Sarah
Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.Jackie
Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.Jackie has added Lily to the conversation
Lily
what
what is thisOr: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.
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- Part 1 of You Have (81) Unread Messages
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19 Dec 2025
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it’s so hard to believe (but it’s all coming back to me now) by placebythering
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Dec 2025
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“My apartment,” he says, keeping his tone deliberately even. Casual. “I mean… it’s close by, right? You could stay there instead of dealing with the hotel nonsense.”
The words hang in the air between them, fragile and irrevocable. Rozanov goes very still.
Shane feels a flash of panic—wonders if he’s misjudged, if he’s pushed too hard and too fast. He rushes to fill the silence, almost tripping over the words, trying to frame it the way he rehearsed in his head.
“It’s more practical, right?” He adds. “Less media. No teammates. You’d have your own space. And it’s only until flights start up again. You can leave first thing when they resume.”
--- After Rose, after Florida, but having barely reconciled since, Shane and Ilya are stuck in Montreal during a snow storm. Shane offers for Ilya to stay in his apartment, and offers up the rest of his heart with it. Or, an alternate take on what happens after Episode 4.
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17 Dec 2025
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
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Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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14 Dec 2025
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The reassuring quiet of boring days by mareastralis
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Nov 2025
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Ilya calls Shane "boring". It's a joke, it has been for years. One night, alone in bed while his husband is out partying, Shane wonders if it could be more than that.
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- Part 2 of Hollander-Rozanov (they hyphenated)
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14 Dec 2025
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“You and Scott,” Ilya says. “What was the fight about?”
“Nothing serious. Just… shit-talking.”
But Ilya has insulted Hollander on that ice in every way known to man. He has never gotten that under Hollander’s skin, not in the way he wanted to.
He wanted to be the person Hollander got angry at. They were supposed to be the rivals. The two of them. Now tabloids were asking him about his rivalry with fucking Scott Hunter of all people.
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Ilya gets jealous that Shane lost his temper at someone who wasn't him, so he edges Shane about it until he tells him what happened.
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10 Dec 2025
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you're all that i need (underneath the tree) by strwbrryfox
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Dec 2025
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“Hollander,” Ilya greeted. He was leaning over the partition of Shane's desk with a lop-sided smile on his face.
“Rozanov,” Shane said pointedly.
“You sound upset.”
“I’m not upset.”
“It is too early in the morning for you to look like you want to kill me,” Ilya pointed out.
“It’s never too early for that,” Shane threw back, unnecessarily shuffling some papers around on his desk. “Do you need something?”
“A pen,” Ilya shrugged, not being able to stop the dumb smile forming on his face at Shane’s reaction.
or, ilya and shane are co-workers. they like each other but are oblivious idiots about it. also, it's christmas!
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10 Dec 2025
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The Spirit Stick by FestiveFerret for cellularcervix
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Nov 2025
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Ilya Rozanov is the thorn in Shane's side. He's rude, cocky, stressfully perceptive, and his stats are the only ones better than Shane's in the whole OUA. Even worse, they play on the same team, and the only person who might beat Shane out for the C next year is Rozanov.
Ilya and Shane are so at odds they can't even manage to complete a stupid challenge at Playoff Camp without making fools of themselves and, according to Hazy, getting cursed.
It's frustrating and embarrassing, until it becomes clear that the curse is very very real and it becomes horrifying instead. For the next six weeks (at least) Shane is stuck by Ilya's side, unable to go more than a few feet away without unbearable pain.
Now, they somehow have to pull off going to class, winning the playoffs, and not killing each other, not to mention keeping their secret from their friends and teammates.
Shane is so fucked.
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08 Dec 2025
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Ilya thinks about the last night they spent together, thinks about Shane splayed out on a hotel mattress pleading for his touch, thinks about how they hadn’t even kissed, and it starts as a strange little tickle in the back of his throat. Barely-there. He could ignore it if he wanted.
Then the intensity grows, flourishes into full-blow irritation, and suddenly he’s sputtering on his Coke and attracting the attention of the woman in the first-class seat across the aisle from him. He thinks it’s just some odd coughing fit, or that he inhaled his soda on accident, so he’s shocked when he feels something soft and smooth and triangular against his tongue.
It’s not until he spits the object into the napkin he’d received with his drink that he can see what it is: a long, thin, green leaf. A sepal.
As soon as Ilya realizes what he’s looking at, he’s flooded with dread.
Ilya's known these feelings were doomed from the start. He never thought they'd literally kill him.
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- Part 18 of Broc's Hollanov Oneshots
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06 Dec 2025
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The doorbell rings just as Shane is finishing brushing his teeth – the first thing they rose to do, because he wants to kiss Ilya good morning – and he and Ilya exchange a confused look in the bathroom mirror. It's barely dawn, and Ilya's curls are adorably tousled from sleep as he scratches his ribs lazily, toothbrush dangling from the corner of his mouth.
Shane hesitates, then rinses his toothpaste out and runs a hand through his hair. "Fuck, it's probably anti-doping."
No one else would be here at this hour – unless it's an emergency.
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26 Nov 2025
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High on Stardust by clockwrkpendrxgon
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Oct 2025
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“He was fucking all over you,” Shane growls, fire raging at a very specific point in his chest now.
Ilya’s amused smile is fucking diesel.
“You jealous, Hollander?”
Shane scoffs, which isn’t much of a helpful response. So instead, he catches Ilya by surprise and shoves him against the wall, choosing his words carefully.
“I’m not jealous, because I know exactly who you belong to. But do you?”
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01 Nov 2025
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Robby tries to find a place to put the information, but it keeps slipping through his fingers. "He's so much older than you."
There's a beat. Then Whitaker says, level but soft, "He's older than you, too."
(...) Robby pinches the bridge of his nose. "He was your professor."
"Some people," Whitaker says dryly, "consider that a turn-on."Robby’s newest patient turns out to be someone from Whitaker’s past, setting off a jealous spiral that forces Robby to confront feelings he can’t hide anymore.
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- Part 33 of 🎁
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27 Oct 2025
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The first thing Shane Hollander tells his parents about the man he will marry one day is that he’s kind of a dick.
Or, five times Yuna asked Shane about Ilya Rozanov (and one time she asked David about them).
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21 Oct 2025
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After a night of drunken shenanigans with Rose, Shane wakes up with a horrible hangover, a Page Six feature, and a ring in his face.
Thankfully, Ilya is ready to sooth his embarrassment away. Kind of. Sort of. Mostly. Not really.
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- Part 6 of Only Ever You
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16 Oct 2025
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"This is why we can't have nice things."
Five times Esposito and Ryan can't have nice things.
One time they set their sights higher.Bookmarked by yourcryinghost
22 Sep 2025
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Esposito laughs softly, shaking his head in a fond, amused way. "For a homicide detective, you're damn oblivious sometimes." He bumps his shoulder against Ryan's, and Ryan tries to ignore the little flip in his stomach. "What kind of dirt does Beckett have on you, anyway?"
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21 Sep 2025
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When Det. Kevin Ryan wakes up on a cold stone floor, a captive in a case he can't remember, it's the voice of a friend that gets him through.
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21 Sep 2025
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In response to the Rypsosito Secret Santa ficathon, for acciobamon. "Prompt #1: A case requires someone from Kevin’s past to step in (maybe someone from Narcotics ?) which makes Kevin happy and Espo… not so much). Basically, jealous!Javi which leads to them getting together." I hope I did it justice. No Jenny obviously, and you can probably set this somewhere in season 2.
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20 Sep 2025