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    Then like an anomaly in one of his datasets, a green OPEN tag appears next to one of the restaurants. Shane squints his eyes, having difficulty seeing properly without his glasses.

    Irina's Kitchen
    4.02 stars
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    Shane doesn't bother reading them. He taps on the website and waits for it to load. Only to be met with error.

    Sighing he exits the page and keeps on scrolling. Nothing that is open catches his interest and the rest are closed. He's wondering how stale celery would taste dipped in pickle juice when his eyes land on Irina's Kitchen once more.

    There's a phone number under the address. Shane bites his lower lip and wonders if he should call.

    A woman with an accented voice picks up after the 5th ring.

    “Hello?”

    “Uh, hey, are you guys still open?”

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    20 Aug 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 26

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    So, okay. If this is something Rozanov is exceptional at, it stands to reason that Shane can be too. They’re perfectly matched on the ice. Anything he can do Shane can do better. That’s the goal: match (exceed) Rozanov in skill. Really, this is no different than any aspect of Shane’s life these days. Really, this is basically still hockey.

    Or, how a closeted and sexually repressed 19-year old Shane Hollander buys a dildo and learns to deep throat.

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    18 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 17

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    Nothing could ever get rid of the ache Ilya feels when Shane backs out of his driveway, at the sight of the forced smile on his face Ilya can see through the windshield. He stands on the porch and he plays a sad, desperate game where the only rule is that Ilya lives another life where Shane does not have to go.

    But after a little while some of the details make this game impossible. It’s a Tuesday night and Shane is letting Ilya work the knots out of his back, but he’s wearing a Metros shirt. Even after other-life Ilya tears this shirt off, throws it onto the living room floor to get his hands on the smooth warm expanse of his boyfriend’s back, it still feels wrong. The shirt lays crumpled at the edge of Ilya’s fantasy, forcing too many buts: but if Shane were on the Metros he would never be in Ottawa on a Tuesday, but even if he were they wouldn’t be slow and syrupy like Ilya is imagining, but Shane never lets Ilya massage him during the season because the Metros physio told him not to let an amateur mess up his work.

    (picture, if you will, a character study where ilya rozanov finds a thousand ways to be with with shane hollander in all the years they are apart)

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Heat spread across Ilya's face. His mouth fell open slightly. He let out a short, stuttered laugh of disbelief. This couldn't- he was straight, he wasn't-

    “Finally got you at your own game.” Shane's smirk widened to a smile, his hand clapping down on Ilya's shoulder to squeeze it slightly. For once in his life, Ilya was unable to find his voice.

    “Damn.” Shane laughed, jostling him a bit. “If I had known this was all it took to get you to shut the fuck up, I would have started flirting back years ago.”

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    When old college friends Ilya and Shane show up to their mutual best friend's wedding, they are ready to fulfill their duties as bridesmen. Even after years of not seeing each other, they fall right back into their usual banter.

    Ilya loves to flirt with Shane. Shane loves to tell him to fuck off. It's a running a bit. Nothing more than a joke between two friends; because Shane is gay and Ilya is straight and it doesn't actually mean anything…until Shane finally decides to flirt back, and Ilya's world suddenly tilts on its axis.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    Shane had one thing. One. Rozanov was charming and witty and confident and handsome, all the things that Shane had never seen in himself. If he lost hockey, he’d still be the kind of person artists made songs and poems and paintings about.

    Things were different for Shane. When hockey left him, he would have nothing left to give.

    On Shane Hollander's relationship with hockey.

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    16 Aug 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 55

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    In which Ilya Rozanov finally says what he means.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    The footage is shaky; the paparazzo must have been hiding behind a pole in the parking garage, ducking and swerving to stay out of sight. The video zooms in on a car window. Two people inside. They sit stock still, frozen for a moment. Then the driver leans over and punches the passenger on the side of his face, the camera tracking the way the passenger’s head whips to the side and smashes into the window, blood spraying from his mouth to coat the tempered glass. Another punch lands. More blood.

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    A video leaks of Ilya’s father’s reaction to his loss in the Olympics.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    He glances at his watch. Ilya probably won’t be home for fifteen more minutes or so. Shane knows he shouldn’t be snooping, but he’s so curious…

    He opens the box.

    And then his chest collapses.

    He was right. There are photos in here. Photos from Ilya’s childhood. But they’re not happy memories at all.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    “Is this one from hockey?” he asks softly. Beneath him, Ilya exhales lightly.

    “No.”

    “What’s it from?”

    “A belt,” Ilya replies casually, as if the word doesn’t make Shane’s whole body go still for a moment, his muscles tensing to hold him frozen.

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    15 Aug 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 17

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    The second time was the scariest. That’s when it became a pattern. That’s when Ilya realized, with the blood drying on his wobbling chin, that the first time hadn’t been a fluke.

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    15 Aug 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 79

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    “Take care of your brother, Alexei.” His mother told him in quiet Russian. Alexei was fourteen. “Promise me.”

    What if Irina's death bonded Ilya and Alexei, rather than tearing them apart.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    November, 1985

    "You have a light?"

    David Hollander looks up from rummaging in his hockey bag and sees the most beautiful woman he has ever laid eyes on with an unlit cigarette between her fingers. Her long black hair is tied up in a ponytail but her bangs frame her face, which is golden tan against her white turtleneck. She arches an eyebrow after a moment and he realizes he's been staring with his mouth hanging open. "I… no, sorry. I don't smoke."

    "Ugh. Athletes," she sighs, putting her cigarette back into the pack. She leans back against the brick, her breath visible in the cold air. She surveys him with eyes the colour of coffee and he has never been more awake in his life. "You're Hollander, right? Left winger?"

    "That's me, yeah. You a big hockey fan?"

    "The biggest." Her mouth curves up into a smile. David feels like he's been jolted into the boards.

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    Shane was never meant to be an only child.

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    14 Aug 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 56

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    Shane freezes -

    because now he can see the vague mottling of light bruises across Ilya's chest. Bruises because - because Shane had - he has visible bruising after their game because -

    "I hurt you."

    Shane hardly recognises his own voice. It's flat, disbelieving, too loud in the quiet of the room.

    Shane accidentally checks Ilya too hard during a game and, predictably, spirals. Ilya doesn't quite understand why, but tries.

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    13 Aug 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 60

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    So when the team doctor asks him about his recent sleep habits, Ilya says, “Seven hours.”

    And the doctor hums and nods and says, “Well, that is a bit low, but I wouldn’t be concerned quite yet. Do you feel it is impacting your day to day life?”

    And Ilya says, “Yes.” And then he blinks, and says, “No. Seven hours this week.”

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Shane is the steady ground he stands upon, the hand that guides him, the very air that he breathes. They’re so entwined now, that Ilya is certain he would cease to exist if ever they were separated.

    It’s maybe becoming a problem.

    Or, 5 times Ilya and Shane try (and fail) not to be codependent, and 1 time they just give into it.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    “How’s your head, baby?” Shane asks, his voice soft and steady despite the lingering fear.

    “I have never had any complaints.”

    “Jesus Christ,” Shane sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose between his finger and thumb. He’s smiling behind his hand, though. The relief in his body is still a palpable thing.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    ★Recently retired NHL star and single dad Shane Hollander is forced to address his desire for a partner when his son’s new hockey coach Ilya Rozanov suddenly falls into their lives!☆

    Or: Single Dad Shane + Hockey Coach Ilya

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    11 Aug 2026

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    God only knows why he thinks it's appropriate to send what can only be considered borderline nudes to Shane, who is straight and in a committed relationship. Shane, again, tries to talk to Jessica about it, but she assures him that it's no big deal, plus, since they're gonna fuck this week, Shane might as well get comfortable looking at him.

    A small part of him takes it as permission. A larger part takes offense. Because why do Ilya's pictures, literally any of them, incite more reaction in Shane's body than any nudes he's gotten from a girl?

    Or: Shane's girlfriend wants to watch him get fucked by a man to spice up their relationship. Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    11 Aug 2026

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    Ilya's life is already at a low ebb, having chased Shane Hollander out of his house and into the arms of American's sweetheart, Rose Landry. Things get even worse when his former coach dies, and a secret Ilya has been avoiding for over a decade is suddenly shockingly, horribly public.

    Or,

    "You heard that Lipovsky died?"

    Lipovsky. The name has the usual deadening effect on Ilya's emotions. He can feel his face going blank as everything drains from him until he's as empty as a bathtub with the plug pulled out. "Yes, of course."

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    08 Aug 2026

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    During a game against the Boston Raiders, the Metros’ star center Shane Hollander sustains a concussion. Six months later, he still has no memory of his life before the injury.

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    14,415

    06 Aug 2026

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