Hi Yes It's Time to Cry
All the fics that make me sob like a baby every time without fail.
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Very little in her nineteen years on this earth have prepared her for the sight of her parents and Elijah to be standing in front of her again.
Her father, his lips upturned in the same way hers do, dimple in his cheek and the familiar blue of his eyes, stands tall in the middle. Elijah, always stoic and proud, is beaming at her from beside him, his suit as pressed and neat as she remembers.
And, then there’s her mother. A tear tracks down her cheek. Her eyes are a different shade of brown than she remembers, but she knows it’s only time that has altered her memory.
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lizzie helps bring hope’s humanity back, and then, josie makes her feel human again
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"I-Is it someone you know? The firefighter they're looking for?" She asks him, sniffing.
Eddie's steady hands freeze. He swallows as he cranes his neck to watch his teammates pulling pieces of rubble away from the pile with their bare hands.
Someone he knows.
Someone he knows?
Eddie has always known Evan Buckley better than his own skin.
He thinks he always will.
(Or, Buck is presumed dead. Eddie is not okay in the time leading up to the discovery that he's alive.)
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“I’m not leaving you, Buck.” Eddie says with a tired sigh, like he’s struggling with the weight of the world and Buck’s the one who put it there. “Just switching jobs, that’s all.”
That’s all?, Buck wants to scream, because every relationship he has is tied to the job in some way, and first Maddie left, and then it was Chimney, and now it’s Eddie. But he doesn’t scream, because that would be a little bit too tragic, even for him, and nods instead. Bites his tongue. Pretends that he isn't falling apart where he's stood.
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Or, set post season 5A, where Buck is alone, and angry, and exhausted, but mostly terrified that everyone he loves is slowly slipping away from him.
**rated mature for heavy themes**
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When Buck's hospitalized after a call, Eddie's left with nothing to do but sit, wait, and spiral in his own thoughts. Filled with lots of growth on Eddie's part, more physical damage to Buck, and a considerable amount of Dad Bobby. All topped off with a sweet little surprise ending and a healthy dose of idiots in love
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"He has it- everything he’s ever wanted. He has his best friend, his partner, the one person he can never lose. And the one person he will always have, in every way he can.
It’s still a shock, realizing that it goes deeper than just love- he truly cannot live without Buck.
What he felt tonight- like his heart was being torn to shreds and ripped from his very chest, like every breath he inhaled was a shard of glass slicing through him, like his nerves themselves were made of fire, burning him from the inside out- that’s how he imagines it would feel to lose one’s soul."
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and my words shoot to kill when i'm mad (i have a lot of regrets about that) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
27 Jun 2022
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In hindsight, Eddie knows the argument is his fault. He knows that he instigated it, he knows that Buck didn't even do anything wrong. He knows that because he'd woken up in a bad mood, that seeing Buck just narrowly escape death again had sent him crashing over that edge from anxious to angry.
He knows—He knows, but when Buck turns his back on him, borderline shaking, and says, "I think it's best if you leave. I don't really want to be around you right now," it hits him like a punch to the gut.
(Or, Eddie thinks he's lost his boyfriend.)
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Buck, her brother, the kid she raised, is gone. The kid who helped her through her lowest and brought her up, and cheered her on even through her highest. The kid she never thought she could lose. The kid she can’t believe is gone. How could she? It’s her brother, and she wasn’t even there through his lowest.
Or: Post lawsuit, Buck gets into a car accident and dies. Eddie feels a certain way, Maddie doesn’t know how to take it, Athena and Bobby comfort each other, Chris lost another parent.
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"So, I will. I’m gonna tell you our story. I will be as delicate as I can because he never deserved anything but gentleness. I only hope I was able to love him the way the universe intended me to love him. I can’t fathom thinking that loving him from this far will ever amount to what I could’ve done had we had our whole lives. I was too late."
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After Buck dies, Eddie writes ten heartfelt letters to Maddie, telling her the story of how they fell in love, so she can feel closer to her brother once again.
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"Eddie,
I’m not sure if you know who I am by my name.
I’m Kelsey, William’s wife. Maybe you only knew him by his last name
Greggs."or;
Eddie receives a very unexpected letter from the family of an old friend and confesses to things he’s never uttered out loud before.
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I got nothing. I was inspired by a tiktok post that asked someone to write something like this. I hope that i captured their desire at least somewhat. And as always I refer to my trusty excerpt as I can't write a summary to save my life.
Excerpt:
“W-wass ‘rong” Buck stumbles over his words, exhausted. His hair is bed messy, sandy locks tossed in wild directions.
“You almost fucking died.” Eddie says.
He begins to cry.
It happens somewhere between the words leaving his mouth and his understanding of their gravity. He says them over and over again brokenly. Like now that the dam has broken there’s no stopping its release.
Buck moves close to Eddie and cups his face in his hands.
“Eddie, Eddie, Ed. Hey, look at me,” and he slips one hand under Eddie’s chin to turn his face towards him. “But I didn’t. I didn’t honey. I'm right here.”"
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If you stop to think about it, a tsunami really happens in three parts. The wave draws back, like you draw your fist back before a punch, then the fist extends, the wave rushes out onto shore and chases people inland. Then it flows back out to sea, like it was never there at all. The tsunami could have gone so differently, but in all the ways it could have gone, Eddie feels terror grip his chest and watches, with his eyes forced open, as the people he loves get hurt again and again and again.
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Three (mostly) standalone tsunami AUs.