ren's self indulgent angst
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give me your eyes, i need the sunshine by renaissance_sunfish
Fandoms: SolarBalls (Web Series)
16 May 2026
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Everyone was always so vague about what he needed to do. Jupiter was so utterly terrified of hurting someone, he needed a set of instructions on what to do so that everyone was happy. Even at the cost of his own happiness.
At the price of his ability to move on. He would choke on guilt and regret if it kept everyone happy.
He would die for them.
But Jupiter swore he didn't want to die.
OR: Jupiter and the rest of the solar system go through with SIMP's orders. The void is a dark, cold place.
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- Part 1 of ren's self indulgent angst
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we can meet again somewhere (somewhere far away from here) by renaissance_sunfish
Fandoms: SolarBalls (Web Series)
02 May 2026
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(yes the title is taken from sign of the times, I've already seen phm twice and I love it so freaking much)
Jupiter had noticed how X had changed since joining the rogues. Even in the way he was standing now, looking directly at him, he was more confident, more...casual? He had started to move on, of course.
And now, looking in his eyes, which for once weren't filled with hate, fear or vengeance, Jupiter knew he couldn't take that away from him.
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Jupiter and X say goodbye for the last time. It's just like how Jupiter imagined.
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- Part 2 of ren's self indulgent angst
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It's all wrong (it's alright) by renaissance_sunfish for ErisTheMachine
Fandoms: SolarBalls (Web Series)
29 Apr 2026
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Venus is the goddess of love. So why is he so bad at it?
Basically Venus reflecting on how he hasn't had a normal relationship with anyone since Theia.
Or: Venus has some fun reminiscing the past with a slight never-gonna-happen polyamory crisis deep below the surface
(Response to a fic by ErisTheMachine)
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- Part 3 of ren's self indulgent angst
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We don't have nothing to say (so we have nothing left) by renaissance_sunfish
Fandoms: SolarBalls (Web Series)
29 Mar 2026
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i love angst a bit too much so heres a rewrite/my own take on Jupiter and X's conversation before X left the solar system if uhh one-sided jupix :)
apologies for any mischaracterisation lol :^
(also just imagine that x doesn't return with the rogue planets in this au...)Series
- Part 4 of ren's self indulgent angst
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like you have empathy inside but you don't really care by ErisTheMachine, renaissance_sunfish
Fandoms: SolarBalls (Web Series)
04 Mar 2026
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'Once again, Mercury had been at a loss for words. What are you even meant to say to someone who wants to die?
"Please don't" sounds too generic.
"We all care about you..." won't help either.
And after the first time, he didn't know what else to try. After a while you run out of new things to say and can't come up with reasons for them to stay.'
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Mercury is tired of being the therapist friend and dealing with other people's burdens and issues
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- Part 5 of ren's self indulgent angst
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"The problem with not knowing yourself is that, when you’re alone, you don't even have your own mind to keep you company. So, you cling to the first person you find, desperate for a connection to prove that you're real. That you exist."
OR: X has finally left the solar system. And maybe the silence can reveal some thoughts he wanted to push away.
(title from Waiting Room by Phoebe Bridgers)
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- Part 6 of ren's self indulgent angst