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A new Stucky playlist by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
11 Dec 2017
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This is the official playlist for Ignite your bones, my AU Stucky novella. Whether you decide to listen and read or not, I hope you enjoy this selection of songs.
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- Part 1 of Whoa Bessie
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Ignite your bones by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
11 Dec 2017
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James and Steve loved each other once. But they've been separated for 10 years. James has been to war, and Steve's fought battles of his own.
Fate brings them together again, but James doesn't remember Steve.
He's not sure he remembers himself.
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Also known as The ffing Stucky novella, in which Laur makes it personal.
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- Part 2 of Whoa Bessie
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Dodging bullets with your broken past by Builder for Forever_Dreaming24
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
11 Jan 2018
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A fall should be just a fall. But a setback isn't always so straightforward.
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- Part 3 of Whoa Bessie
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Every time you see through me by Builder
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
05 Apr 2018
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Sometimes it's a challenge for James to unravel his feelings, physical and mental. Steve is an expert at knitting him back together.
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- Part 4 of Whoa Bessie
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String from your tether unwinds by Builder
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
04 May 2018
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The flu hits and takes Steve down with it. Bucky's only just getting back on his feet, and it's more then he can manage.
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- Part 5 of Whoa Bessie
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String from your tether unwinds by Builder
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
04 May 2018
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The flu hits and takes Steve down with it. Bucky's only just getting back on his feet, and it's more then he can manage.
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- Part 5 of Whoa Bessie
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Hollow heroes separate by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
28 May 2018
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Bucky can't hold his feelings in anymore. It all comes pouring out in screams and yells and tears. He's finished.
But Steve isn't.
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- Part 6 of Whoa Bessie
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Near him I must always be by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
15 Jul 2018
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No matter now normal life gets, living with a traumatic brain injury is never predictable.
Some days, Steve gets up and makes the coffee. Some days, he sits with James when he has a seizure in the middle of the kitchen floor.
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- Part 7 of Whoa Bessie
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We all need control by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
25 Aug 2018
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An angry red mark is blooming on the hard line Steve’s jaw, a visual reminder of what James is still capable of. Guilt bubbles hot and sick in the pit of his stomach.
“I…” James starts. “Stevie, I-I’m…” He shakes his head.
“It’s ok,” Steve says again. He opens his arms wide. “Can I touch you? Can I hug you?”
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Recovery's still a rocky road.
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- Part 8 of Whoa Bessie
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Hose me down with holy water by Builder for Mohini
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
02 Sep 2018
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Sometimes the mundane things set him off. But sometimes the mundane things bring him back. When James can't differentiate the real world from the world in his head, Steve comes to rescue him. With love and frozen vegetables.
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- Part 9 of Whoa Bessie
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Tears aren’t bad. Steve tells that to his clients all the time. Sometimes they’re necessary. Emotional purging works very much in the same way as its physical counterpart: sometimes things just need to come up.
“It’s ok,” Steve soothes. “It’s ok. You’re ok.”
James pauses sniveling to listen to Steve’s voice, but then he sobs again, air gusting from his lips and making the wetness cold against Steve’s skin. The vomit on his leg is cold too. But the tears that run from the corners of his own eyes are hot. He’d hug James all day and into the night, but he also can’t take this anymore. The physical weight of him is too much on top of the weight of the responsibility Steve feels for him.
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- Part 10 of Whoa Bessie
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“I…” James seems to think about it. “I…don’t feel very good. I don’t want to go to the… the… whatever it is. Sorry.”
“Hey, don’t worry about it, Buck.” Steve presses the backs of his knuckles under Bucky’s chin, wondering how well he can gauge a fever when he’s running one himself.
“Are…you ok?” James asks, peering into Steve’s face.
“I actually don’t feel that great either,” Steve admits with a congested chuckle. “We’ll take it easy today.”
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- Part 11 of Whoa Bessie
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James doesn’t remember the pinch or the burn the first time. Just the shadows of his captors and the fog of the drug he’s been given. They’re saying something to him, but he can’t understand it. It isn’t English, and it doesn’t sound like Pashto. James cycles through the bits and pieces of French and Spanish cached in the recesses of his brain, then stops when he gets to Yiddish. It’s been greater than a decade since he’s heard any of that, though somewhere in the haze he’s eight years old again and in trouble.
There’s a sound like the cocking of a gun, and he realizes he’s just scared. Then there’s a needle in his arm again, and he’s asleep.
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- Part 12 of Whoa Bessie
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What?” Steve asks. “What can’t you find?”
James sighs. Shrugs. “Hearing aids.” It’s called blast-induced hearing loss, and more and more veterans are getting it diagnosed nowadays. Steve wasn’t bothered by all the what?’s and huh?’s, but he’s still glad James finally caved and let him drag him to the audiologist.
“Ah.” Steve doesn’t know what to say to this. Yesterday James had a fit and threw the bits of blue and gold plastic at him because he couldn’t fathom putting them in his ears. Now today, they’re missing in action. It only figures, since they haven’t yet been recovered from the all-swallowing carpet.
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- Part 13 of Whoa Bessie
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Merrily we roll along by Builder for Mohini
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
20 Jun 2019
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“Let me just cancel your appointment. Then we’ll go so you can have your migraine in peace.” It’s the sad truth to seizures like this. First absence. Then illness. Then pain.
“Sorry. R-really, I’m…” The words may be in the wrong order, but the sentiment is sincere.
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- Part 14 of Whoa Bessie
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“Come’ere, Buck.” Steve wraps his arm around James’s shoulders, gentle as the flap of a dove’s wing. His vintage soft t-shirt brushes James’s cheek, burning slightly as it scrapes over stubble, then coming to rest as warm comfort.
James nuzzles into him, sick enough to be beyond caring who might be watching and quietly judging. He’s still sensitive about public displays of affection, but today it’s trumped with worry about public displays of illness.
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- Part 15 of Whoa Bessie
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Sleep all day, talk all night by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
14 Jul 2019
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Steve tries medicating him, offering little blue capsules and a bottle of lukewarm beer along with James’s regular night meds. Sometimes it works and pushes him back towards the heavy dream state and drops him into unconsciousness, but more often it does the opposite makes him feel jumpy and sick, like he’s walking through a haunted house or out in the field searching down IEDs.
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- Part 16 of Whoa Bessie
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Sleeping on my side by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
14 Jul 2019
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He’s not trying to buy James a cure. Steve reminds himself of that every time he clicks ‘add to cart.’ But if spending a little extra brings him a little more happiness, Steve is alright with that.
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- Part 17 of Whoa Bessie
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On the road again by Builder
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
12 Sep 2019
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It starts when James falls to his knees beside the breakfast table clutching his head. He’d gone to bed with a headache, but this is definitely an upgrade, and an impressive one at that.
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- Part 18 of Whoa Bessie
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Contribution for Whumptober 2019 Day 25
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- Part 19 of Whoa Bessie