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“Am I dirty?” he asked before he could think better of it.
Suguru looked him up and down with a curious expression, squinting, searching for something that could explain whatever the hell was going on. “Huh? No… you look fine to me.”
That’s not what I meant. Am I filthy, or am I pure?
“Are—are you sure?” It came out weak, brittle. He lightly unclasped the hand from Suguru’s jacket which he was still holding, leaving it just hovering over the fabric. He was scared he’d burn Suguru again, but he was more scared about being unclean. “What about my hands?”
Without reservation, Suguru gently took Satoru’s hand from the jacket and then lifted the other, still pressed to Satoru’s chest, into his own small palms. He turned his hands till his palms faced God, and Lord, did they burn, but before he could pull back, Suguru held them firmly, thumbs brushing over the lines and grooves of his palms, steady, careful, unflinching.
“All clean, ‘Toru. I promise. See?”
Satoru did not believe him.
Or, Satoru wrestles with God, the Bible, and the slow, undeniable realization that he is in love with his best friend, Suguru.
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11 May 2026
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the principles of neural science by HamsterQinghua
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
02 Dec 2025
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“Why would you make your password my birthday?”
“It’s… harder to guess, right?”
“Sure,” Suguru agrees after a pause. “I guess that makes sense.” He punches in his birthday, and Satoru’s computer screen blooms to life. Suguru moves to open a new tab to find his paper again, but his eyes inevitably draw to the open, fully visible tab Satoru has open on the screen.
how too confess to ur dense cruh
In Satoru-speak, that’s “how to confess to your dense crush.” Suguru’s deciphered enough of Satoru’s texts to know that much.
The translation comes instantly to him. The actual processing of what Suguru’s seeing takes much longer. For a few moments, he simply stares at the screen.
Crush. Satoru has a crush? And Suguru didn’t know?
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or, Suguru helps Satoru confess to his crush
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04 May 2026
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A Story Without A Happy Ending by ilovegetosuguru
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
04 Mar 2021
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In this world, people are born with two names on their wrist. One will be your soulmate; The other, your worst enemy.
Getou Suguru is born with the name Gojo Satoru on both wrists.
(A story told from the perspective of Shoko Ieiri.)
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She gestures to the bandages on Getou’s wrist, stained with blood. “I need to change them.”
“I won’t look,” Gojo says.
“I don’t trust you.”
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06 Apr 2026
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the worms crawl in, the worms crawl out by losersimonriley
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)
31 Oct 2024
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Simon and Johnny die. And then they wake up.
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06 Jan 2026
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"They took you from me," Ghost says roughly.
"And you came and got me back," Soap agrees, leaning into the touch. "Knew it was only a matter of time. 'Til ye came fer what's yours."
Ghost's trembling, for a moment, gets worse.
"And are you, Johnny?" he whispers. "Mine?"
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18 Jul 2025
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Simon Riley does not know how to say "I love you". But like any good dog he knows how to bite.
(Title: "Life in Bullet Time" - Miracle of Sound)
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11 Jun 2025
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“Why are you hovering?” Soap snaps at Gaz one particularly bad evening.
Gaz shrugs at him sadly, pityingly, “Because he asked me to.” Soap doesn’t know what the fuck that’s supposed to mean but he knows he doesn’t like it.
On Sunday Price summons them both into his office and delivers the only news he can: Ghost isn't dead yet. Not yet. The words echo around Soap’s head like gunfire. He’s lost men before, lost friends and officers before, it's part of the job. He doesn’t know why this time is affecting him so deeply. 'You do know.' His mind screams at him. 'You know why you can’t bear to lose him.'
Soap takes long pulls from the bourbon bottle that night hoping for a dreamless sleep, instead for the next seven hours he pictures nut brown eyes and white bone.
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05 Jun 2025
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There’s a teddy in Soap’s bed; a beaten-up, old brown bear. Well-loved, if the state of the fur is any indication. Ghost lets out a choked laugh, mostly at his own expense. He wishes he was there, suddenly, wishes he was by Johnny’s side as he walked through the doorway and realised that his childhood room was waiting for him like a time capsule. Wishes he got to see the embarrassed scrunch of his face, the way the tips of his ears would flush red.
Soap has a whole second life, outside of the SAS. He’s got a mother, and a poorly-decorated bedroom, and a bear. All Ghost has is a flat that will be the same it is today as it will be the day he dies, like he was never even here at all.
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16 Dec 2024
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There’s no explanation for it, at least not one he’s willing to acknowledge, why Soap’s blood smells so much better than anyone and everyone else Ghost has ever met. Has since the moment he walked onto base. Was probably the driving force behind Ghost finally caving and allowing Johnny to cultivate the fragile friendship that exists between them.
If in his weaker moments Simon has sometimes wished that it could extend beyond friendship, stray into a slightly riskier territory of fraternisation and feelings, well, that’s nobody’s business but his, and he doesn’t intend to inspect it too closely.
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04 Dec 2024
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"Ohh, c’mon,” Soap goads. “I thought this was a date. Be a gentleman.”
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21 Nov 2024
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Soap huffs, wiping the dried blood from his ear. He stares at his fingers for a long moment, then leans his head against the wall, staring out into the moonlight. “What if it didn’t have to be a mistake, huh? You and me. What if you could be happy?”
“I think that’s what I’m most afraid of.”
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When Ghost realised he was in love with Soap MacTavish, that realisation scared him beyond belief, and he cut himself off in response.
And he'd do anything to undo that mistake.
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11 Nov 2024
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Sergeant John "Soap" MacTavish is declared K.I.A during a failed recon mission in 2017. His commanding officer, Captain John Price, takes the loss personally but has no other choice then to move on. He creates Task Force 141, keeps the bad guys scared of the dark, and hunts Makarov relentlessly - the man who killed his sergeant all those years ago.
Five years later, Price fights an assassin with a familiar face.
Spectre-07 doesn’t remember anything. Maybe he had once, but years of conditioning have stripped his mind bare, save for the instinct to kill. It's all he knows, all he craves; the blood of his target between his fingers, at the end of his scope or along the blade of his knives. He's a cold-blooded, empty headed machine, and he doesn't hesitate.
Until he does.
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- Part 1 of nothing but my aching soul
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11 Nov 2024
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It's been fifty four days since Ghost shut down, cold and silent as he stormed out of his quarters. Soap fucked up, plain and simple. He said something he shouldn’t have, didn’t give any thought to how it could be taken, and he knew it the moment it left his lips. Some nights he wants to barge inside Ghost’s room and beg him to just end it all, to smother Soap's misery gone. Soap can’t recall how he went through life before Ghost, but he can’t go on after him.
There is no after Simon Riley.
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23 Oct 2024
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Ghost arches a critical, amused brow just to watch MacTavish scowl. “Well, there’s your problem, sir. Maybe if you stopped fuckin’ women half your size you’d be gettin’ somewhere past the halfway mark.”
“And you’re suggestin’ what — that I find some girl and stick my prick up her arse?”
“It has to be a woman?”
MacTavish stares at him, struck silent. Ghost inches his knees apart and tries and fails to keep the smirk off his lips when his captain’s eyes drop. He watches as MacTavish’s throat bobs, swallowing heavily before he rasps, “I’m not gay, Riley.”
Ghost nods easily. He doesn’t spit the word, at least, doesn’t cringe away at the mere suggestion. Just a statement: he’s not gay, so he hasn’t considered asking a man. “‘S alright,” he grins, lilts his tone into something blithe and oblivious as he bends his knee, frames the bulge in his leggings just so — “More for me, I suppose.”
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- Part 1 of love's a fire
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21 Oct 2024
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Price has known Ghost longer and better than just about anyone else on earth.
So, understandably, the golden ring that suddenly appears on Ghost's finger takes him completely off guard.
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21 Oct 2024
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without you here (everything’s in black and white) by RandomWordsAndStormyDays
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games), Modern Warfare 2 (2022)
03 Nov 2022
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Soap watches Ghost die, and has to learn how to live without him.
But what’s dead doesn’t stay dead.
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10 Oct 2024
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Ghost can handle torture. Torture is easy, it’s been done to him so many times he can turn his brain off and it’s like it’s not even happening. Except they’re not torturing him, they’re torturing Soap on his behalf. Tearing him apart piece by piece so that Ghost will tell them everything.
But their mission is on the line, and Soap is telling him to let it happen, that his life isn’t as important as keeping their intel out of enemy hands.
So he bites his tongue while they break Soap, just waiting for the moment they make a mistake.
Title from K. Flay
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10 Oct 2024
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It's finally time for a break. Soap and Ghost try to get on the same page about what that means, Price sheds his first tear since '06, and Gaz gets absolutely sloshed out of his mind.
Navigating life outside base and battlefield is a tricky ordeal.
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- Part 13 of Any Time You Need Me
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02 Oct 2024
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Ghost had been willing to call it a coincidence the first time, even the second, but this was getting concerning, maddening, even.
The notes kept appearing. Stuck to the wall beside the front door, onto the door of the microwave, onto the kitchen counter, the bathroom mirror – even his bloody nightstand.
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- Part 1 of Against the Kitchen Floor
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01 Oct 2024