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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    17 Sep 2026

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    "We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”

    Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.

    Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
     

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    OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).

    They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.

    Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.

    But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.

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    30 Aug 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    16 Aug 2026

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    I was really fucking obvious, he thinks. I’m so fucked. And Ilya… is he going to be pissed? If he even can be pissed again. If he’ll even be okay? Okay enough to ever be angry at him again? The thought of Ilya Rozanov being furious with him is starting to sound really good, because it means he’s alive and breathing.
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    It's the day after tuna meltdown. Ilya gets injured on the ice in the Boston vs. Montreal game. Shane is forced to confront what he’s been pushing down.

    Plus all the fall-out after.

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    Ilya is Shane's baby

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    14 Aug 2026

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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    12 Aug 2026

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    A rough emergency landing of the Ottawa Centaurs' plane in Tampa, Florida makes national headlines.

    With Ilya's phone lost in the chaos, Shane has no way of finding out if Ilya is injured - or how injured. So he makes his way to Tampa.

    Or: The plane crash/incident in the long game but a rougher landing, more injuries (no significant/long-lasting harm), and Shane running to Tampa to see Ilya.

    Story and Chapter titles are lyrics of the song 'Sleepwalking' by All Time Low that gave me the inspiration for this fic!

    First half of the story will be Angsty hurt/comfort, second half will be the comfort part of hurt/comfort with a dose of crack.

    Updates every Thursday

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    08 Aug 2026

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    "He saw the corners of Ilya's lips curve up ever so slightly in that infuriating, tiny hint of a smile. “Goodbye, Shane Hollander.”

    Shane could only ogle as Ilya walked away. Fuck. His ass was fat. This was so bad.

    Shane Hollander, star athlete, D1 hockey team captain, campus heartthrob, was being completely undone by a brooding Slavic art major that he would probably crawl on his fucking knees and bark for."

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    Shane is ready for another boring semester where he has to pretend like he cares about anything other than hockey. Until he sits down next to a mysterious Russian art student who also happens to be the hottest guy Shane has ever seen.

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    07 Aug 2026

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    Powerful, euphoric, hot.
    That’s how he felt when he had Ilya’s undivided attention, that’s how he felt when he’s manhandled and contorted into all sorts of positions and that’s how he felt when Ilya pounded him so hard he blacked out; it’s happened a couple of times.

    Or: An extended look at the couch scene in the Episode 4 montage

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    30 Jul 2026

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    The slow soft launch of Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov's relationship as told by social media.

    Takes place 2020 - 2021.

    With guest appearances from multishippers, Shaydens, Marlow/Rozanov shippers, Svetlana fans and the firm believers in Hollandry endgame.

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    30 Jul 2026

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