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  1. Public Bookmark 97

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    Shane’s boyfriend just couldn’t fuck him right, fortunately his ex could.

    So Shane invites his ex over to fuck him while his boyfriend watches and learns. It’s purely educational. Totally not about the unresolved feelings that they both don’t have

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    31 Jan 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 61

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    "Yuna stiffens lightly when the door opens.

    She shouldn't, she knows. She shouldn't be this on-edge with Ilya, not after knowing about him and Shane for six months. She should be more open to the man who has made her son so, so happy. She should be offering him beverages and playing the role of gracious host, if not the happy mother."
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    Or, six months after meeting Shane's boyfriend, Yuna still has concerns.

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    30 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 23

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    Shane tries to surprise Ilya.

    That does not end well.

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    30 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    Excerpt...
    ...If Shane didn't get things under control right now, he was going to give his own secret away right here and now. But did he really care?
    His phone shook in his trembling hands as he desperately tried to make the call, but he didn't have his glasses on and he was truly crying now so the screen was just a blur of light.
    "I need to— I can't—" He gasped, and Hayden squeezed his hand before gently pulling the phone away from him. Then Shane heard the phone as it began to ring, and ring, and ring, and ring. Then there was silence, and then Ilya's snarky voicemail recording issued through the phone's speakers. Shane was going to be sick...

    Or...What if the emergency landing was a little bit more of a crash landing?

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    30 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 47

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    Their first year of marriage was the best year of Ilya’s life. He got to wake up to his husband every morning, play hockey with him all day, and go home with him every night. They’d established a routine that felt comfortable and reliable, and Ilya felt settled for perhaps the first time in his life. They had dinner with Shane’s parents at least once a week, and afterwards he would destroy them all at Yahtzee. It was the kind of domestic bliss that Ilya had always secretly dreamed of, but never felt he deserved. The years ahead of them stretched with endless possibility, and Ilya felt wonderfully, exceedingly lucky to be alive.

    But a phone call after a quiet day at the cottage changes everything. And suddenly, their future becomes dangerously uncertain.

    Or: Excessive and wholesome Hollanov dad content, as a treat

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    30 Jan 2026

  6. Public Bookmark *

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    "We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”

    Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.

    Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
     

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    OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).

    They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.

    Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.

    But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.

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    Chapters:
    9/?
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    29 Jan 2026

  7. Public Bookmark *

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    An unexpected encounter with Ilya Rozanov - and a newly changed perspective of him - leads Yuna into a series of conversations with both halves of the rivalry - and slowly into both an unexpected friendship and a new understanding of what the 'rivalry' entails.
    Or: (5 times Yuna reached out to Ilya, +1 time he reached out to her first; 5 times Yuna tried to get Shane to talk to her, +1 time she didn't need to.)

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    Chapters:
    11/13
    Comments:
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    29 Jan 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 6

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    Yuna and David have a sweet (and practical) proposal for Shane and Ilya.

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    29 Jan 2026

  9. Public Bookmark *

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    But when Ilya felt Shane rest his head, Ilya knew it was okay to move. So he snaked his arms around Shane's waist to pull him closer, a soft kiss to the top of the brunette's shoulder before turning slightly to kiss the top of his ear.

    "tired again?" Ilya asked, his voice laced with a soft tease that made Shane softly smile "hmm." He nodded, Ilya's lips curled into a smirk "you have no stamina for hockey player... " He began, that tease still there "But, is okei. Sleep"

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    What if instead of panicking and leaving, Shane had actually stayed the night with Ilya?

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    29 Jan 2026

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    Shane confesses he imagined Ilya the entire time he was with Rose Landry, couldn’t even stay hard without picturing Ilya’s mouth and cock. Ilya, burning with possession, demands the filthy details while he gets on his knees for Shane.

    -🏒-

    “Tell me again,” Ilya says, voice low, almost a growl. “Everything you thought about when you were inside her.”

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    29 Jan 2026

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    “I had a six-thirty alarm,” he says, breath coming faster. “My flight to Columbus—”

    He stops.

    His pocket is empty.

    He pats the bed. The floor. The nightstand.

    “My phone,” he says, dread pooling low in his stomach.

    Ilya sits up fully now. “You don’t have it?”

    “I left it on the beach,” Shane says faintly.

    The implications hit all at once.

    He’s missed his flight.

    And somewhere, buried in the sand in Tampa, his phone is still silent and unlocked.

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    For years, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have lived in the narrow space between rivalry and want, heated, familiar, and deliberately unnamed. The rules are simple: keep it quiet, keep it temporary, don’t let it become real.

    But grief has a way of loosening control. Desire has a way of asking for more. And when private moments are dragged into the open, both men are forced to confront what secrecy has protected, and what it’s been costing them all along.

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    Chapters:
    10/?
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    29 Jan 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 35

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    Shane had esophageal cancer at 4 years old. The radiation and the surgery damaged his ability to swallow, which naturally affected his ability to eat, drink...and give blow jobs.

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    Comments:
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    29 Jan 2026

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    After a fight with Shane, Ilya ends up in a bar trying to forget it. But when the worst happens, who will answer Ilya's call?

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    8/?
    Comments:
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    28 Jan 2026

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    It was one of his favorite things to do. Watching his person play. Ilya was the most alive during it, and Shane just loved seeing him shine. In the arena, all the weight Ilya carried seemed to fall away, allowing him to be light.

    Shane’s eyes never left Ilya, and when it happened, he barely registered at first.

    It happened so fast. Suddenly the puck hit Ilya’s throat. Shane’s stomach dropped.

    Ilya couldn’t breathe.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    28 Jan 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 7

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    “I’ll get you your medicine.” There was silence at the other end. It made Shane nervous. Did he cross the line?

    “...Why?”

    He could ask himself the same thing.

    “...Because I’m already outside?”

    “Ah. You are eager to see me, yes? You miss me?”

    “Ugh fine. I’ll just let you giant head stew in there until it mushes.”

    “No, Shane—” there it was again! “Fine, you can get me my medicine.”

    Why did it sound like Rosanov was doing him a favor?

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    What if Shane and Ilya got an earlier chance to exist at each other's orbits without having sex or fighting? Or both?

    Warning: tags might change

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    3/?
    Comments:
    6
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    28 Jan 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 94

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    Jackie and Hayden really want to meet the infamous Lily and manage to procure "her" phone number.
    This takes place a few months after the boyfriends-conversation, but before Ilya moves to Ottawa.

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    Comments:
    14
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    28 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark *

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    What happens if Shane almost died on the ice that day?
    What if Ilya lets them take him away and never sees him again?
    What if Ilya never gets to tell Shane that he loves him?
    Ilya is done caring about the repercussions if it means staying by the love of his life during the scariest moment of his life.
    (This is a reimagining of the injury Shane sustains during the BOS/MTL game.)

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    Chapters:
    10/?
    Comments:
    47
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    6,138

    27 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander's world ends on the ice in the last game of the season. He wakes up with synesthesia—every voice floods his vision with colors so overwhelming he can't stand to be around anyone. His best friend makes him sick. His parents give him headaches.

    Except Ilya Rozanov. His rival. The man he's been sleeping with in secret for three years. Ilya's voice is the only one that doesn't hurt.

    So Shane does the only thing he can: retreats to his cottage and calls Ilya to come stay. Alone together, they can't hide anymore.

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    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    74
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    537
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    165
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    8,404

    27 Jan 2026

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    27 Jan 2026

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    “Shane,” Rose says gently. “I don’t think Eva is good for you.”

    Shane sighs into his water glass. This again. You get one shoe thrown at you during an a argument and suddenly everyone thinks you’re being abused.

    Or: Shane ends up dating Rose’s co-star rather than her, and soon finds himself in an abusive relationship. Ilya and Shane's friends need to put aside their differences in order to keep him safe.

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    Chapters:
    30/35
    Comments:
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    1,164
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    130,475

    27 Jan 2026

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