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    Shane Hollander would probably rather die than admit to the world (or himself) that he’s a sub, because all respected NHL players are doms. When years of living a touch-starved, repressed, hockey-focused life finally catch up with him and cause a medical emergency, he’s not scared or sad. He’s fucking angry. And he becomes Ilya Rozanov’s problem at the Behavioral Education & Authority Relationships Services (B.E.A.R.S. for short).

    or: Shane is strong, stubborn, difficult and he bites. Ilya is extremely patient but instantly whipped. A not entirely typical bdsm AU.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

    --

    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    30 Aug 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    18 Aug 2026

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    Scent patches were mandatory for anyone participating in World Junior's, but a lot of the Russian guys Shane saw in the hotel or around the rink had them loosely attached to their necks or not quite centered over their scent gland. Shane had been on his way to his parents' car when the wind shifted, and he smelled that Rozanov, leaning against the wall and not-at-all-surreptitiously fishing a carton of cigarettes out of his pocket, must have been one of them.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    13 Jul 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 2221

    Mystery Work

    Part of Private Privy Priv
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    10 Jun 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    “I have a game.”

    “A game? For my birthday?”

    “Mhm,” Ilya kept his lips pressed against Shane's skin as he spoke. “But we have to start it now.”

    “My birthday isn't for two more weeks.”

    “Oh, Shane. I promise you are going to want two weeks when I tell you what it is,” Ilya smirked against his husband's jawline.

    “Tell me.”

    “Thirty-five, yes?”

    “If you're about to make another joke about how I'm older than you—”

    “I want to make you cum thirty-five times for me.”

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    10k words of Ilya giving Shane orgasms

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    31 May 2026

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    MLH Tracker @MLHTracker
    rozanov81 (Ilya Rozanov) started following 3 and unfollowed 0:

    ✅ montrealmetros (The Montreal Metros)
    ✅ shanehollanderofficial (Shane Hollander)
    ✅ metrosworst (Worst Metros Plays)
    ⏎ 55 ⟳ 39 ♡ 732

    rozanov defender @gremlinroz
    ... alright who told ilya about the mlh tracker
    ⏎ 0 ⟳ 10 ♡ 63

    lea @rozanovsss
    getting ready for the game on thursday i see... masterful trolling
    ⏎ 5 ⟳ 1 ♡ 37

    The history of Hollanov, primarily as seen through the MLH Tracker on Twitter.

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    18 May 2026

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    16 May 2026

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    13 May 2026

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    **COMPLETE!**

     

    “Then I’d suggest an alpha assist,” Shah had told him, handing across some pamphlet with a company logo on, “It’s the safest option.”

    She’d said it like it was commonplace, normal. Maybe it was, for other people.

    “Can’t I just... wait it out, like I normally do?”

    Shah had sighed at that, her cool, medical professionalism being tested by the limits of Shane’s stubbornness. “You train, right? You do macrobiotic with high protein? This is the same thing – keeping your body in peak physical condition.”

    OR

    Shane has been sitting out his heats alone for years, denying himself. Then the Metros medic suggests an alpha to assist him...

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    10 May 2026

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    Welcome to the secure chat room.
    Chatting with 10 users.
    You are user AU08

    Rozanov: I want to coordinate a mass coming out for a bunch of MLH players. If we all come out at once, no one has to be first.

    Or, after his father's funeral Ilya decides to gather all the queer hockey players for a mass coming out.

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    06 May 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of Crypto
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    05 May 2026

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

    ----

    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

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    11/11
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    04 May 2026

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    Hayden Pike will do anything for Shane Hollander, no questions asked. So when Shane calls him panicking in the middle of the night saying he needs help dealing with a body, Hayden throws on his coat and grabs a shovel like the good friend he is.

    Or: A drunk Ilya passes out right outside Shane’s sex building, and Shane can't move his body.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    Comments:
    289
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    7,548
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    39,552

    01 May 2026

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    Shane
    Last chance. Take your tank top back.

    Lily
    no, it's a fucking gift
    keep it

    Shane
    Fine.
    I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.

    Lily
    what the hell is that supposed to mean???
    hollander
    fuck

    Shane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.

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    Chapters:
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    26 Apr 2026

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    What's a girl to do on a lonely night in Boston? Make a burner account to stan "her" secret boyfriend publicly, no holds barred.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    16 Apr 2026

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    Emmy: When did you first hook up with him?
    Jane: 2010
    Caro: WHAT
    Megan: GIRL
    Tia: SEVEN YEARS??
    Megan: My jaw is borderline unhinged rn

    Or: In 2017, Shane finds a place where he can talk about his sex life...a group chat for girls who have slept with Ilya Rozanov

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    Chapters:
    9/13
    Comments:
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    34,527
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    7,098
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    550,625

    07 Apr 2026

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