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    Shane has been hiding his designation for his entire NHL career. It's been hard, but its been worth it.

    Then a single moment makes everything come tumbling down.

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    18 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 54

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    It all starts when Ilya shows up after the summer covered in hickeys and bite marks.

    Rozanov is, of course, entirely too smug about it, and Marlow wants to know more.

    Set after the cottage, Cliff accidentally finds out a bit more than he's supposed to and gets the chance to be a supportive friend to Ilya.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    "Rozanov?" he says, almost without meaning to. Surely he's mistaken and is about to be told to fuck off. Or, even more alarmingly, he is correct, and then he is certain to be told to fuck off, and possibly punched in the face. The man shifts, eyes drifting from his drink up to Scott and— well, there's no denying it. The captain of the Boston Raiders is drunk in Scott's neighborhood dive bar.

    "Fuck," the response is slow, the delayed reaction of molasses spilling out of a jar carelessly knocked over on the kitchen counter. "I must have overdone it. I have summoned the Ghost of Hockey Past."

    Scott could just leave. He could turn on a heel, and leave this drunk asshole to discover on his own what consequences are.

    Because he's stupid, though, because he's nothing if not a responsible captain even when the drunken idiot in question isn't even one of his own teammates, and yes, because a small part of him can't help but love a good train wreck when he sees one, he sits down instead.

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    Or, Scott Hunter runs into Ilya Rozanov sometime around midnight after a game, and the two saddest, loneliest, most closeted hockey players in New York end up sharing more than they mean to.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    All he could do was watch, eyes locked on Shane rather than the puck like they should be.

    He watched as blood smeared the boards red. He watched as Shane’s body crumbled and hit the ice, with a crunch that seemed louder than any fan in the entire stadium. He watched as Shane just stayed on the ground and did not get up.

    Or: Post-tuna melt, Ilya injures Shane on the ice and has to grapple with the consequences.

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    21 May 2026

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    “Why are you acting like a jealous ex?”

    Shane choked on nothing, his eyes going wide in horror as Ilya cut his gaze away, jaw clenched.

    “Oh my god, you are a jealous ex,” Rose breathed.

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    Rose, Miles, Shane, and Ilya never make it to the club. Instead, they bump into each other outside the rink after the game. Shane and Ilya are very obvious. Rose helps them sort things out.

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane decides he should let everyone believe he has a hook-up in every city, so it will no longer seem suspicious that he always disappears in Boston. While Shane is proud of himself for the ruse and for the ability to explore new places after away games, Ilya handles the new rumor with grace and dignity. Which is to say he suddenly feels the need to text and maybe even call Shane on his roadies to see if he can keep him occupied.

    Based on a Tumblr post listed below.

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    19 May 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 69

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    After a devastating defeat and a horrible performance from Hollander, Ilya doesn’t think Shane is going to meet him, but is surprised when he receives a call just before midnight. But something is off… Is Hollander crying?

     

    Or a fic where Shane has presented as a beta throughout his life and suddenly goes through heat and panics. Ilya is quick to be there to take care of Shane, but Shane’s condition makes it impossible for Ilya to distance himself from Shane, or more so, how he feels for Shane.

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    11 May 2026

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    “I, uh, came to ask for a ride."

    Luca glanced sideways at Boodram, who was frozen with one arm in his jacket. It truly would have been hilarious, the way they all watched this scene unfold like a car crash, if it didn’t also feel like one.

    They shared a confused glance, turning back when Rozanov’s incredulous “A ride?” rang through the locker room.

    “Yeah, I, uh, figured I could use one since I just…quit the Metros,” Hollander said slowly, heaving an exhausted sigh afterwards.

    In which Shane Hollander overhears his teammates talking about him before a game and ends up in the Centaurs' locker room, asking Ilya Rozanov for a ride.

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    06 May 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 95

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    “Hollander is on the ice. Rooney, from here, he doesn’t seem very well.”
    “No, he definitely doesn’t look good. That was a direct hit from Marlow, and it looks like it’s going to cost Hollander the playoffs.”
    “Let’s hope it’s just the finals, Rooney, because even Rozanov is checking on his opponent’s condition”.

    Or Shane experiences a transient global amnesia episode after the concussion Cliff Marlow caused him, and now Ilya needs to restore his memories, or maybe not?

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    03 May 2026

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    It’s nice, having a husband. Even nicer when the doctor leaves and Ilya turns to hold him properly, wrapping both arms around his shoulders, eyes gooey and soft as he looks at Shane like something treasured.

    Shane can’t tell him. He can’t lose this, the way Ilya is looking at him, the ease in how he touches Shane, his husband. No amount of lights shining in his eyes or shouting at the top of his lungs would hurt as much as seeing Ilya’s expression shutter, seeing his face look like it did at Sochi, cold and closed off and not Shane’s anything.

    (OR: Shane wakes up in the future and realizes he has everything he's ever wanted. He doesn't tell anyone he's missing a decade worth of memories as he comes back to himself in pieces.)

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    03 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 60

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    Ilya lands in the hospital after the plane crash. Shane rushes to see his boyfriend that nobody knows about (including Ilya)

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    02 May 2026

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    29 Apr 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 75

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    “It was nice of Rozanov to come check on you."

    Shane understands that Rozanov must be a person, though when he scans through his memories—the ones of being sixteenish and the ones he’s made in this hospital room—he can’t conjure up any details.

    “Who?” He asks, staring up at her.

    “Oh, I should’ve realized. He’s the captain of the other team. You two are pretty serious rivals,” she chuckles. “He just came by to see how you were, and apologize I suppose.”

    “Apol’gize? Did he hit me?”

    “No, no. But, captain to captain, you know….”

    After the nice, pretty nurse leaves, Shane is alone for a moment. He finds himself looking at the doorway, imagining a shadow there, a Rozanov. He has a professional rival? Maybe he’s like that Russian kid everyone says is going to give Shane a run for his money.

    “Rozzzzanov,” Shane says to himself, his hand coming up to rub his chest. Distantly, there’s a beeping that’s getting faster.

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    When Shane is hit during the game, his injury is a lot worse, leading to ten years worth of memory loss. His parents and friends try to help him remember who he is, but something (or someone) is missing…

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    19 Apr 2026

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    “I thought that it would help me get over you,” Shane admits, embarrassed. He squeezes his eyes shut and takes a deep breath. “That maybe I could have sex with a girl and realize that I could do it, and then everything would be easier because I could be like you.”

    “Like me?” Ilya echoes.

    Shane sighs. “Like, also like girls, but I can’t. I’m gay. Just plain old gay.” He sniffles, tears welling in his eyes. “I tried not to be, I really tried not to be. But I just can’t help it.”

     

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    Post tuna melt, Shane doesn’t start dating Rose Landry, and the next time they’re in Boston, Hayden convinces him to come to a club with the team to drink away their loss. After a disastrous hook-up with a woman, Shane wanders around Boston in the middle of the night until he finds himself at Ilya’s house, unsure of how he got there.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Rozanov made a dismissive noise. “No, no, I will pick you up. Send me your address.”

    “I’m not giving you my home address.”

    “Why not!”

    “Because you’ll probably post it on social media to psych me out before our next game.”

    That made Rozanov laugh. “It is good idea,” he said. Stopped laughing. Started again. Blew out a breath like he had to get himself together. “I might do this to you,” he allowed, “but you have nice boyfriend living with you now. I would not do this to him. You are safe.”

     

    In which Ilya Rozanov adopts himself into Scott and Kip's household and refuses to leave. Kip finds this very sweet. Scott is going to kill him.

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    09 Apr 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 71

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    Hollander glanced down at his phone and smiled at whatever it was his girlfriend sent him. Then he looked up at Ilya again. “Anyway, wanna find out what we might have in common in room 1847 tonight?”

    Ilya was surprised at the forwardness, especially with Hollander’s girlfriend’s text still on his screen. But Ilya’s heart and head was jumping up and down in glee.

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    Or, Ilya is 100% ready to be the other woman.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    The day after attending a charity event in Vancouver, Shane, Ilya, Scott, and a few other players board a plane to take them to Tampa for 2017 All Stars.

    The plane goes down somewhere in the wilderness, in the middle of a storm.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Hanahaki disease is not supposed to happen to actual people, sitting on actual stairwells with sweat cooling on their skin, with an actual game in two days that has a sponsorship contract riding on it. It’s not supposed to happen off-screen, without violins and an audience.
    And it definitely isn’t supposed to happen to the first Asian-Canadian MVP of the National Hockey League.
    Shane curls his fingers slowly around the petal, like if he hides it, if he doesn’t look at it, it might stop being real.

    Or: the one where Shane is one of the lucky few humans in the world predisposed to Hanahaki disease. He copes with it as well as you might expect.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Hayden Pike is determined to figure out who 'Lily' is, and he plans to get to the bottom of it by questioning his best friend and also possibly doing a little snooping. Set mainly in the year after Heated Rivalry, when Ilya was still playing for Boston and his first year with Ottawa when Shane and Ilya's relationship was a secret.

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    19 Jan 2026

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