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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    A rookie's bad hit sends Ilya into the boards during the Boston-Montreal game. Shane's three weeks of broken Russian are barely enough to calm him down, but it's something.

    But when the scans reveal something much worse, Shane and Ilya have to figure out how to be there for each other in ways totally unforeseen.

    Or: nothing like facing mortality for two idiots in love to be honest about how they really feel!

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    20 Jun 2026

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    After the Boxing Day fight, they don't talk it out. There's no crash, no final words over instagram. Just a letter on a coffee table saying "I'm done" and a blocked number.
    Shane's world crashes around him.
    Now it's 7 years later. Shane is retiring, reminded of everything he and Ilya planned. After an off the cuff comment at his retirement press conference he hears from Ilya, for the first time since the fight, asking to go out for drinks.
    How bad could this be?

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    20 Jun 2026

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    “You do not know me?”

    “Huh. On second thought, maybe you are an asshole.”

    The man’s cheeks flushed, blinking rapidly as if embarrassment was something new for him.

    “I am Ilya. Rozanov. I play for the Boston Raiders, my face is plastered all over the city– sorry. This was rude of me to assume.” The man– Ilya– said sheepishly.

    “I guess I haven’t been far enough into the city,” Shane muttered, most of his focus on dabbing at the stain on his Reebok undershirt.

    “You are new here? Maybe I can… show you around?”

    *

    After being forced to quit hockey in juniors, Shane becomes a model. He avoids the hockey world until 2017, when he has a run in with Ilya Rozanov. Shane is out as gay and Ilya has already cut his ties with Russia, but that doesn't make things any easier for them.

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    28 May 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 99

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    When Shane is traded to Boston, he and Ilya make it official (#exclusiverelationshipgoals #monogamy). Still in the closet, they keep their relationship under wraps. Maybe a public friendship wouldn't hurt, though.

    Cliff grows jealous of his bestie's new frienship with Boston's newest player. He may start to resent Ilya a little bit. Of course, he'd never do anything, but doesn't Jane has a right to know that her boyfreind is cheating on her with the new and mysterious Holly? (#ooohplottwist #cheatingisbad #fakecheatingisfun).

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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, a professional dom, lives in the space between. Between shifts, between countries, between versions of himself. Control is what keeps things from falling apart. Control, and distance.

    Shane Hollander lives the life that might have been his. He spends his NLH career closing distance, closing gaps, moving toward things instead of away from them.

    When a chance meeting at the animal shelter crosses their paths, something unexpected carries between them, like a call, waiting to be answered.

     

    *This work is a remix/ heavily inspired by Wolfbird (OpalApparition), including people and locations. In my mind, a “what could have happened if they met in a different way and made different choices.” It’s sweet, has (mostly/eventual) soft landings, and features many puppies who absolutely did not ask to be a part of this, and one very dramatic chiweenie who did. 

    Thank you to OpalApparition for the encouragement to write what I love.

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    27 May 2026

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    Scott Hunter wasn't supposed to overhear Ilya Rozanov being cruel to Shane Hollander in a bathroom. Now he's decided to show Shane exactly what it means to be actually wanted.

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    27 May 2026

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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    27 May 2026

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    r/Relationships
    Jacquesboi • 10mo ago

    My (28M) friend (30M) got into a relationship with a guy (30M) and I think I might be homophobic

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    J.J. discovers a few things about himself

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    24 May 2026

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    One husband, three massive cocks, and a fantasy Shane Hollander isn't entirely sure he's ready for! :)

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    24 May 2026

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    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    23 May 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 55

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    Shane admits he would let someone else fuck him. Ilya takes matters into his own hands.

    Heated Rivalry x Challengers crossover fic that is really just a filthy threesome with slutty Shane at the center.

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    22 May 2026

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    He heard footsteps begin to come down the stairs, and then a deep voice shouted something in a language that Shane thought was probably Russian. The footsteps continued to grow closer, and then Irina’s papa entered the kitchen. Shane dropped his jaw as they made eye contact– it was a face he never thought he’d see again.

    “Ilya Rozanov?”
    “Shane Hollander?”

     

    Or, canon divergent AU in which Ilya drops out of the NHL draft to play in Russia, but he and his daughter end up living next door to Shane many years later.

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    13 May 2026

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    "I'm calling it 'Adopt a Stray,'" Cliff announced, pacing the rug. "Tomorrow night. Boston vs. Montreal. We announce a new 'tradition.' We say that Boston has noticed that not every team is as close as ours. We say we’re looking for 'strays'—players who aren’t really accepted by their team, always seem an outcast, that need a little extra team bonding or whatever. And the first 'stray' we’re adopting? Is Shane Hollander."

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    10 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is twenty years old when Svetlana calls to tell him she's pregnant. He is twenty-two when she dies, leaving him with two sons under the age of two, a promise he doesn't know how to keep, and Shane Hollander's number saved in his phone under a different name.

    or, a story about grief, fatherhood, and the long way back to yourself (and the man who has been waiting there the whole time).

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    10 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov loves his quiet life. He loves his bakery and his friends. He loves that he built it from the ground up. He loves his freedom. Freedom from his dad, his brother, Russia. He has a life in Canada. A great life. That's all he really needs anyway.

    Shane Hollander loves his job. Hockey is his everything. He has good friends and a great team. It doesn't matter that some days he feels stuck. Stuck in his life, in a lie, and in his body. It really doesn't matter. He has hockey. He's the best player in the NHL. That's all he really needs anyway.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is a baker in Ottawa. Shane Hollander is the captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. No one knows that Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander dated in secret in college, but they never got a happy ending. Or do they?

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    09 May 2026

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

    ----

    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

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    08 May 2026

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    Mystery Work

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    06 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander always had a strategy. He had a strategy for winning the Cup, a strategy for managing the press, and a strategy for keeping his relationship with his rival-turned-boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov, strictly in the dark. He really was good at managing it all… Right up until the moment a medical impossibility turned into a positive pregnancy test, and the only man Shane ever loved asked him to do the one thing he couldn’t: tell the truth.

    Five years post-breakup, Shane is technically winning. He has the trophies, the privacy, and their brilliant daughter, Airi. And he is perfectly co-parenting with his ex, Ilya Rozanov. The rules are simple: minimal contact, polite text messages about their daughter, and absolutely no acknowledging about their past.

    Until Yuna Hollander decides to intervene. Suddenly, the ocean Shane put between them is gone. Shane’s new strategy is simple: survive seven days with Ilya without falling apart.

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    26 Apr 2026

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