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    “I want our family,” Ilya said. “I want children. Permanence, I think is the word... A life with you. More than anything.”

    Shane felt his throat tighten. “I want that too.”

    Ilya nodded, eyes swelling. “I know. That is why I need to say everything now. Before I lose the nerve.”

    He took Shane’s hands, grounding himself. “I am trying to be strong for you. But I need you to be strong for me too.”

    “I am,” Shane said immediately, almost offended.

    “I know,” Ilya said. “But I need you to listen.”

    Shane nodded. “I am listening.”

    “I do not want to play hockey much longer,” Ilya said quietly. “Maybe couple more seasons. And then I am done.”

    Shane stared at him. “Done?”

    “Yes.”

    “With hockey. You’re serious?”

    “Very,” Ilya said.

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    Set one year after The Long Game, this story follows the fallout of a commissioner who refuses to loosen his grip, and the players who finally refuse to bend.

    Shane and Ilya are done playing by the rules of others. They're ready for a life, a family, each other and determining what their legacy really is. They're ready to play for keeps.

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    19 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov's life takes an unexpected turn when a deadly plane crash in 2021 takes his life, right after a fight with his long-time partner, Shane Hollander. Though instead of the afterlife, Ilya is sent back to December 2008, just before his NHL career began, on the very day that he first met Shane. He finds himself in a familiar world, with knowledge of both the future and knowledge of the man he loves and the friends he holds dear.

    As Ilya navigates this new reality, he rebuilds his relationship with Shane, who is still finding his path in both hockey and his identity as a gay man. With their rivalry blossoming into a different experience than the one Ilya experienced the first time around, the two face challenges around acceptance, family pressures, and the struggles of being openly gay and lovers in the sports world. Throughout their journey, Ilya contemplates his first life, cherishes the present, and strives to alter the course of their futures (and the futures of their friends) for the better.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov discovers first hand what the butterfly effect is, and how it can drastically alter the future.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander wakes up in a hospital room convinced it’s 2016 — and that Ilya Rozanov is still his biggest rival, someone he’s supposed to hate.
    But the world has changed. It’s 2025. They play for the same team, live in the same house, and Ilya Rozanov is wearing a wedding ring.
    Now Shane has to relive nine lost years, learn to trust his ‘enemy,’ and find out whether he can fall in love with his own husband all over again.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    25 Feb 2026