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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

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    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    The story is the one you know. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are the two best hockey players in the league. On the ice, they’re fierce rivals. Off the ice, they share a bed, share secrets, share their hearts.

    But in a world where soulmates exist, where at a young age you form a mental connection with the one who was made for you, what happens when the lines between what’s in your head and what’s in front of you begin to blur? When Ilya is desperate for the man that he talks to every day who is both blunt and shy? When Shane is searching for the man whose voice matches the low, accented one in his head?

    What happens when you fall in love with the same man twice, and you don’t even realize it?

    AKA the Hollanov “you share a telepathic connection with your soulmate” AU of my dreams

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    08 Mar 2026

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    Shane gasped and stumbled backwards. “Three weeks? You decided-” his hands flew to his mouth. “How could you do this without talking to me? This is what? To punish me because I won’t come out on your timeline?”

    Ilya felt a stab of anger. “You won’t come out on any timeline!”

    Shane blinked at him. “I literally drove here tonight because I wanted to know if you would accept six to twelve months!” 

    “A timeline,” he barked. “This is our lives, Shane. I want to be with you fully now. I know you are scared, but you need to be brave, and I am so deeply fucking unhappy being your dirty little secret.”

    “That’s not fair Ilya, it’s going to be complicated for me. I’m already the only Asian captain in the league! The media, sponsors, the Voyageurs? It’s going to need to be carefully managed-”

    After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya makes an impulsive decision and agrees to a trade to Vancouver, while Shane stays in Montreal and nurses his broken heart. But an ending isn't always an ending, and the spectre of their love burns far too brightly to go down easy. A tale of love, heartache, redemption, and forging the happiness you deserve for yourself.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Ilya broke the kiss, leaving Shane chasing it–before moving back to the breakfast bar to dig into the vanilla ice cream.

    “You don’t want a bowl?” Shane asked.

    Ilya looked offended, “fuck, no. Is ice cream. It is the way God intended,” he looked deadpan at Shane before his huge spoon started digging into the ice cream and hauling a ridiculous amount into his mouth.

    Ilya reached over to Shane’s stool, grabbing at the bottom underneath his crotch before dragging it over, so that their legs interlinked underneath the kitchen counter.

    “If you want some, you will have to get it from me,” Ilya said in challenge, before hauling a large scoop of ice cream into his mouth and opening for Shane, waiting.

    “You… fuck,” Shane started, before he pounced off his chair, straddling Ilya and wrapping his arms around the back of his neck and taking his mouth in his.

    or: Professor Shane Hollander x Star-Athlete Ilya Rozanov AU that popped into my head after seeing Hudson's Timid shoot and jock Connor.

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    29 Jun 2026

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