TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms
- Schitt's Creek (17)
- The Last of Us (TV) (4)
- Teen Wolf (TV) (4)
- The Last of Us (Video Games) (4)
- Sherlock (BBC TV 2010) (3)
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The Morning After the End of it All by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)
01 Feb 2024
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The morning after the disastrous play, Charlie coaxes a distraught Todd in from the cold and thinks about what it means to live in a world without Neil Perry. He can't help but mourn the loss of his closest friend and the unique love they had for one another. More over, he comes to understand what that loss means for Todd.
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Awake and Dreaming by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Jul 2023
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When weighed down by nightmares, Ellie doesn’t cry herself awake.
On bad nights, she mostly just startles herself into consciousness with a sharp intake of breath. On the really bad nights, she wakes up paralysed.
While they're on the road, Joel learns about the latter at the worst possible time.
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Days of FEDRA Past by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
19 Jul 2023
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Before there was FEDRA military school, there was the FEDRA orphanage. Before Riley, there were Phoebe and Rachel. And before slow and aimless days in Jackson, there had been the Hole.
A day helping Maria around the house resurfaces painful memories that Ellie hasn’t thought of in years. Memories that she finds herself struggling to reconcile with her life nowadays.
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Back to the Middle of Nowhere by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
11 Mar 2023
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After finding Ellie wandering out of the burning lodge, Joel keeps them moving forward to safety. As his adrenaline rush falters, he gives up on putting distance between Ellie and Silver Lake and settles for just getting her out of the elements.
Pulling her back from the trauma left in David’s wake is another thing entirely.
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Ellie and Joel have settled in Jackson, but Ellie is struggling to adjust. Particularly with hiding her bite mark and what the scar has come to mean to her after their journey.
As the trauma of David lingers, so too do feelings of failure and other losses. Joel is not prepared for her plan to get rid of the bite. Not that she lets him in on it.
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- Works:
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- Bookmarks:
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swing low, sweet chariot by marchflower
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
01 Sep 2024
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“How do you feel?”
Ellie thinks, sucks on her lower lip. “I guess- mostly just really sad.”
It’s an understatement if there ever was one. Sometimes the sadness feels so big that she’s not sure how she’d ever manage to escape it, to exist outside of it. It feels like a balloon, constantly growing bigger and bigger and never once popping. Ellie’s terrified of what it’s going to feel like when it finally breaks.
“Sometimes,” Maria says, “Sometimes, sad and stuck are the same thing. And that’s okay. You can be sad every day for the rest of your life, Ellie, and you can still live a rich, full, exciting life. Okay?”
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Ellie Williams at the intersection of grief, faith, and love.
Series
- Part 4 of out of the mouths of babes
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Over the 24-hours after Sara's rescue, each member of the team tries to deal with recent events, and the revelations about Sara and Grissom's relationship. (Post Dead Doll, season 8 - ensemble POV)
Bookmarked by TuttleAsHimself
22 Oct 2024
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who you are is not where you've been by BarlowGirl
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
26 Jul 2024
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And he realizes… there are parts of her that are weird because, well, she’s Ellie. She likes space and puns and dinosaurs. She does goofy voices and curses too much and she asks so many questions. He’s pretty sure that if she’d grown up before the outbreak, she would have been screened for ADD or something. And some of her weirdness is being a kid growing up in the apocalypse, like not knowing what a seatbelt is.
But parts of her weirdness?FEDRA did that.
And he hates it.
Or: Thoughts on FEDRA schooling.
Bookmarked by TuttleAsHimself
28 Jul 2024
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Hold Back The River by sporadicallyceaseless
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
24 Nov 2024
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"Maria's gonna be a little late tonight, she’s busy yelling at some kids that got caught jumping off the dam.”
Stunned, Joel eyes the puddle slowly forming under her feet with quiet horror. “But you were smarter than that, right?”
“Or faster?” Tommy cuts in hopefully.
“Both,” Ellie agrees. Then, with a wince, “But also…neither.”
A dangerous dare and a nasty sickness rock the Miller household on an already emotional week. Joel and Ellie learn that something always lurks deeper than the surface.
Bookmarked by TuttleAsHimself
24 Jul 2024
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Ellie sighs and stops her half-spin, planting her feet squarely on the ground. “But maybe they didn’t, maybe they saw it and thought, ‘this looks like a kids backpack, we don’t need it,” and they just left it.”
“Ellie, what is this about?” Joel asks, sighing.
“I don’t know. I just maybe they left it, and if they did, maybe we could, like, go back and get it.”
“Ellie, no. Absolutely not.”
“But why not?”
“You know why. It’s dangerous; we don’t know what to expect goin’ there, and it’s far.”
“We could plan for it, like you know. Maybe Tommy can come with us, and we could take the horses.”
“Ellie, no.”
“Dude, but why?”
IE: Ellie wants to go back to the hospital to see if she can find her backpack. When Joel refuses, Ellie makes her own plans.
Series
- Part 6 of What Family Is For
- Part 10 of A Step to the Left
Bookmarked by TuttleAsHimself
28 Jun 2024