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    Kara crushes down the grief for the thousandth time and smiles at the aliens. They smile back.

    It helps, almost.

    Almost.

    The “pye” tastes very good.

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    14 Jul 2025

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    “Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”

    “Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.

    “How do you know?”

    Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.

    That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.

    “He has to know,” Andrew says.

    “Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”

    Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.

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    24 Jan 2021

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    Dazai couldn't wrap his brain around it. How could the student population think that Chuuya Nakahara was more attractive than him? And, alright, sure, maybe professors shouldn't get caught up in petty drama. But to Dazai, this wasn't just drama. This was war. A war in which he was not going to lose.

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    11 Jan 2022

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    I didn't know I was broken 'til i wanted to change
    I wanna get better, better, better, better,
    I wanna get better

     

    Or, Andrew persuades Neil to give Dr. Betsy Dobson a chance and the decision starts to change their relationship in ways they didn't expect.

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    27 May 2021

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    The day before he fought Ganon the first time, he’d visited all the people he’d come to know and all the Champions waiting for release. He had thought it would be the last time he’d ever see them. He’d even made peace with it.

    Now, that yesterday is nearing a month ago for Link, and he is so tired.

    “I did,” he says. “I went. Fought Ganon.”

    “— Did you have to retreat?”

    “…Didn’t fight it today. Five days ago. And ten. But also today.”

    Link defeats the Calamity. And then he faces it again and again and again and again—

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    20 Feb 2023