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    “You are not broken, Ilya,” Terry says, sounding a little stern now. “I told you to keep an eye on the side effects. How long have you been experiencing this?”

    “Since last night.”

    “What?”

    “Since last night,” Ilya repeats. “Or afternoon, technically.”

    And Terry…Terry fucking laughs.

    Ilya is going to die, and Shane will be sad forever and Terry fucking laughs.

    “It hasn’t even been a day?” Terry clarifies, still chuckling. “Well, this could have nothing to do with the medication. It could just be an off day—”

    “Off day?” Ilya repeats incredulously. “Have you seen my husband? There are no off days with an ass like that.”

    OR: Ilya starts taking antidepressants only to realise it's fucking up his sex life. And, he acts totally very chill about it.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Pop star Shane Hollander is no stranger to crowds and success, but when an anonymous gunman at a press appearance threatens his life, the safety of his upcoming tour is called into question. Desperate to keep their cash cow not only safe, but happy, League Records hires former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov to provide 24/7 personal security for Shane. As the two spend time together, Shane Hollander realizes that the real threat to his life, to his career, is his own heart...and the way that he feels for the very man he is depending on to keep him safe.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    We didn't even kiss

    They hadn’t kissed. Shane had been lying there, right next to him, and Ilya hadn’t kissed him. Hadn’t leaned over a foot of space when he’d spent the last year just wanting to be in the same room as Shane Hollander.

    Fuck.
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    OR: Shane sends the text. Ilya chases after him.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are finally on the same team! The Centaurs’ communications and PR department hasn’t known peace since.

    Featuring: the unhinged internet, chaotic group chats, Ilya being a menace, Shane being very tired, Harris trying (and failing) to contain the chaos, Luca accidentally starring in his own little rom-com, wholesome group dynamics and love all around.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s eyebrows lifted at that. Because there was something he wanted to do. Something he’d been thinking about for a while, something he’d brought up to Shane a few times, trying to joke about it to gauge how Shane would react. And Shane had never given him a hard no, when he mentioned it. His cheeks flushed pink all the way to the tips of his ears, but he didn’t say no. 

    “Let’s record a sex tape,” Ilya used his thumb to spread his precum all over his tip, pleasure shooting through him ever so slightly like little shocks of lightning. 

    Shane’s eyes almost popped out of their sockets, “what?” 

    “You heard me, moy kotik,” Ilya purred, kneeling onto the bed and inching closer to Shane’s desperate body. “Let’s record a sex tape.” 

     

    OR, husbands ilya rozanov and shane hollander record a sex tape.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Okay,” Ilya says. His thumb restarts its soothing. “Then say it all wrong, and I will understand anyway.”

    So Shane tries, reaches out and hopes for Ilya to reach back. “My first year with the Metros wasn’t… great. I mean, I played great hockey, but those first few years, the room wasn’t…"

    “Room wasn’t great,” Ilya repeats. “What does this mean? Not great like calling you slurs? Not great like hazing?”

    Shane stiffens, then forcibly relaxes. He tries to make his voice light, “A little, uh. A little of both, I guess.”

    OR

    Shane's metric for a normal locker room is skewed. Ilya (and the Centaurs) are happy to help.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Ilya always craved for validation.
    Impersonal, vain, lighthearted validation. So much so, it had him running away to Canada.

    The vastness and anonymity of the internet gave him just what he wanted – Tumblr, a place where being judged was almost unthinkable and getting compliments about his body without much commitment or effort was ridiculously easy.

    But as the bubble he had built for himself in a faraway land burst in the shape of a threat and he accidentally reveals things he'd rather keep hidden, a flash of empathy and freckles on a screen were maybe enough to keep him afloat.

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    Ilya accidentally posts a vent on his aesthetic Tumblr account, and gets an ask he didn't expect in return from a pretty college student with pretty freckles.

    He didn't expect it to bleed into his real life.

    title from gasoline by halsey.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander, an up and coming young actor has just landed his first big movie. He's heard and seen his whole life that you have to fit in, not stand out. He's slowly coming to realize that maybe his sexuality isn't what he thinks it should be, but is trying hard to be 'normal'. When he meets a man who turns his whole life upside down, will he be able to confront his feelings or will he push him away and lose his chance at happiness.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Shane wants to figure out if he's gay before he gets drafted—and no, the way he felt when Ilya Rozanov smirked at him with a cigarette between his lips in Saskatchewan has nothing to do with it. Unfortunately, the random guy he hooks up with to try and make sure one way or another takes a picture, and Shane gets outed before the draft. In the ensuing scandal, he goes seventh overall, to Ottawa.

    It turns out, having the worst thing you can think of happen to you when you're seventeen years old can end up being pretty liberating. And land you an unexpected best friend.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    It’s a difficult concept for Shane to grasp, taking up space like that. Birthday parties are always so loud and demanding of everyone’s attention, and Shane doesn’t know how to handle it, always stressed that people don’t actually want to be there or are just patronising him. The idea that people want to get together to celebrate Shane, besides his parents and husband, is completely foreign to him. The idea that his hockey team would show up for his birthday is incomprehensible.

    Or:

    Two birthday wishes Shane makes, and how they come true (and one time Ilya threatens a bunch of ten-year-olds)

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Roommates for years, Shane Hollander has learned to live within his paper-thin walls - but it has also meant that he had to learn how to live with Ilya Rozanov, and what goes on behind his bedroom door.

    Shane hears everything: the laughter, the kisses and (unfortunately for him) what Ilya sounds like in the throes of pleasure.

    He is completely fine with it, until he isn't anymore.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Hollander huffed and then, slowly, looked into Ilya’s eyes. “What if… what if we didn’t do it all the way?”

    “Yeah?” Ilya breathed. “Like?”

    “What if it’s just the tip.”

    Ilya’s jaw literally dropped. “Who the fuck taught you that?”

    Hollander shrugged, then his eyes locked onto Ilya. “Yes or no.”

    Fuck it.

    Or: episode 4 fuck-montage meets Just The Tip meets down-bad but doesn’t know it Ilya Rozanov meets barebacking

    OR: Ilya “just the tip” Rozanov and Shane “just fucking come in me” Hollander

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
    But Shane is in a hospital.

    And Ilya is here.

    He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.

    “Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”

    Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.

    (canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are both single dads trying to figure out life, work, and parenting without losing their minds or their kids. Shane’s raising his energetic son Kai, who’s basically a little whirlwind on the ice and at home, while Ilya’s daughter Anastasiya (Ana) is smart, sassy, and has him wrapped around her finger. They meet because their kids are involved in hockey and quickly start running into each other at practices, games, and playdates. Through shared chaos, ice rinks full of screaming kids, they start to rely on each other. Casual hangouts become coffee breaks, practice pickups become dinners, and slowly, what starts as friendship begins to feel a lot like something more.

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    31 May 2026

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    A song starts, one Shane has definitely never heard before, and one spotlight illuminates the stage. A singular man with a large frame is revealed, and his body is shrouded in shadow, which piques Shane’s interest. His shoulders are broad and well-muscled, and he’s wearing a fucking toga, which Shane finds kind of hilarious. He lets out a high pitched giggle, and Rose elbows him as she sips her drink. He follows suit, taking a long pull of the vodka, because goddamn this man is downright godly. Shane can see each dip and depression, the shadows from the spotlight throwing him into stark contrast. His body is made of lean lines and bulging muscle, and Shane is already enthralled.

    As the song picks up the man’s chin tilts up, revealing hazel eyes and plush, pink lips. His jaw is stubbled but not bearded, and his light curls gleam in the light. Everything about him is fucking attractive, but Shane assumes if you put your body on display for money, you better look the part. Even with that in mind, Shane is vaguely aware of wanting to put his tongue all over this man’s glorious body.

    Ilya is a stripper living in LA who captures the attention of hockey player Shane Hollander. This is the story of their relationship.

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    31 May 2026

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    Ilya nearly loses it when Shane demonstrates the ‘plow’, his legs over his head and ass fully suspended in the air. He swears he pops a vein when Shane is in a reclined middle split—now that’s just cruel to his psyche.

    However, nothing could’ve prepared Ilya for—

    “The downward dog,” Shane announces their last stretch of the day, “A classic that I’m sure all of you know. An easy pose right before our cooldown.”

    Sure, the pose itself was easy enough. So easy, in fact, that Shane gets into the position without second thought. He’s faced down, and his ass was flexed upwards, and his cheeks were flushed red, and well, fuck. Great, if it wasn’t obvious enough that Ilya was having a mental hard-on at the thought of Shane Hollander on his fours in a very different context outside of the yoga studio, then the thin material of his gym shorts surely betrayed him.

    Or, Ilya attends a yoga class for the first time.

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    31 May 2026

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    [a voice message sent May 10th, 1991, received by a Panasonic answering machine]

    David: Hey, Mom. The baby has been ejected.

    Yuna: David, no, that’s—no. Give me that. Hey, Mrs. Holl—

    David: She’s your mom too, you know—

    Yuna: —just letting you know that we have a baby! Seven pounds and seven ounces, ten fingers and ten toes. His name is Shane, and he’s excited to meet you… at some point. When we get out of the hospital. We love you, we hope to see you soon, and—

    David: —and bring peach cobbler when you visit!

    Yuna: … and bring peach cobbler when you visit. Bye.

    [Or, Shane is the best Mother's Day gift that Yuna could ever ask for. Literally. Told through a thirty-five-year-long series of letters, postcards, voice messages, and Yuna feeling so much love for her son(s) she could just burst.]

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    28,102

    27 May 2026

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    Shane is a student librarian, and Ilya is the obnoxious star athlete who annoys him at his job.

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    26 May 2026

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    “I want a lawyer,” was the only thing he could say in English before all the words evaporated from his mind.

    The defense attorney glared at him, stopping his movements for a second, before getting back to what he was doing - opening a folder, aligning some papers in front of them.

    “My name is Shane Hollander. I’m your public defender,” he introduced himself. He clicked his pen and got ready to take notes. “Ilya Grigoryevich Rozanov, Russian, 25, right?”

    or,
    Ilya is arrested and Shane Hollander is a great lawyer. And he never loses.

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    Comments:
    634
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    1,863
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    1,100
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    104,804

    25 May 2026

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    There are certain benefits to being the captain of the university hockey team, Shane decides.

    The first being that he’s friends with the staff. Well, it helps that he comes in early, but Shane also has a genuine interest in how ice rinks are built for sports like his.

    Which brings him to the most important perk of being captain: ice access.

    Which leads him to his current situation: smuggling Ilya Rozanov into the on-campus rink.

     

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    Or, Shane takes Ilya on a not-date at McGill's on-campus rink. It's a not-date, he swears!!

    Featuring: a WIRED interview.

    Takes place during The Practices of Mating Loons: A Multi-Year Study (Hollander, 2013) but can be read as a standalone!

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    Comments:
    36
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    614
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    33
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    3,803

    25 May 2026

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