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    Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”

    “Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”

    He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.

     

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    Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.

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    21 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 8

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    A child should be able to live happy, settled, and curious. Growing is a part of life. Growing means change. Having a life to live is a blessing. Watching your children grow is a blessing. Watching your children suffer is torture. A child should never have to watch a parent die. A child should never have to understand what death means so early in life.

    Why does Ilya feel like he's been here before?

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    Shane Hollander takes a rough blow on the ice- his final blow. Ilya Rozanov tries to navigate the loss of his husband while also taking care of their six year old daughter.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    30 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 56

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    The title is a PTV ref! Anyways, this is my own little au. I love Ilya and I honestly could not imagine coping with some of the situations he was in. So, in this fic, alcohol and cigarettes aren't enough for him anymore so he starts cutting. He manages to hide it while Shane is dating Rose, so it gets pretty bad. When Shane and Ilya reunite, Shane knows somethings up. That night, he kisses every single scar that now dots Ilya's body.

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    03 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 69

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    "He was alone.

    It had been a bad week. A really bad week. Maybe it had been bad for a really long time.

    He didn’t know.

    All he knew was that he was finally alone."

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    03 Jan 2026