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    Before they were hockey’s greatest rivals, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov were two fourteen-year-olds arguing anonymously on the internet.

    One conversation became another, and suddenly they were talking every day. English lessons lead to game-tape analysis, late-night messages, phone calls, and secrets neither of them could tell anyone else. They become best friends. Then something more.

    By the time they finally meet, the world has already decided they should be enemies. The hockey world will spend years watching them fight from opposite sides of the ice, never knowing they have been choosing each other since long before either of them was famous.

    Or: Shane corrects Ilya’s English, Ilya teaches Shane how to want things, and they spend the next decade turning their rivalry into a shared home.

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    18 Sep 2026

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    Stick to your guns, Ilya thinks. Sex. With Hollander. That’s simple. Straightforward.

    Except nothing about this night has been straightforward. The more time he spends with Hollander, the more he wants him - and not just the sex. He wants it all: the reading glasses, earnest ramblings, moral compulsions. The sweetness Hollander tries to hide. The way he holds back from almost everyone, even from himself, but never from Ilya.

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    or: After Vegas, Ilya knows he should end it with Hollander. He likes trouble, yes. Doesn’t mean he likes feeling scraped raw by wanting impossible things. Then they are marooned together at an airport for a very long, very strange night during which Ilya begins to suspect – shakily, reluctantly – that they might be… something.

    NOW COMPLETE!

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    14 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    31 Aug 2026

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    Maybe it was because two years on he really had come to terms with the death of his MLH career. Maybe it was because he wanted the last gasp of what his life should have been. Maybe it was because at McGill too many people knew his family, knew his sob story, knew that two years of juniors only meant two years of a scholarship, but in America hockey didn’t matter like it did here and the NHL moved on fast even when you go from top draft pick to nothing in the blink of an eye. And maybe it was because he and Ilya Rozanov were supposed to climb the mountain together but instead he had two gold medals, he was first overall, he was going to be rookie of the year…and he had kissed Shane in that gym like he was starving for it, like he knew Shane was too.
    It didn’t matter why he did it really, only that he said yes.
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    A heart condition forces Shane into retirement before the 2009 draft. Eventually he finds himself in Ilya Rozanov's orbit anyway.

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    30 Aug 2026