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( i am done ) trying for beauty. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jan 2026
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Ilya glances at Shane, at the way the dying light is catching in his hair, refracting. At that spiderlily mouth, slightly open and curling coyly, two teeth peeked through the dark gap like an American Girl doll. At that shoulder, bare and pale and close enough to touch if Ilya just leaned forward, if he just reached out and took another liberty.
To touch another person is to say: I know you will die, and I am doing this anyway.
His mother used to say something like this. About painting.
Every portrait is an act of faith, Ilyushenka. Faith and futility both.
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contrary to personal preference, ilya gets a roommate.
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11 Jan 2026
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They were only supposed to be hooking up. That’s what it was supposed to be. They were never supposed to become anything real.
Falling in love with Shane Hollander had never been part of the plan.
So he ends it.
Months later, during a heated game, one explosive check from Ilya sends Shane crashing to the ice and fighting for his life. As Shane lies on the edge of survival, Ilya is swallowed by guilt, terror, and the crushing realization that he walked away from the one person he can’t imagine losing, and that he might be too late to make it right.
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10 Jan 2026
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Hi Mr. Hayden,
We’re pretty sure you’ve never noticed, so you might find this funny. Over the years, a few of us have been piecing together the Rozanov-Hollander saga from your fanmails.
In mine, Ilya Rozanov was chatting in Russian in the background saying some very colorful things about someone's something.
For a second, I actually wondered if he was your secret lover. But at this point, aren’t we all just second-guessing?
or: Hayden Pike finally realizes he never actually double-checked any of his videos
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- Part 1 of felt cute, might delete
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02 Jan 2026
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Looking back at it now, how he longed for his own bed, he thought maybe his mother wasn’t lazy at all, but maybe her own mind and heart were just simply too heavy for her to lift. He hoped that practice would help his mood lift, and his medication would kick in. He’d be back to being himself. The rink was cold when Shane and he entered, hand in hand, and the loud chatter of his team immediately made a headache bloom behind his eyes.
Ilya is having a bad depression day, but at the end of it all Shane is right there to help him.
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30 Dec 2025
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love in withdrawal by hollowedhymns
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Dec 2025
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“To be loved,” his mother said, the palm of her hand caressing his cheek, “is to be known.”
And to be known, Ilya thought bitterly as they lowered her body into the earth just a week later, is to be hurt.
Or, the mortifying ordeal of letting yourself be known and loved, told through Ilya’s POV, in flashes over the years.
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30 Dec 2025
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“Did I do something wrong?”
“No. No, Hollander,” Ilya coughed, eyes flitting around the room. “Is just– Is too much.”
“This is… too much?” Shane repeated slowly, incredulously. “We see each other maybe once a month. Less, even.”
“No. Is not that– You are just,” Ilya swore under his breath in Russian. His accent was getting thicker, the words clunkier, in the way it always got stronger when he was frustrated or tired. Shane hated himself for recognizing it. “...too much.”
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In the Heated Rivalry book, Ilya intends to break things off with Shane the night of the All-Star Game, but then Shane gets hurt. What if Shane never gets injured by Marlow, and Ilya really does break things off?
(Basically, a shit ton of angst and Shane Hollander learning to love himself. There will be a happy ending!)
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29 Dec 2025
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Tomorrow, he'll call Shane and apologise. He'll fix what he broke. He doesn't want Shane to be angry at him anymore.
He doesn’t remember swerving to avoid a merging truck.
He also doesn’t remember hitting the tree.
Or: Ilya gets into a car accident. Shane is there to pick up the pieces.
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29 Dec 2025
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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28 Dec 2025
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please leave a message by subcorax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Sarah
Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.Jackie
Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.Jackie has added Lily to the conversation
Lily
what
what is thisOr: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.
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- Part 1 of You Have (81) Unread Messages
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28 Dec 2025
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"You're supposed to smoke over there." Someone said from behind Ilya.
Ilya almost dropped his cigarette. His English was shitty, but he had studied that sentence enough times over the years to understand it immediately. He didn't even think about his words much anymore, but it was impossible to avoid them.
He turned instinctively, and was face to face with Shane fucking Hollander.
Out of almost seven billion people, of course Ilya's soulmate had to be his fated rival. It was almost poetic. Still, Ilya had enough sense to realize just how bad this was.
or, Shane says Ilya's soulmate words. Ilya vows to never speak a word to him to keep him from finding out. They fall in love anyway.
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28 Dec 2025
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Ten short stories that take place between the end of Painted Devils and the beginning of Holy Terrors.
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13 Apr 2025
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When Harry wakes up in an alternate timeline--a timeline where Voldemort was defeated long before the first war--he discovers everything is different. His parents, his godfather, his friends--and him. Harry must deal with the consequences of who he would have been if he had been raised by his parents, and figure out where he stands with his casual hook up, Draco Malfoy.
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- Part 1 of White Knight
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26 Aug 2024
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There's a worn page folded in an inner pocket of Harry's robes with a single underlined paragraph.
Discrete magical signatures have been observed after the destruction of a Dementor. Some scholars believe this implies that the souls of its victims persist as captives within its form, as opposed to undergoing immediate obliteration, and therefore serve the purpose of providing the creature with sustenance over a prolonged period of time.
Harry has carried it for nearly two years.
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26 Aug 2024
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How did it feel? It felt like he was barely holding it together. She, of all people, should shun him. Or yell at him. Curse him. Spit at him. Take out her wand and blast him off the face of the earth. It was crushing guilt and relief and confusion all at once when he looked at Hermione Granger.
The monotony of Draco’s daily routine had become both a lifeline and a noose. But this new habit of grabbing coffee with Hermione Granger is quickly becoming a reason to get out of bed and is unfortunately forcing him to re-evaluate his inconsequential existence.
Hermione is living her life in fragments, separate pieces scattered about, and she can’t find a way to step back and let the full picture form. Why are morning meetings with Draco Malfoy the only thing that make sense anymore?Series
- Part 1 of Spectrum
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29 Feb 2024
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praying our bridges don't make waves by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
11 Oct 2023
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He glances down to the word ‘LOVE’ at the bottom. It’s too loud, too harshly written. Alex doesn’t feel harsh or loud. He feels a lot, so much it’s overwhelming sometimes, but the edges are soft, not hard. There’s a glow around it, something hazy and barely tinted gold, and Alex feels like if he could reach out and put his hands near it, they would warm up like they used to when he stood in front of the old brick fireplace back home.
He glances at ‘LOVE’ and then loops back around to ‘HENRY’.
Maybe, Alex thinks, hands shaking, they’re one in the same. Whatever the fuck that means.
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When June gets sick, Alex knows he'll do whatever it takes to make sure she gets the care that she needs. Even if that means convincing his nemesis/sexuality-crisis-inducing/clandestine hook-up partner/somewhat of an actual friend to pretend to be his soulmate in order to pull it off. It's both more and less complicated than it sounds.
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- Part 1 of the chronic illness club
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07 Nov 2023
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i can't find the words, so i guess it's time by pentaghastly
Fandoms: Bridgerton (TV), Bridgerton Series - Julia Quinn
06 Apr 2022
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They make it to the wine cellar. It’s a long, long while before they make it out.
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08 Oct 2023
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“You know how our next game is against the Cardinals, right? You remember how vicious those guys can get. I wanted us to come up with some plays, maybe work on a block from the left—”
Louis stops when he hears a chuckle.
He doesn’t think he’s said anything particularly funny, so he turns to Harry, waiting for an explanation.
“‘S funny, ‘s all.” Harry throws his finished bottle somewhere near the other discarded ones. “This is the first time you’re talking to me in eight months, and it’s still about football.”
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08 Oct 2023
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After a series of disturbing events threaten his safety, Louis has no choice but to hire a new bodyguard.
Enter Harry, an incredibly attractive, judgmental asshole who hates Louis’ guts.
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08 Oct 2023
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When Harry Potter unintentionally severs their soulbond before it can fully form, Draco Malfoy resigns himself to a slow death and decides not to burden Harry with a soulmate he's made it very clear he doesn't want.
He's never been selfless before, but for Harry, he can try.
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10 Nov 2022
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the laws of celestial objects by peanutbrittles123 for senlinyu
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
16 Jan 2022
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The first time she sees him again after the trials, he is in a glass cage.
[Inspired by "Untouchable", from Taylor Swift's album "Fearless". For Fic Fest (Taylor's Version) 2022.]
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Bookmarked by crisdrafta
09 Jul 2022