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    They broke up years ago.
    Ilya moved on in the cruelest way possible: he got married, built a whole new life.

    And when his wife suddenly died, Shane wasn’t supposed to come to Boston for the funeral.
    He definitely wasn’t supposed to stay.

    Now they’re in the same house again,
    sleeping in separate rooms,
    avoiding each other’s eyes,
    trying very hard not to touch.

    But grief has a way of pushing you back into the arms you thought you’d never feel again.

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    17 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 2

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    Shane gets to the locker room. He's confused. Everyone is completely silent. This is weird. Normally, during a game against the Boston Raiders, the Metros are loud and constantly debating on stupid stuff like who will get laid later and how, or if other players sleep with each other's wives.

    Shane never liked this sort of stuff. He didn't like how loud they were and certainly didn't like how they talked about their wives and girlfriends or even just a girl they were seeing for one night. But now it's different; no one is saying a single word, just staring at him in absolute disgust. He kept walking until he got to his locker. He pulled out his phone and saw 25 missed calls and 3 missed texts from Ilya.

    "moya lyubov..... please, I know you're mad at me, but whatever you do, don't look at anything online right now. I will come get you. tell me where you are."

    "moya lyubov, where are you?"

    "moya lyubov, please tell me where you are"

    "......"

     

    And right when he was going to type a response, he heard Cameau yell across the room...

     

    " So, Hollie, do you always bend over and get on your knees, or is it just when you get praise?"

     

    "WHAT....."

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    17 Jun 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    It's 2008. Due to an injury, Ilya Rozanov never made it to the International Prospects Cup. But Fate's gonna do what Fate's gonna do; this summer, Shane Hollander will be tutoring at an English language intensive hockey camp in Moscow.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Alternate Universe where Shane's storyline is the same but Ilya never played hockey and is instead an OnlyFans content creator. Basically, a way to explore what would've happened to Shane had he never received the emotional and physical (and maybe a little toxic) safety net that Ilya offered him.

    AKA I wanna explore Sad!Shane cause I don't feel like we talk about it enough! But also smut. And more importantly, smut that drives plot. Let's strap in, ladies(and gays and theys).

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    14 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 43

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    sometimes the person you need comes right when you need them the most

    sometimes you don't want to need them

    sometimes you don't have a choice

    OR

    rich mafia ilya/broke med student Shane

    and ofc some Hayden/cliff bc they are my favs

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    12 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 66

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    Shane groaned and walked to the living room where he dropped down in the armchair beside the couch. “No, it’s not a crisis.” He glared at Jackie. “There’s a guy in our lecture that keeps looking at me, but when I make eye contact with him, he just smirks and looks away.”

    “You didn’t tell me he was smirking, Shane!” Jackie gasped from her spot on the arm of the couch. “Oh, he totally wants you!”

    Shane glared at her, “Again, no he doesn’t. Looking at me and smirking when we make eye contact does not mean he wants me.”

    “Yes, it does,” J.J. and Hayden chimed in at the exact same time. They both chuckled and glanced at each other before fist-bumping.

    “Whatever,” Shane stood, “I’m not talking about this anymore. I have work to do on that research paper for lab on Friday. Jackie?”

    --

    OR: Shane is a university student who keeps catching his classmate staring at him during lecture. Of course he's in denial about what that means.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane of ALL the kids in the world mine had to go and pick a fight with that of one of the asshole attorneys from the 16th floor
    Hayden is she hot?
    Shane dude
    Hayden sorry force of habit
    Hayden is he hot

    or: two equally stubborn single dads headbutt over a playground fight

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”

    “Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”

    Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.

     

    In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent years building a quiet, careful life for himself and his daughter. He just focuses on work, parenting, and keeping Yuki safe in a world that has not always been kind to omegas like himself. Everything changes the moment Yuki slips away from him at a crowded public event and is found in the arms of star hockey player Ilya Rozanov, who handles her with a gentleness that leaves Shane unexpectedly unsteady.

    What should have been a brief, awkward encounter becomes something far more complicated. Yuki adores Ilya on sight, and Ilya keeps showing up, offering small kindnesses, sending messages that turn into late-night conversations, and slipping into Shane's life with a warmth that feels dangerously easy.

    Shane, who promised himself he would never rely on a stranger, let alone an alpha, finds himself drawn to the one man he should not want.

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    26/?
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    10 Jun 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 8

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    You are one of three things.
    1. A Dom.
    2. A Sub.
    3. A Switch.

    Unfortunately Cliff is a Dom. Growing up he watched his parents relationship hoping and praying he didn’t have to do any of that. And now he was a broken Dom. How does he find ways to regulate when he won’t use commands, and he wont let any Subs kneel for him?

    Fortunately Hayden is a Switch. He gets the best of both worlds. Though he leans more Dom he is not opposed to switching it up. It seems his needs are changing and he will need to find a way to meet them to stay regulated.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Hollander's parents must be supportive and nice, if he's thinking of coming out to them. Ilya doesn't even dare to fantasize about coming out to his family. The closest he's come to that are the nightmares about being outed. He doesn't want to even think about what that would entail for him. But he knows.

    Fuck Hollander. He even managed to make Ilya feel sorry for him. Because Ilya can't fathom how dreadful life would be without the option to choose a nice woman to learn to love, if circumstances ever got dire. But Hollander won't have to think of that anymore. Which is nice, of course. Ilya is not a monster. But fuck him.
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    OR: Shane Hollander comes out in 2012 and he's determined to prove he can be queer, Asian, and the best player in the league. Ilya Rozanov is none of those things. Except maybe the last one.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    SHANE: Lily.
    LILY: Hello
    SHANE: Dead to me.
    What the actual fuck?
    LILY: ??
    SHANE: what. The. Hell. Did. You. Do.
    LILY: ahh
    I am in trouble
    Yes?

     
    Or Ilya's teammates add "Jane" to the Boston WAG group chat in the height of their "no, we aren't falling in love, whatever do you mean" era (2014-2016-ish?).

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    08 Jun 2026

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    “If I gave Jackie a day of getting to have sex with me whenever she wants as a thank you for tidying the living room, I think she’d divorce me,” Hayden says.

    “Nah, man, she’d kill you,” J. J. says, which is probably true.

    Shane shrugs. “That sounds like a straight people problem.”

    Hayden is truly glad that the times of Shane torturing himself by being in the closet are over. But. Well. This conversation is kind of making him miss those days.

    ---

    Finally, after everything, Shane is a happily married man. Incredibly happily married. It only becomes a problem once he thinks it qualifies him to dispense relationship advice.

    Or, five times Shane gives relationship advice his friends disagree with, and one time he doesn’t.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    It’s just sex between rivals until Ilya kisses Shane’s forehead and Shane reacts like it’s a declaration of war. Trying to act normal becomes impossible when Ilya flirts with another girl and Shane gets possessive fast. Cliff and Hayden finding out should have been the only following disaster, but between growing rumors about Hayden and Cliff dating, a blackmail recording that could destroy both their careers, and feelings they can no longer pretend away, Shane and Ilya are running out of ways to convince themselves this is only about sex.

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    Comments:
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    08 Jun 2026

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    “They tell me he is learning to walk again,” a shirtless Rozanov says to the semi-circle of microphones in front of him, hands on his hips, still damp and flushed and riding that victory high. “Is good news, but little children can walk. I am interested when he will learn to skate again.”

    After suffering a career-ending injury, Shane Hollander is struggling to connect with the world. Ilya Rozanov is more than happy to help in the only way he knows.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    What if Shane never got injured?
    What if Ilya decided to finally take a step back?
    What if the 5th best player of MLH was suddenly spotted hanging out hockey's golden boy Shane Hollander?
    What if Ilya had a few feelings about it?

    —×—

    Ilya is aware of Sebastian Hawthorne like he's aware of all the top 10 players of the league. Though he knows no one can come close to him and Hollander, he still likes to keep an eye out for them.

    Hawthorne, or as his teammates call him, Hawk, joined the Toronto Guardians during his Rookie season and has been there for the past six seasons. He's the assistant captain.

    “It's like he’s already seen the play unfold five seconds ahead,” Shane had once complained to Ilya over the phone after a particularly nasty loss against the Guardians some seasons back. Ilya then got the impression that Shane didn't like him either.

    So imagine his surprise when the picture of Hollander and Hawk shows up on his feed: laughing and practically having the time of their lives while leaving a high-end bakery.

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    20,208

    07 Jun 2026

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    In which Shane Hollander acquires a baby and Ilya Rozanov loses his fucking mind.

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    321
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    81,123

    07 Jun 2026

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    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

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    5/5
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    07 Jun 2026

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    Ilya always craved for validation.
    Impersonal, vain, lighthearted validation. So much so, it had him running away to Canada.

    The vastness and anonymity of the internet gave him just what he wanted – Tumblr, a place where being judged was almost unthinkable and getting compliments about his body without much commitment or effort was ridiculously easy.

    But as the bubble he had built for himself in a faraway land burst in the shape of a threat and he accidentally reveals things he'd rather keep hidden, a flash of empathy and freckles on a screen were maybe enough to keep him afloat.

    Or,

    Ilya accidentally posts a vent on his aesthetic Tumblr account, and gets an ask he didn't expect in return from a pretty college student with pretty freckles.

    He didn't expect it to bleed into his real life.

    title from gasoline by halsey.

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    Chapters:
    28/?
    Comments:
    398
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    371
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    26,065

    05 Jun 2026

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