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    SIC PARVIS MAGNA - Greatness from small beginnings (Sir Francis Drake).

    Ilya has always survived by thinking his way through pain: dissecting it, categorizing it, turning it into something manageable, learning how to make himself smaller.

    Being with Shane gives him something steady to hold onto, and something terrifying to lose. As the future takes shape, and the life they are building begins to feel real in a way that unsettles him, the familiar dread that he's not built to sustain something so bright crystallizes, and Ilya can't stop the quiet certainty that something inside him will eventually collapse under the weight of it all. That the beautiful life Shane deserves — bright and stable; soft and permanent; full of soft mornings and loud kitchens and children who never learn to be afraid of love — might be better off without him in it. That the heavy thoughts he feels every night might just be impossible to overcome.

    That maybe, just maybe, love alone won't save him.

    Part 1 - It doesn't. / Part 2 - It doesn’t have to.

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    They’d considered it—Shane being gay. It’d been an option. But Ilya Rozanov and the way Shane looks at him like he’s the love of his life has blindsided them. Blindsided both of them, and there’s almost nothing Yuna likes less than being blindsided. 

    She’s not mad, David wants to say. We’re so proud of you. We’re so happy for you. We just didn’t know. 

    Somehow we missed it, you falling in love.

     

    or, what David Hollander and Ilya Rozanov talk about while Shane and Yuna are outside in episode six.

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    19 Mar 2026

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    “Friendly chats. For years. On Instagram.” Ilya glanced up at Shane, who looked… confused. Truly, honestly confused. Like they’d been sending cordial emails and not Instagram chats. And why did that make Ilya smile? A low, rich laugh slipped from his lips. “You really have no idea?”

    “What?”

    “Instagram is for… chatting, yes?” Ilya waggled his eyebrows. “But also, for, what do you call it? Sliding into DMs?”

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    19 Mar 2026

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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    16 Mar 2026