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To only ever know the cold by IbecomewhatIbelieve
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.
She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.
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Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.- Language:
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22 Mar 2026
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To catch a homophobe or two, (or twenty) by VicIsWriting
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Feb 2026
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Shane volunteers to be mic'd up on his first game against the Voyageurs in his first season with the Centaurs. What could go wrong?
A lot... He hopes.
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
18 Mar 2026
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Shane reached out without thinking, his fingers brushing against the rough fabric of Ilya’s jacket sleeve.
Ilya flinched away. “Dun’ touch me!”
Shane blinked, thrown. “What the - ”
“I already have boyfriend!” Ilya declared, pulling his jacket around himself like a shield. “Are practically engaged!”
Shane just stared. “Ilya. It’s me.”
“Only my boyfriend may unwrap me.” Ilya announced. “Is respect.”
Ilya gets drunk and refuses to be touched by anyone except his boyfriend. Unfortunately for Shane, Ilya does not realize his boyfriend is the one taking him home.
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
23 Feb 2026
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“Hey, Huddy.”
His head is buzzing like he just snorted a line. “Yeah?”
Connor closes the knuckles of his index and middle fingers over Hudson’s meticulously and diurnally cleaned nose pores, which are slick with Connor’s armpit sweat. “Got your nose.”
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
17 Feb 2026
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Hudson and Connor are best friends. Both are in committed relationships with other people, and they’re about to begin filming the second season of Heated Rivalry.
But a couple’s bracelet—seemingly harmless—becomes the breaking point that exposes buried tensions, jealousy, and poorly defined boundaries. Between arguments and mistakes that hurt more than either of them expects, they’re forced to face a truth they’ve been avoiding for far too long: what they feel no longer fits within the word “friendship.”
“But I know,” François continued, his voice a tone deeper than usual, “that if I grab that fucking phone right now, I’ll find missed calls, typed and deleted messages, Facetime attempts… all directed at Hudson.”
Connor clenched his jaw.
“That’s not true.”
“Isn’t it?” François looked at him with a mix of sadness and exhaustion. “Because I did worry about you. I did think about calling you. I did lie awake with the phone in my hand.”
The silence became unbearable.
“And yet,” he added, “you didn’t call me.”
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17 Feb 2026
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please leave a message by subcorax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Sarah
Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.Jackie
Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.Jackie has added Lily to the conversation
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what is thisOr: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.
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- Part 1 of You Have (81) Unread Messages
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
22 Jan 2026
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“That’s the fifth time I’ve hit my hip on the table,” he says, rubbing his side as if it’ll stop the sting. “Your kitchen is too small.”
“I know.” Eddie grabs for the butterknife and starts the precarious process of raking away the black streak without fucking up his masterpiece beneath. “We’ll look for a house with a bigger kitchen on Zillow after the bake sale.”
Buck makes a funny noise, like a raccoon caught in the trash. “What?”
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Eddie buys a new house, battles with the homeowner's association, omits the truth, almost dies, and during the process realizes yeah, he's a little bit in love with his best friend.
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12 Dec 2025
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Buck was going to kill him.
That was Eddie’s first thought when his brain processed the fact that he’d walked their kid right into the middle of a fucking bank heist.
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Or: Eddie vs. not picking a fight with three armed bank robbers; Buck vs. not intervening in an active hostage situation. Challenge level: impossible.
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- Part 2 of you could be my baby, baby, baby
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
06 Dec 2025
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Buck writes postcards while he's out on the road and sends them to his sister's apartment in El Paso. Except, Maddie no longer lives there.
Eddie Diaz does.
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03 Dec 2025
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“My mom said, uh, that his name was Buck. That he was going to go to the fire academy and that he had a—” she broke off, rubbing her own forehead, exactly where his skin went pink. “She said he went by Firehose.”
Buck didn’t need all of his coworkers to look at him in alarm; he was pretty sure he’d gone deadly pale. His daughter knew four things about him, and one of them was his old tinder profile handle. He felt a little like he was going to die.
“She’s got your eyes,” Eddie commented, unhelpfully.
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Buck finds out he has a daughter, and also a stupidly big crush on his best friend. It's an adjustment.
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- Part 1 of you could be my baby, baby, baby
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10 Oct 2025
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“C'mere," Buck says, sitting up to scoot closer to Eddie.
"What are you doing?” Eddie asks, and Buck sighs.
"You can just kiss me, get a taste of the lip balm, and tell me what flavour you think it is.”
Eddie can’t believe his ears.
"That is such a stupid way to win a bet, Buck."
“Oh so you concede?"
Eddie rolls his eyes, shaking his head before planting both hands on the sides of Buck's face and hauling him in to press their lips together.
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Buck and Eddie make a bet on whether or not Eddie can guess all of Buck's lip balm flavours, and in order for Eddie to get a taste, they have to kiss.
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
27 Aug 2025
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Evan Buckley was born a carrier to a family of high society. He longs for freedom, but he was primped, plucked, and trained for his future husband since childhood. When his family falls into misfortune and his father is desperate to find him a match, a marriage between Evan and a rancher from Texas is arranged.
Will he fail to thrive or grow like wildflowers?
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In Hershey, Pennsylvania 1902, Buck is a pure and innocent man raised properly in high society, longing all the while for love and freedom. A marriage is arranged between him and Eddie, a rough and tumble man from the country.Buck must learn who he can be in a place entirely different from his own. A place without judgement, and so very full of love.
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20 Jul 2025
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Eddie is an Alpha who left his pack and became nearly feral, leaving him unable to shift back into human form. He comes across a lone Omega in the woods who needs help. They become each other's solace, but when they have to face the rest of the world again, their relationship struggles to survive outside of their bubble.
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10 Jun 2025
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Meth Lab Jim Loves Eddie Diaz (And Eddie’s Boyfriend Buck by Association) by eightpackdiaz
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
11 Mar 2025
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“Jim!” Eddie calls out as Jim exits his car and walks over in their direction. “We heard your address on the scanner. How’d the fire start?”
As Jim watches Eddie and Buck pull additional protective gear on, he wonders if it’s worth lying.
Yeah, probably not.
“I, uh, think it was probably the lab,” he says hesitantly. “The fire would have started in the garage.”
“You have a lab in your garage?” Buck gives him a strange look. “I didn’t know you were a scientist.”
Jim winces.
“Not that kind of lab.”
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(Meth Lab Jim is convinced Eddie and Buck are in a relationship. Apparently that's not the case.)
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07 Jun 2025
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Curling in on himself, Buck coughs in earnest, hacking violently enough that he tastes bits of copper on his tongue. Eyes watering, struggling to breathe, Buck shifts to his hands and knees. The vials roll away, leaving him with a free hand to pound against his sternum. The sensation of something crawling up his neck, choking him, has panic setting in until it’s finally free. Something plops onto the floor with an unsettling wetness.
Looking down, he sees a full grown string of honeysuckle, roots and all, tainted with splatters of blood in the silvery moonlight. Its nectar still lingers on his lips, sugary, delicate, ominous. The message is clear. Buck leans his forehead on the floor, and screams.
Even knowing this love would eventually kill him, for Eddie, he’ll let it.
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Buck's looking death down the barrel, yet again, this time in the form of Hanahaki. Eddie's leaving for Texas, Maddie's struggling in the aftermath of being kidnapped, Bobby has yet another specter of his past coming to haunt him. Buck will let himself strangle on the blossoms of his own unspoken love rather than ruin what little he has left.
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- Part 2 of Under the Hawthorn Trees
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
05 Jun 2025
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So he curls his fingers around the wood of his clipboard and clears his throat. “You have really nice hands, you know,” is what he goes with.
Eddie jerks back just a bit, dropping the halligan into the compartment with a thud as he turns shocked eyes back to Buck. “What?”
“Yeah,” god, what does he even say, “they’re uh, strong. And capable. You know, like…they can do a lot of things.”
Okay, so, maybe this whole plan needs a little bit of work.
buck is on a mission to help eddie recover his self-confidence. it goes well for exactly zero parties involved.
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05 May 2025
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He saw what Tommy must have seen, Buck who was so obviously jealous of them. Buck who always defaulted to Eddie’s side. Buck who asked Tommy to move in despite wanting Eddie to go to the stupid basketball game with him a few hours earlier.
My attention?
You can take Eddie if you want.
I’m not your last.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh no.
Oh fuck.
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After Buck gets dumped, he remembers he agreed to go to Abby's wedding with a date. Eddie steps up and pretends to be his boyfriend. All hell breaks loose.
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29 Apr 2025
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Raphael’s trying his best not to be nosy, but his eyes land on Eddie’s screen anyway, and he huffs out a quiet laugh. “My wife sends me stuff like that, too. I don’t know where she finds it.”
“If she’s anything like Buck, she’s got the oddity section on AP News bookmarked.”
Eddie’s card makes a soft little beep as he taps it against the machine, and Raphael smiles at him as he tears the receipt off and hands it over. “How long have y’all been together?”
...or, everyone in El Paso has lost their minds.
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
21 Apr 2025
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“I swear, this doesn’t normally happen to me.”
He didn’t normally run along trying to justify himself either, but it didn’t matter, because his date — Mia? Maya? — was already halfway out the door.
“Hey, man, you don’t have to justify yourself to me… just maybe don’t go calling yourself Firehose if the hose is lacking… water pressure.”
Buck was going to jump out a window.
“I don’t lack water pressure, okay, this has really never happened before. And Firehose is old, I didn’t even realise that name was still attached to the profile but—”
She sighed, “We’re not dating, Bock.” Buck’s brows wrinkled, “this was meant to be a short hookup, and your hook just isn’t going up, so I’m gonna head out.”
Before Buck could even argue any further, Meena was gone.
Or maybe it was Milla.
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Eddie leaves and Buck tries to fuck about it. Instead, he fails miserably and repeatedly, gets a cat and makes some discoveries.
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21 Apr 2025
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"I don’t like oranges.”
“Since when?” Eddie frowns. “You used to love oranges.”
Christopher shrugs. “I don’t like them anymore.”
And that’s fine, really. Tastes change. Christopher doesn’t have to like oranges.
It’s just that he does. Christopher loves oranges. Christopher has loved oranges since the first time he tasted one, Eddie watching on over a shaky video call from the desert.Or, Eddie knows his kid, and his kid loves oranges. Buck knows both of them better than Eddie realized. He shows it in various citrus-based ways.
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Bookmarked by esseffbee
19 Apr 2025