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    Heat spread across Ilya's face. His mouth fell open slightly. He let out a short, stuttered laugh of disbelief. This couldn't- he was straight, he wasn't-

    “Finally got you at your own game.” Shane's smirk widened to a smile, his hand clapping down on Ilya's shoulder to squeeze it slightly. For once in his life, Ilya was unable to find his voice.

    “Damn.” Shane laughed, jostling him a bit. “If I had known this was all it took to get you to shut the fuck up, I would have started flirting back years ago.”

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    When old college friends Ilya and Shane show up to their mutual best friend's wedding, they are ready to fulfill their duties as bridesmen. Even after years of not seeing each other, they fall right back into their usual banter.

    Ilya loves to flirt with Shane. Shane loves to tell him to fuck off. It's a running a bit. Nothing more than a joke between two friends; because Shane is gay and Ilya is straight and it doesn't actually mean anything…until Shane finally decides to flirt back, and Ilya's world suddenly tilts on its axis.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    “Found you.”

    Hollander closed the folder. “Mr. Rozanov.”

    “I’ve got something for you.”

    Before Shane could ask what he meant, Ilya placed the decorated badge on the counter between them. “Your ID badge.”

    Shane looked first at the badge clipped to his white coat, then at the one lying on the counter.

    “…My ID badge?”

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    Where Shane is temporarily transferred to the pediatric ward after the previous anesthesiologist quits, only to find himself dealing with a crazy, curly-haired blonde nurse who already had his eyes on him.

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    13 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

    ***

    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    11 Aug 2026

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    Shane’s uncle arrives from Japan for Shane and Ilya's wedding, which becomes complicated in ways Ilya does not expect.

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    11 Aug 2026

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    ★Recently retired NHL star and single dad Shane Hollander is forced to address his desire for a partner when his son’s new hockey coach Ilya Rozanov suddenly falls into their lives!☆

    Or: Single Dad Shane + Hockey Coach Ilya

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    11 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was starting over. His mother was long dead, his father had finally passed, and his brother didn’t want him around anymore. Moscow was nothing but dead bodies and fading memories and scars that just wouldn’t heal.
    Enter Shane Hollander.
    *Laceration, from Ilya’s POV

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    11 Aug 2026

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    "So what?" Shane huffs. "I start dating some random guy and bring him to my ex's wedding? That's so weird."

    "Or you find perfect, fake boyfriend who will act like total asshole to Matt."

    Shane snorts. But then he stops laughing.

    It's not… the worst idea. It's kind of a bad one. And chances are Matt is happily involved with whoever this Ian guy is, so he won't even care. Shane would have to find a fake boyfriend that's either so unworldly perfect, everyone in the room will be jealous; or someone who has a special talent for pissing people off.

    Shane sits up, his eyes finding Ilya's.

    "What if I bring you?"

    - or, Shane needs a date for his ex's wedding, and who better to bring than his best friend, Ilya? (You know, the one who is secretly in love with Shane.)

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    08 Aug 2026

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    Ilya hates that he cannot go anywhere in this school without people daydreaming and gushing about Hollander now. The thing is, he fucking understands the hype. He's straight, not blind, and Hollander's a damn good-looking guy. His ridiculously big honey eyes and stupidly cute freckles are frustratingly distracting.

    Still, Ilya is a man on a mission, and God help him, he will not stop until Hollander's pretty little girlfriend deletes every fucking trace of their pretty little romance from her Instagram.

    Or: Ilya and Shane are bitter rivals vying for the Captain title of Harvard Hockey, and it doesn’t help that Shane is also… the most popular campus heartthrob? If Ilya sabotages all of Shane’s relationships, it’s because of unavoidable legitimate circumstances and absolutely not because he’s jealous of Shane’s reputation.

    (He’s just jealous, but he doesn’t know it yet.)

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    06 Aug 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    06 Aug 2026

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    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

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    06 Aug 2026

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    01 Aug 2026

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    Ilya was glowing, and wild, and so bright he was almost blinding. Beautiful, Shane had known, even back then, when he was still too young to know much of anything at all.

    Ilya Rozanov belongs to the summer, and the summer belongs to them.

    (Or, two childhood best friends spend a summer by the lake, before the rest of their lives begin.)

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    01 Aug 2026

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    “Can I tell you a secret?” Mom asks.

    Shane nods immediately. He likes secrets. Especially from his mother. She knows everything about everything.

    “It doesn’t matter what they say or do,” she tells him. “The only thing that matters is what you do on the ice.”

    “Score lots of goals?” Shane clarifies, since eleven-year-old boys do all kinds of things on the ice.

    “Score lots of goals.” Mom nods with a grin. “The ice doesn’t care who you are, Shane. So, you go out there and give it your everything. Then nothing else matters.”

    “You promise?” Shane whispers.

    “I promise,” Mom tells him firmly. “If you’re good on the ice, they won’t care who you are off it.”

    OR: An ode to the many layers of Shane Hollander.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Daddy and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    25 Jul 2026

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    SHANE
    ➥ We can resign the paperwork in your name.
    ➥ I mean, you could pick a new car, but there's hardly any place for another one, unless you get rid of yours. I have some contacts with car dealers in the area. I doubt it you want a Jeep, though?

    ILYA
    ➥ hmmmmm
    ➥ if i say i want a porsche will you buy me porsche

    SHANE
    ➥ A sports one? No. They drive too fast.
    ➥ But a regular one, sure. What colour?

    ILYA
    ➥ well my main concern was that they cost as much as a fucking house baby, but
    ➥ orange?

    SHANE
    ➥ I can look around.

    ILYA
    ➥ wait no
    ➥ no
    ➥ shane
    ➥ dont
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    or: a year into dating, ilya and his daughter move in with shane, and a long week of fuck-ups and bad luck follows.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    “I was trying to be cool about it.” Shane's confession is a quiet whine, muffled into his palms. “Go with the flow, y’know?”

    It’s almost unbearable, how much Ilya adores this perfect, neurotic man. “Hollander,” he says patiently. “You have never once gone with flow. Not ever in your life.”

    There is only one grey cloud in the perfect blue sky of Ilya’s summer.

    His two weeks at the cottage are almost over, and Shane still hasn’t asked him to stay.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    I feel like he truly only likes me for my ass, Shane thinks. But thankfully, there’s just enough of his brain-to-mouth filter still working well enough to translate that to, “I feel like she truly only likes me for my dick. But maybe I wanna cuddle after or some shit. Is that a crime?”

    “Absolutely not, Hollander. You should get all the cuddles you want after a good fuck.” Cliff raises his glass and winks.

    He can't believe he's really just talking to Rozanov’s teammate and friend about him. Not that he knows it’s about Rozanov, but still. 

    Shane's never having vodka ever again. But for now, he’ll let it lower his inhibitions—if only to get all of this off his chest. Maybe then it’d stop fucking aching.

    shane strikes up an unlikely friendship with cliff marleau after he walks out of ilya’s penthouse suite in vegas feeling worthless. it’s all fairly innocent at first, until a threesome with shane and a woman awakens something in cliff that he’s never even thought about before. he confides in ilya without revealing who his secret gay awakening was, but ilya connects the dots anyway and goes on a jealous rampage before finally confronting his feelings for shane.

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    23 Jul 2026

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    As captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, Shane's performance on the ice was the pillar to the team's success. Lately, he has been high strung, in need of a release. Hayden Pike recommends his favorite cam site, YouCamz, to solve the problem.

    OR

    Hockey Player Shane Hollander x Camboy Ilya Rozanov AU

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    Under the live now section, there were all sorts of men to choose from. Shane began to browse through and tried to find someone that peaked his interest. He was stopped cold by the most beautiful man he had ever laid eyes on.

    RockHardRussian, streaming now, two thousand viewers currently. He was muscular, built, his chest on display in the preview picture, all that he wore was a golden crucifix around his neck. His golden curls were unruly in a sexy way, moles dotted his face and chest.

    The corner of his mouth was quirked up, a tempting smirk that invited the viewer to click on his stream. What really grabbed Shane were his icy blue eyes, they were practically like a siren call. Those eyes drew him in and had him clicking before he could even process that he did it.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.

    “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.

    Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.

    “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”

    Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.

    Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Shane jumps a little, turning around to say something before his voice quickly dies in his throat. Holy shit. Maybe he died on his way into work this morning. Maybe he's still asleep in his bed. There's got to be some explanation for the man stood next to him, leaning over to grab playfully at one of Wyatt's pens. He's dressed casually, wearing a fitted navy blue t-shirt, tight fitting dark wash jeans and a well-loved pair of sambas. Sandy blonde curls are styled messily, the fluorescents in the ceiling making them glow. Shane feels a little bit insane, and he can't quite hear what's going on around him. All he knows is that he must've done something very, VERY good in a past life to be here.

    Or; Shane gets a job at MLH internet, and learns a lot about himself very quickly.

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    18 Jul 2026

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