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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Shane has always lived inside himself.

    Inside his head. Inside his routines. Inside the version of him everyone trusts to hold it all together. He has learned through the years how to be disciplined, successful, untochable—how to carry love and expectation withouth letting either slip.

    What he hasn’t learned is how to ask for help.

    Luckily, his boyfriend Ilya, who everyone believe is his rival, notices first. He starts to see the patterns Shane won’t name out loud and the silences that last a little too long. He loves Shane, and that means paying attention, even when what he finds is frightening, even when he struggles too.

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    Shane slowly develops an eating disorder during the time he and Ilya are secretly dating while still playing for Montreal and Boston, and Ilya is the first one to notice, and the first one to try to do something about it.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane feels rejected. Sadly it doesn't stop there.

    Or: What if I took my two favorite HR-fanfic-tropes (subdrop and hanahaki) and combined them ... Shane certainly isn't better for it, that's for sure.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.

    or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    good ouch

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    Shane can’t stand his college roommate and teammate, Ilya Rozanov. Can’t stand his arrogance and his messiness and his constant sleeping around.

    But then the entire team, Shane included, welcomes their families to campus for Parents Weekend.

    And Shane also can’t stand that Ilya is alone.

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    25 Jan 2026