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• (can't live without) the trust from those you love by initialmadi

  Fandoms: Bright Lights Big City (1988)  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Work in Progress

  12 Oct 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Tad Allagash/Jamie Conway
  • Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Tad Allagash
  • Seasonal Affective Disorder
  • Autumn
  • Sweaters
  • Writer's Block
  • Religious Imagery & Symbolism
  • Author Is Not Religious
  • author has read a lot of medieval literature however
  • Other Additional Tags to Be Added

  Summary

  It's autumn. Jamie Conway needs some help getting out of his head (and his apartment. and writer's block).

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  710

  Chapters:

  1/?

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  3

  Hits:

  12

• i wanted to say goodbye (so i wrote you a novel) by initialmadi

  Fandoms: Bright Lights Big City (1988)  

  • Explicit
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  24 Jul 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Tad Allagash/Jamie Conway
  • Jamie Conway & Michael Conway
  • Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Tad Allagash
  • Amanda White (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Michael Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Mr. Conway | Father (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Post-Canon
  • Time Skips
  • Celebrations
  • Past Drug Addiction
  • Past Drug Use
  • Recovery
  • Homoeroticism
  • Explicit Sexual Content
  • Christmas Party
  • Flashbacks
  • Brothers
  • how do I tag it without making it seem like incest
  • Not Incest
  • jamie conway is having sex with tad allagash. not his brother
  • Daddy Issues
  • Vomiting
  • Anxiety
  • Phone Calls & Telephones
  • Loneliness
  • Scars
  • Parent Death
  • Driving
  • Brotherly Bonding
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Bathing/Washing
  • Post-Coital Cuddling
  • Suicidal Thoughts
  • Self-Harm
  • Suicide Attempt
  • Blood and Injury
  • Suicide Notes
  • Sunsets
  • Alcohol
  • Drunken Confessions
  • Trans Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Gender Dysphoria
  • Menstruation
  • Menstrual Sex
  • Oral Sex
  • Car Accidents
  • the car accident is unrealistic
  • Character Death
  • Love Confessions
  • Roses

  Summary

  It's been five years since the events of Bright Lights, Big City. Jamie Conway is learning to move on.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  11,651

  Chapters:

  12/12

  Comments:

  14

  Kudos:

  7

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  166

• this is the side of us nobody sees by initialmadi

  Fandoms: Bright Lights Big City (1988)  

  • Explicit
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  29 May 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Tad Allagash/Jamie Conway
  • Tad Allagash
  • Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Crying
  • Crying During Sex
  • Painful Sex
  • Drunk Sex
  • Grief/Mourning
  • Title from a Sugarcult Song
  • Not Beta Read
  • Mildly Dubious Consent
  • jamie begs for it but is drunk
  • so i would consider it dubious
  • Intoxication
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Pet Names
  • Bathroom Sex
  • Alcohol
  • Teasing
  • Biting
  • Biting Kink
  • Blood
  • Tad Allagash Bites
  • Showering Together
  • Sick Character
  • Fever
  • Spooning
  • Little Spoon Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)

  Summary

  jamie conway needs to get away from it all. tad allagash is the only person he can call.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  3,827

  Chapters:

  5/5

  Comments:

  16

  Kudos:

  5

  Hits:

  140

• and everytime i fall asleep, my dreams are haunted by initialmadi

  Fandoms: Bright Lights Big City (1988)  

  • Explicit
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  12 Apr 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Tad Allagash/Jamie Conway
  • Tad Allagash
  • Jamie Conway (Bright Lights Big City)
  • Bruises
  • Biting
  • Implied/Referenced Drug Use
  • Cocaine
  • Painkillers
  • (used correctly)
  • tad allagash can't keep his hands to himself
  • Neck Kissing
  • Crying
  • Characters Whimpering
  • Touching
  • Teasing
  • jamie conway is injured
  • Title from a McFly Song
  • Not Beta Read
  • Blow Jobs
  • Hand Jobs
  • Morning Sex
  • Explicit Sexual Content
  • Masturbation
  • Vomiting
  • Mental Breakdown
  • Implied/Referenced Suicide
  • Sobbing
  • Comfort
  • Forgiveness
  • Making Up
  • Making Out
  • Oral Sex
  • Post-Coital Cuddling
  • Anal Sex
  • Blindfolds
  • Praise
  • Choking
  • Choking Kink
  • Spit as Lube
  • Love Confessions
  • Confessional Sex

  Summary

  jamie conway is a whiny mess until tad allagash distracts him from it all.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  4,937

  Chapters:

  5/5

  Comments:

  12

  Kudos:

  9

  Hits:

  143

• So Wouldn't You Like To Come With Me by initialmadi

  Fandoms: McFly (Band), Busted (Band)  

  • General Audiences
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Gen
  • Complete Work

  14 Jan 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Dougie Poynter & Matt Willis
  • Dougie Poynter
  • Matt Willis
  • Gaming
  • Characters Playing Fortnite
  • Fortnite References
  • Friendship
  • Mentioned Hatsune Miku
  • Mentioned Marty McFly
  • Bad Puns
  • author plays too much fortnite
  • author likes hatsune miku too much
  • Teamwork
  • Gun Violence
  • i mean kinda?? like it's fortnite
  • but guns are still referenced/used
  • Title from a McFly Song
  • Nicknames

  Summary

  Two friends enjoy some Fortnite together after a long day.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  981

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Kudos:

  3

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  50