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    Sixteen years ago at the height of Shane Hollander's career, he disappeared. Now years later invites to a wedding for a ‘Luca Hollander’ end up on the doorstep of many people of the past, many of which have their names etched in his father’s diary. Inviting them all with the intention of finally getting to know more about his father, and finally finding out who his fathers soulmate was.

    Will this be the wedding of the century without even knowing it or go down in a dumpster fire?

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    21 May 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    21 May 2026

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    Tune in for...
    ✨✨LUCKY & UNLUCKY GAME 7✨✨

    ★"Wow, Wow, котик, I am going to blow you away on that ice!"
    ☆"...I had a dream kinda like that."
    ☆"Oh, we are playing dirty now? Good! More fun for me!"

    ★"Yes! ‘Gorgeous!' Great word! Svetlana calls you that too, those hands, she says to me."
    ☆"...and what do you say back, about my hands?"
    ☆"This is trick question. You want compliments and you want to stay my secret."

    ★"Fuck, Shane. Too many fucking beds!…and never the one I want.”

    ★"I hate that we have to let the world into our house just so we can live there together."

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    Rivals/Secret Boyfriends looking for their happy ending, ...sooner rather than later!
    [2018-2019 Season] Eastern Conference Finals, Stanley Cup, & the summer after
    Long-distance phonecalls, lovesick loverboys at the intersections. + more!

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    03 May 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    11 Apr 2026

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    14/14 chapters so far and yes it’s a 10/10 fic so far

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    They walked across the carpark and when they reached the street, Rozanov turned to him as he stepped off the curb. “So, when did boring Canadian boy--”

    But that was all that came out before a car skidded into him.

    Shane stumbled back as the sound of air bursting from Rozanov's lungs hit him. He tumbled over the roof of the car and onto the snowy asphalt below. The car kept skidding onwards, crashing into a car in front and before Shane even knew what was happening, he was scrambling towards Rozanov’s body.

    “Rozanov, Ilya-- can you hear me? Fuck! Are you okay?” He asked, frantic. There was so much blood, people were running towards them. He could hear phones being dialled, could feel the presence of others around them.

    Ilya’s eyes were open, but it was as if he were looking past him, up towards the sky above. He coughed once and blood sputtered out, dribbling down his face "Mama." He said softly.

    ---

    Since Shane was a young boy he has been able to rewind time. He had never done it for anything huge, just small things here and there.

    Then Ilya Rozanov died in front of him.

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    01 May 2026