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    Sixteen years ago at the height of Shane Hollander's career, he disappeared. Now years later invites to a wedding for a ‘Luca Hollander’ end up on the doorstep of many people of the past, many of which have their names etched in his father’s diary. Inviting them all with the intention of finally getting to know more about his father, and finally finding out who his fathers soulmate was.

    Will this be the wedding of the century without even knowing it or go down in a dumpster fire?

    coding credits: ireverents

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    21 May 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    21 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 83

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    Tune in for...
    ✨✨LUCKY & UNLUCKY GAME 7✨✨

    ★"Wow, Wow, котик, I am going to blow you away on that ice!"
    ☆"...I had a dream kinda like that."
    ☆"Oh, we are playing dirty now? Good! More fun for me!"

    ★"Yes! ‘Gorgeous!' Great word! Svetlana calls you that too, those hands, she says to me."
    ☆"...and what do you say back, about my hands?"
    ☆"This is trick question. You want compliments and you want to stay my secret."

    ★"Fuck, Shane. Too many fucking beds!…and never the one I want.”

    ★"I hate that we have to let the world into our house just so we can live there together."

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    Rivals/Secret Boyfriends looking for their happy ending, ...sooner rather than later!
    [2018-2019 Season] Eastern Conference Finals, Stanley Cup, & the summer after
    Long-distance phonecalls, lovesick loverboys at the intersections. + more!

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    03 May 2026

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    They walked across the carpark and when they reached the street, Rozanov turned to him as he stepped off the curb. “So, when did boring Canadian boy--”

    But that was all that came out before a car skidded into him.

    Shane stumbled back as the sound of air bursting from Rozanov's lungs hit him. He tumbled over the roof of the car and onto the snowy asphalt below. The car kept skidding onwards, crashing into a car in front and before Shane even knew what was happening, he was scrambling towards Rozanov’s body.

    “Rozanov, Ilya-- can you hear me? Fuck! Are you okay?” He asked, frantic. There was so much blood, people were running towards them. He could hear phones being dialled, could feel the presence of others around them.

    Ilya’s eyes were open, but it was as if he were looking past him, up towards the sky above. He coughed once and blood sputtered out, dribbling down his face "Mama." He said softly.

    ---

    Since Shane was a young boy he has been able to rewind time. He had never done it for anything huge, just small things here and there.

    Then Ilya Rozanov died in front of him.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    An omega is taught to stay untouched for their future mate. Shane Hollander grew up believing that rule without question. Then Ilya Rozanov came into his life and everything he believed fell apart.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    Ilya could’ve taken the den for himself months ago, back when he was the one working late after hockey practice and Shane was the one leaving protein bars on his keyboard like edible love notes. But no.

    Now Shane got the office, Shane got the late-night calls, hundreds of contracts to read, annotate, and sign, and Shane started saying "mm-hmm" without looking up when Ilya tries to talk his ears out about the homeowners’ association gossip like he was just indulging his perfect little housewife.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is stupid.

    Ilya didn’t know what Shane saw in him, but you can't just fall for a man you barely met. You can't just fall so deep and so quickly.

    Shane looked at him like devotion came naturally, like getting hurt was a price he was willing to pay. Ilya wanted to protect him from being hurt at all costs. But what if he was the one who did it?

    Shane went first in the draft, and then threw it away by choosing Ottawa.
    A bad team. A losing future. No Cups. No real rivalry.
    Ilya didn’t understand the decision. He refused to.

    Or.

    Shane got his second chance. This time, he refused to wait for years to get his Ilya. He had to take him fast, before depression or any other crap got him. But if he touched the timeline wrong—if anything went off-script—what did it cost?

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    22 Apr 2026

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    gonna get into this

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    This was soooo good and creative.

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    There’s what feels like a million alpha scents oozing out from the cracks of the ornate double doors he’s paused in front of. Logically he knows it’s just a hundred. A hundred alphas and their beta chaperones. A hundred alphas carefully vetted by his mom even though omega matching balls are sixty years out of date. They’d whipped this one up special, just for him.

    Because he’s Shane Hollander.

    He’s got two Stanley Cups and he’s the face of so many different brands that had wanted to show they were all about the ‘modern omega’. Shane sure as fucking hell hadn’t felt like a modern omega when Crowell had unearthed an archaic rule from the depths of the league handbooks.

    Omegas must be mated by the age of 25 to be eligible to continue to play.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane
    Last chance. Take your tank top back.

    Lily
    no, it's a fucking gift
    keep it

    Shane
    Fine.
    I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.

    Lily
    what the hell is that supposed to mean???
    hollander
    fuck

    Shane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    2/5 so far

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    "Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."

    "Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.

    "I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.

    "For what?"

    "It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."

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    12 Apr 2026

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    It's Shane's first season as a Centaur and he can’t help but feel like it’s still Ilya’s team, not his. When he gets sick midway through the season and is instructed to quarantine away from his husband to avoid both of the team's star players being out of commission, he wonders if the Centaurs—and Ilya—would be better off without him.

    Or, a sick and miserable Shane who misses Ilya but doesn’t want to burden his husband or his team

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    12 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    11 Apr 2026

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    16/16 chapters so far and yes it’s a 10/10 fic so far

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    ILYA
    ➥i am so weak mr hollander
    ➥imagine you could have your way with me
    ➥i could not fight back
    ➥you could jump on me all you want

    SHANE
    ➥😐
    ➥Very funny.

    ILYA
    ➥give me cpr
    ➥to my dick
    ➥to make me healthy again

    SHANE
    ➥Is your fever getting worse?

    ILYA
    ➥no is just you
    ➥making me all hot inside
    ➥burning
    ➥such a good boyfriend to me, bought me soup
    ➥does my laundry

    SHANE
    ➥You are so easily bribed.
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    or: nine months into dating the rich, hot, and protective college student Shane, Ilya gets sick. Shane helps out his boyfriend and his daughter.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    2/5 so far. Absolutely love this

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    "Oh, it looks like you’re doing better! With those scores, I guess we won’t have to meet as often anymore." Shane was beaming, proudly looking down at the transcript. Ilya’s smile immediately dropped.

    Needless to say, he scored 20 points lower on the next midterm.

    In which popular hockey fuckboy Ilya Rozanov falls madly in love with the university's golden boy Shane Hollander. Somehow, they go from being the talk on campus to becoming that couple.

    Alternatively, my take on the Jock!Ilya x Nerd!Shane trope bc it is desperately underrepresented.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    5/5 chapters so far. Yeah this fic is great

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    "You do realise half of our fans want to fuck you?" Shane exhaled, watching the fireflies dance in the evening sky. Ilya shrugged.
    "They want to fuck all of us, that's how it works. What, do you think they don't want to fuck you?" He lowered his voice, teasing him. "Because I read some interesting things on Twitter."
    "Shut up."
    "You are very popular with the girls. Good boy, bass player, good looks, gentleman, probably they think you are a beast in bed."
    ---

    Shane Hollander is the goody-two-shoes Canadian bassist of Ice Crawlers. Ilya Rozanov is their loud Russian drummer. As the band reaches unprecedented levels of success and fame in the early 2010's, these two can't stay away from each other - even though the last thing their careers need is a sexual scandal between two of the most popular rock stars of their time.

    Rockband AU!

    If you're like me and Hollanov hit you the same way Larry Stylinson did when you were 12, good luck and have fun.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    Maybe have read 3 chapters, will continue later

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    He moves, his hands steady, counting the measures as he pours. One-two-three, one-two-three. Ice sings against glass - liquid swirls in a chaotic, beautiful vortex. The world narrows mercifully to the simple logic of weight and movement, physics that he can control. For a few blessed seconds, the memories pressing against the back of his skull recede, and there is no phantom bite of ice under his skates, no roar of a stadium crowd worshipping a god that no longer exists.

    Just this.

    He slides the drinks down the bar with a practiced flick, flashes that curated smile again, feels the brief, shallow surge of satisfaction when one of them says, “Keep the change,” and tosses an extra bill into the tip jar. Small victories. Small comforts.

    Shane has learned to survive on crumbs.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    8 chapters so far, great story

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    Mystery Work

    Part of my private fics
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    29 Mar 2026

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    Turning 40 was supposed to be celebrated. It was another milestone, another decade completed. It wasn’t as revered as 30 was, but people still threw parties and highlighted their 40th birthdays. Yet Ilya wasn’t unaffected. In fact, he was the complete opposite—he dreaded this birthday.

    He should be happy. He had a wonderful husband, a beautiful home, and a daughter, whom he was (terrified) excited to raise. But he wasn’t. Turning 40 wasn't a fun day—it was a reminder. A reminder that he will have spent 40 years being alive on this Earth, 28 of those existing without his beloved mother.

    Irina Rozanova, who was a beautiful and kind woman, who died at 39. Irina Rozanova, whom Ilya found at 12, laying on her side, cold and still with a bottle of pills on her nightstand, the woman who never got to see her 40th year.

    He knew this day was coming. He knew that one day he’d have his first year where he would be older than his mother was when she had died (if he even made it to that age). But that didn’t mean he was prepared for the feelings it would bring. And Ilya didn’t know if he could handle them.

    (He couldn’t).

    Currently updating weekly on Sundays.

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    27 Mar 2026

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