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    Under the guidance of his doctor and mostly out of desperation due to his last annual heat being severe enough to nearly land him in the hospital, Shane Hollander knows he needs to take a heat partner for the first time if he doesn’t want to end up in a cycle facility.
    With his options between hiring a comfort alpha or asking one Ilya Rozanov for help, the choice is clear to Shane. Even if it feels like he’s losing every shred of his dignity to ask his - rival? fuckbuddy? - whatever Rozanov is to help him through his heat, Rozanov is the only alpha he trusts enough to take care of him.
    Rozanov is due for his own rut and is more than happy to finally, finally have heat sex with Hollander. Which is why he says yes with no hesitation. No other reason, of course.
    Now they both just need to survive the week with their hearts intact, which is something far easier said than done.

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    15 Oct 2026

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    Over the years he thought maybe, just maybe, being knotted by an alpha semi regularly might change something, like his biology would one day answer Ilya’s despite their ups and downs. He even helped Rozanov through a rut one time, and at the time he thought surely his inner omega would finally respond to his pheromones and the teeth shaped bruises on his nape that almost resembled mating bites and give him a heat.
    But nothing.
    Heats are the last thing on his mind right now though. Ilya is spending two weeks with him at his cottage, alone. Completely and utterly alone. Together.

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    Omega Shane has never had a heat. Over the years, he has given up on expecting to have one, but when he spends two weeks with alpha Ilya in the comfort of his cottage, something unexpected happens: he is thrown head first into his very first heat. Luckily, Ilya is there to help.

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    15 Oct 2026

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    Still, he’s felt like absolute shit for weeks, and the idea of sitting in his hotel room, where he would probably masturbate, cry, and have another night of fitful sleep, did not make him feel any better. Getting to be skin to skin with Ilya Rozanov did. And surely Rozanov wouldn’t be demanding Shane make a nest in his damn bed if he didn’t fully intend on actually kissing him in it and keeping him there until morning, right?

    Maybe that would be enough to pick Shane up out of this drop, keep it from happening again.

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    After not sending the "we didn't kiss" text, Shane's omega hormones go into distress mode. Despite trying to hide his symptoms and play through the misery, when Ilya Rozanov finds out what's going on, the alpha Shane's body wants most is determined to fix it.

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    15 Oct 2026

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    In an AU where Shane joins the Montreal Metros the same year he's drafted, Ilya stays in Russia and Shane is pretty pissed off about it. He's released to go to the 2010 World Junior Championships in Helsinki, Finland because he wants his rematch, damn it, and because he wants to try to convince his rival to get to the MLH as soon as possible and make things interesting.

    When Shane discovers Ilya may not have stayed in Russia of his own free will, he puts together a crack team of idiot teenagers international hockey players to achieve one goal: get Ilya Rozanov to Boston.

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    14 Oct 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    14 Oct 2026

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    Wiebe could tell he was wearing Ilya down, but he still looked nervous. "Ilya," Ilya stilled. To his team he was always Rozanov or Roz or Rozy, never Ilya. "You're our guy. There's nobody I'd rather be our captain, to lead this team to another Stanley Cup. It's clear you don't like the guy, but we both know how good this could be."

    Ilya jerked his head in a nod. "We will destroy everyone, this is true." Wiebe seemed satisfied. Ilya stood to leave and delivered one last look at Wiebe "But I do not have to be happy about it."

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    Shane and Ilya are estranged for years after Tuna Meltdown. Then Shane confuses everyone by signing with the Raiders.

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    13 Oct 2026

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    Dr Shane Hollander knows exactly where his life is headed. He’s back at Mass Gen, chief resident on the Harvard OB/GYN program, his dream fellowship spot all but guaranteed. All he has to do is keep his head down, log plenty of cases, and see the year out.

    But then a disastrous first day leads to a drunken hookup, and then the stranger Shane left in the bar walks into his OR the next morning. Naturally, the guy's a total asshole. Even worse, he's a brilliant surgeon.

    So much for Shane keeping his head down...

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    13 Oct 2026

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    Shane Hollander is one of the best search and rescue specialists in North America. He doesn't do private clients. He doesn't do rich adrenaline junkies with camera crews and a death wish. He does, apparently, do forty thousand dollars when his parents need it badly enough. One week on Karanov's summit should be simple. Assess the snowpack, make the call, go home. Then the storm rolls in, the helicopter can't fly, and Shane is stuck in an eleven by nine foot ranger station with Ilya Rozanov — Olympic gold medalist, professional daredevil, and the most infuriating man Shane has ever met.

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    02 Oct 2026

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    After making up a fake boyfriend so his teammates would stop setting him up on dates, Shane is suddenly faced with the task of finding a real one on short notice in order to avoid humiliation.

    Shockingly, his old rival, Ilya Rozanov, is willing to do what it takes to help him. Even if that means pretending to be in love with Shane for a full weekend.

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    01 Oct 2026

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    Pride Night was supposed to be the easy part.

    Then Dallas Kent showed up, Troy Barrett threw the first punch, Ilya Rozanov stopped the fight, and Ottawa won a game nobody felt much like celebrating.

    By morning, Dallas was in custody, Ilya was in hospital, and the internet had decided everyone knew exactly what had happened.

    A week later, injured, furious, and barely holding himself together, Ilya tries to get back to hockey.

    Instead, he gets a camera.

    One soft question.

    One honest answer.

    “My boyfriend.”

    It is the truth.

    It is also the one thing he and Shane were supposed to choose together.

    Part 1 of: This Is Ours

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    30 Sep 2026

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    With the Montreal Metros suddenly in need of a new head coach, General Manager Shane Hollander turns to the one person who might know as much about winning as he does: his fellow Hall of Famer and ex decade-long situationship, Ilya Rozanov.

    But what starts as a simple job offer soon becomes a life-altering sea change neither could have ever imagined.

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    29 Sep 2026

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    28 Sep 2026

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    Ilya was only a few strides behind Shane when he saw Marlow coming.

    He knew the hit was going to be bad before it happened. Marlow was moving too fast, his shoulder up, and Shane turned just as he reached him. Their skates clipped together.

    Marlow hit him hard.

    Shane went down, his helmet striking the ice as his body twisted beneath him. Marlow lost his balance in the collision and stumbled over Shane's legs. Ilya saw the flash of a skate blade as Marlow fell.

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    Shane's injuries during the Boston/Montreal game are much more life-threatening than in canon. Ilya's quick thinking and bone-deep instincts are the only reason he survives.

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    23 Sep 2026

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    Ilya has two problems.

    The first is that his best friend is freshly single and needs to get laid. The second is that Ilya is having some...weird feelings about it.

    These are completely platonic and heterosexual concerns for his friend, of course.

    (or a college au featuring shane and ilya as best friends, and shane as ilya's bisexual awakening)

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    21 Sep 2026

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    “I’ve been looking at Twitter,” Ilya said, one hand on the wheel and the other playing with the hair at the nape of Shane’s neck. It wasn’t doing much to calm the stiffness in his shoulders. “Is not so bad, most people are more mad at your GM than you. It helps that everything is so mysterious.”

    “Really?” Pava asked, his head appearing from the backseat. “I see people very mad at him.”

    “Not helping, Pava.”

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    Shane Hollander moves to Boston and tries to find his place on a new team. In some ways, it's more difficult than he expected.

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    15 Sep 2026

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    Part 2 more on epilogue

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    14 Sep 2026

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    Shane finds out the hard way who Ilya's emergency contact is.

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    11 Sep 2026

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    Shane has been hiding his designation for his entire NHL career. It's been hard, but its been worth it.

    Then a single moment makes everything come tumbling down.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander is an alpha, and to the rest of the world, so is Ilya Rozanov.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    Four years ago, Shane Hollander suffered a career-ending injury after getting hit by Marlow on the ice. Despite Ilya’s best efforts to reach out, he never hears from Shane again. Nor does anyone as Shane Hollander disappears from the public eye. Complete radio silence.

    That is, until Ilya receives a call from his agent, asking if he is willing to ‘say a couple of nice words on camera about Shane Hollander’. Why? Oh. Because he will be inducted into the MHL Hall of Fame in three weeks. And said Canadian golden boy will likely be there.

    Ilya is totally okay about this, of course.

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    07 Sep 2026

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