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    He thinks the thing that his father hated more than he did Ilya was his inability to control him.

    But even as the colossal fuck-up that his father saw him as—he was brilliant at hockey. The best that his coaches had ever seen. He thinks it is the only semi-reedamable quality that his father sees in him. But even that had not made Grigori Rozanov want to look at him.
     

    (Or, Ilya Rozanov learns how to be loved.)

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    27 Apr 2026

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    “I liked seeing you like that,” Shane says. “All calm. Letting me take care of you.”

    There are a lot of ways to fall in love. This one happens on the floor.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    “You don’t look at me like I am crazy.” Ilya says, voice barely above a breath.

    Shane’s brow furrows. “Because you’re not.”

    “I feel like I am.”

    Shane’s hand comes up to cradle his jaw. Warm palm with gentle pressure on his skin. “You look like someone doing something hard.” Something in Ilya’s chest cracks open again, but softer this time.

    (ie. ilya has a very rough day at therapy and comes home to shane to process it all and feel comfort)

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    20 Apr 2026

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    It’s been weeks now since he’s been back and the Raiders’ first practice is tomorrow. He’s staring down at the barrel of a long, long few months of solitude. The thought shouldn’t be so daunting still, but it is. It is. It’s different now that Shane is his boyfriend, now that he knows what it’s like to spend long, uninterrupted days together and now that he knows what it is to feel the lack of them.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    16 Apr 2026