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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive—NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at a Manhattan 7-Eleven. He's too tired to notice that his new regular customer is clearly Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee.

    When Ilya gives him a $10k scarf and gloves, Shane sells them for rent money. Any normal person would be terrified. Ilya is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing.)

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander always had a strategy. He had a strategy for winning the Cup, a strategy for managing the press, and a strategy for keeping his relationship with his rival-turned-boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov, strictly in the dark. He really was good at managing it all… Right up until the moment a medical impossibility turned into a positive pregnancy test, and the only man Shane ever loved asked him to do the one thing he couldn’t: tell the truth.

    Five years post-breakup, Shane is technically winning. He has the trophies, the privacy, and their brilliant daughter, Airi. And he is perfectly co-parenting with his ex, Ilya Rozanov. The rules are simple: minimal contact, polite text messages about their daughter, and absolutely no acknowledging about their past.

    Until Yuna Hollander decides to intervene. Suddenly, the ocean Shane put between them is gone. Shane’s new strategy is simple: survive seven days with Ilya without falling apart.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.

    Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.

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    A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.

    But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.

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    A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Still, he’s felt like absolute shit for weeks, and the idea of sitting in his hotel room, where he would probably masturbate, cry, and have another night of fitful sleep, did not make him feel any better. Getting to be skin to skin with Ilya Rozanov did. And surely Rozanov wouldn’t be demanding Shane make a nest in his damn bed if he didn’t fully intend on actually kissing him in it and keeping him there until morning, right?

    Maybe that would be enough to pick Shane up out of this drop, keep it from happening again.

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    After not sending the "we didn't kiss" text, Shane's omega hormones go into distress mode. Despite trying to hide his symptoms and play through the misery, when Ilya Rozanov finds out what's going on, the alpha Shane's body wants most is determined to fix it.

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    14 Feb 2026

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