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As a rule, Jake doesn't communicate over Snapchat, because he's an adult (sort of), and can text like a human being. But there's something about Bradley Bradshaw that has him continuing to open the messages when his phone gives him the notification.
Often, that something has him responding to Bradshaw, too.
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26 Aug 2025
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Dean’s your typical half-orphaned, monster-killing 22-year-old until a trenchcoated stranger crashes into his back windshield one September night, claiming he’s an angel that knows him from the future and that he’s on the run.
Frigging fantastic.
(Or, in which Castiel gets stuck in Dean’s timeline preseries and Dean kind of hates it—until he doesn’t.)
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06 Aug 2025
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He holds out his hand. “Jake.”
Bradshaw looks at him like he’s the dumbest man alive, his gaze sharpening with condescension. “You’re my engineer, I know who you are.”
“So sue me for being polite.”
His jaw works, but after an interminable second he steps forward and takes Jake’s hand. “Bradley.”
Jake hangs onto the handshake for an extra second and smirks. “Such an honor to meet you in person. The king of IndyCar, finally gracing us with his presence here in F1. Can’t believe it.”
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- Part 1 of Before They Turn the Lights Out
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05 Aug 2025
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DCBB 2015. The sea; it swallows me. It comes up to my knees and it swallows me. The boys owe Jody a few dozen favours, and so when her niece goes missing near an old fishing village on the coast of Maine, Dean, Sam, and a newly human Castiel agree to take the case on. They settle into an old abandoned lighthouse-keepers' cottage, and slowly the tide comes in. (post-s8)
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29 Jul 2025
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Rooster wakes up on the third April 22nd in a row covered in phantom explosion burns and with the concrete knowledge that this mission is going to go terribly, horribly wrong.
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- 5/5
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26 May 2025
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Seresin men love with reckless abandon. It’s put every man before him in the ground.
Jake refuses to be buried.
He flies like he has nothing left to lose (he doesn’t), a one man army (he is), leaving everyone else in the dust (so they don’t leave him). Admiral Kazansky claps him on the shoulder, says he expects great things from him, and Jake’s smile is feral as the rest of his flight school cohort looks on in disbelief.
Hangman, they all say, like Jake’s entire personality was a long con, and he ranks first in class.
Rooster doesn’t look at all.
(They've got history spanning the better part of a decade and they are absolutely, positively not over it.)
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- Part 1 of Men Like Us
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26 May 2025
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“A wound gives off its own light
surgeons say. If all the lamps in this house were turned out
you could dress this wound
by what shines from it.”
— Anne Carson, from The Beauty of the Husband, a fictional essay in 29 tangoThe one where Mark wakes up and discovers he can see other people’s pain as light.
Or, the Glowing AU.Bookmarked by mattmurdockism
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20 Jun 2023
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Dr. Winchester hears an off hand comment from one of his students and find himself browsing a website dedicated to rating university professors. He's not surprised by his rating -- but is a little miffed to see the department chair has an even better one. Clearly, something needs to be done about this.
University!AU fic in honor of LiteraryOblivion's birthday.
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- Part 1 of Chili Pepper 'Verse
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31 Jan 2023
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Dean is fragile—like the silence that has made home in his throat. Sometimes, in the dead of the night, when it’s just him and his cold, dark and empty room, Dean would reach up and feel his own face—a baseless need to make sure he hasn’t turned into mist or whatever. It’s not that Dean’s lost his voice or anything—he can feel it down in his throat, though it’s rattling in his chest, stuck and unmoving. Every time he tries to speak, the weight of each word presses down on his chest until he feels his ribs ache, like he’s having compressions done on him and his bones are starting to cave under the pressure. There’s something vaguely familiar about this feeling—an urge to make himself as small as he can until he sinks into the walls. Everything around him feels out of place, and a size bigger—the bunker, his room, his own skin—with too many empty spaces like an ill-fitting suit. He could pull a few words out of his throat if he pushes hard enough, but Dean’s so goddamn exhausted.
But, even when he feels like a shadow of who he used to be, Cas is still the one thing that makes him feel more alive than his own burdened beating heart.
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After Michael, Dean stops talking.
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20 Dec 2022
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“People out there, Dean? They’ll chew you up and spit you out. You gotta learn to exist in the hearing world, or you’re never going to get anywhere. Learn to deal with it,” Dad had said, over and over.
Dean knows it's bullshit.
But that doesn’t mean it's easy to do any different, even with his Dad long gone.
Fighting the world and with something to prove, Dean Winchester goes back to college, years after he initially dropped out. After a lot of persuasion from his found family, Dean agrees to have an interpreter assist him with his classes.
Enter Castiel Novak, a gorgeous ASL interpreter who might be even more stubborn than Dean.
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- Part 1 of All Signs Point to Love
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- 14/14
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11 Aug 2022
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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10 Aug 2022
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Cas comes back. It's not exactly the reunion that Dean is expecting.
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Dean stares at him, flummoxed. Cas quite literally poured his heart out to Dean, gave a truly sappy and distressingly romantic speech and everything, then proceeded to give his life so that Dean could live his. And he wants to act like he doesn't want to see Dean, be around him, touch him?
Actually, Dean's ninety-nine percent sure that Cas probably wants to fuck him, and while he has no clue how he feels about that, he's pretty goddamn sure that means Cas doesn't get to act like this and make it authentic.
It feels strangely real, though, as if Cas wants nothing more than to get as far away from him as possible. This is a blatant contradiction. Even someone as weird as Cas doesn't want to get away from the person they have the desire to fuck five ways to Sunday, that they're in love with. That's not how these things work, so Dean isn't buying it.
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- Part 1 of Cursed Metaphors
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21 Jun 2022
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The briefing was simple: ‘Stand guard over the Michael Sword until the battle is ready to commence. Await further instructions.’
Castiel doesn’t mind working security duty; he was briefed shortly after the initial salvation of the Sword from the pit, and again before taking up his position. He knows what to do. However, it’s easy to forget that the green room isn’t real. Time moves differently there, the space ever-changing to make a prison of mountains, cathedrals, salt flats, orchards, and whatever Castiel was led to believe about Heaven’s greatest weapon—Dean Winchester is something entirely unexpected.
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20 Jun 2022
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that ending. oh my god oh my. Wow. jesus christ this was beautiful.
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A 14.13 Lebanon rewrite. When Dean uses a wish-granting pearl to try and kill the archangel Michael before he can escape the cage in Dean's head, they instead wind up with a newly-resurrected John Winchester.
It's been more than a decade since John died, and a lot has changed: Mary is alive, Sam and Dean have what passes for a proper home in the Men of Letters Bunker, and they're living with angels. John doesn't know angels are real, he doesn't know about the fragile new relationship between Dean and Castiel, and most of all, he doesn't know that Dean said yes to Michael, or that Dean's plan to defeat Michael would send him to a fate worse than death.
Now Dean must contend with both his father asking questions he can't answer, and his loved ones learning about the darker truths of his childhood, all while constantly battling the archangel trapped inside him. But Dean coming to terms with his history may be the difference between this being the beginning of a journey—or the end.
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- Part 2 of a triptych of dean/cas
- Part 3 of the greatest works, liz edition
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03 May 2022
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“How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses.
The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard.
The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver.
“I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.”
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Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.
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01 Apr 2022
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Cas is twenty-seven, depressed, and at the end of his rope. After many years of contemplating suicide, he decides it’s finally time to pull the literal trigger. But Cas is scared. He knows he needs encouragement, peer pressure to push himself off the edge of the cliff, so he finds a partner online.
Dean Winchester is a guy that Cas only knows in passing. He’s charming, bold, and absolutely the last person Cas expected for a suicide partner. But he’ll do.
A story about Dean and Cas falling in love with each other, and with life itself.
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20 Mar 2022
Bookmarker's Notes
insane. i don't think a fic has ever made me feel this way before. painfully beautiful and heartbreaking and wonderful and— incredible. truly.
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whatbaby
[checks post history] uh… is this the m30s friend that everyone thought was your boyfriend?LiketheGun79
Yes but that's not relevantDean's on Reddit.
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31 Jan 2022