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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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06 Feb 2026
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Wymack’s voice trails off, words stuttering to an abrupt stop. All heads turn, slowly following the path of Wymack’s gaze.
Andrew spots him almost immediately - hair as black as night, curls gentle and full atop his head. He’s got a bruise the size of a baseball around his eye, freckles spattered out around it like an explosion of stardust. His eyes are the colour of the sky, cresting with storm clouds.
His hands are in his pockets as he walks by, fisted around something. He doesn’t look at any of them as he passes, eyes downcast.
Andrew’s never seen him before.
“What the hell happened to your face, Neil?” Wymack shouts, voice startling in the aftermath of silence. Neil doesn’t stop, plundering by the team and their coach without a second-glance.
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In which Wymack adopts Neil at the age of 13, after the world has already chewed him up and spit him back out a few times over.
The Foxes are still the Foxes, and Neil and Andrew are still destined to find each other.
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17 Dec 2025
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When Tilda sells their house in San Jose and drags twelve-year-old Aaron across the country in a secondhand RV, Florida is supposed to mean beaches. Instead, he gets a landlocked trailer park outside Tallahassee, a starving summer, and a hidden garden behind an “abandoned” mobile home that is not abandoned at all.
This is a slow-burning coming-of-age story about hunger, bad parents, gardens, and the very weird, very stubborn friendship that forms between Aaron and Neil long before Andrew ever walks into their lives.
Or: my self-indulgent fic to answer “what if Aaron met Neil first” because everyone writes it the other way around, and I think they are meant to be friends.
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15 Dec 2025
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"Neil doesn't talk about his mom and doesn't think about what she'd do to him if she saw him now. He has a family, he has Exy, and he has Andrew. He has more than enough, more than he ever could have dreamed of.
Neil doesn't talk about his mom until a warm fall day outside the locker room, waiting for the start of their game with his team and family. It's a place that she doesn't belong, where not even a memory of her belongs, but she wriggles her way in and takes root in his chest."
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Neil reveals, piece by piece, what life with his mom was like.
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18 Nov 2025
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Andrew and the Idiotic, Thirsty, Ill-advised, Very Off-Limits Crush on his College Roommate's Younger Brother.
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18 Nov 2025
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men, abort mission (that is the silver lining in my cloudy disposition) by quensty
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
03 Jul 2016
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The recorded number of times someone hit on Neil Josten and got nowhere, and the one time Andrew didn't even have to try.
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12 Nov 2025
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Jean asks for a favor. Neil finds himself at the center of a territorial squabble. It's him. He's the territory.
“But why me?”
“You are my only good option. Aaron is straight. Andrew is rabid. Allison and Seth are on and off so often it’s impossible to keep track. Dan and Matt are a couple and getting them both to agree to pretend to date me would be harder. Renee doesn’t like men. Katelyn is lovely but Aaron would be angry. I don’t know which of the others started or stopped dating over the summer. That leaves you."
“What about Kevin?”
Jean scoffs. “You cannot be serious.”
“He’s…” What is Kevin? Not any better at telling Riko ‘no’ than Jean is, and, subsequently, probably not great at lying to him. Also, is it really believable that Kevin would jeopardize the team and their athletic careers by shitting where he eats? Probably not. Kevin’s amended hierarchy of needs just has the word EXY at the base. Somewhere far above that are pedestrian concerns like ‘food’ and ‘water’ and ‘shelter.’
“Taller,” Neil finishes lamely. “He’s taller.”
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12 Nov 2025
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How would things be different if Nathaniel and his mother had been in Seattle early enough to put him in California the same time as Andrew? What if their paths had crossed back then? What if Andrew's first promise wasn't to Aaron but to Nathaniel?
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13 Nov 2025
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Black As Is The Raven, He’ll Get A Partner by nekojita
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
23 Dec 2018
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When Wymack, Kevin and Andrew came to recruit Neil Josten in Millport, Neil decided to say 'no' instead of 'yes' to joining the Foxes and does what he does best, which is run. Unfortunately, that brings him to the attention of the Moriyamas, who return him to his 'rightful' place.
Now Neil has to learn how to survive at the Nest with his only ally another 'asset' long kept under Riko's heel.
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09 Sep 2025
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Revamped my 2019 fic Dust to Dust. This time it has actual character arcs and plot consistency. 2019 Dust to Dust has been discontinued.
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“Fuck you,” I snarl, ash tickling my cheeks as it gathers and falls from my eyelashes and hair.
Jeff grins, the right side of his mouth a little lopsided from all the scarring. “Is that an invitation?”
Ah, he’s baiting me. And I fall for it. Like always.
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24 Feb 2023