15 Bookmarks by mysappyself
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Dean is addicted to Castiel's Grace. Cas is content to give him as much as he wants, and more. Both get more than they bargain for when their uneasy courtship spirals out of control.
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- Part 1 of Graceless
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19 Dec 2025
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Cas loves Dean.
He had told him in his last breaths and never got an answer as to the feeling being mutual. But then Jack brings him back from the Empty and he realizes he doesn't need one. All he needs is Dean. To be by his side as whatever Dean will let him be.Dean loves Cas.
But he tells him he doesn't. He tells him they’re friends. He tells him he can't. He tells him all the things instead of the sheer truth. Until he learns to show him.[Or: How Dean tries his best to shut his inner demons off, so he can be with his best friend and give in to the years-long cravings, he always tried to shove down. And how Cas stays patient, with the promise to love him relentlessly.
Also, hunting is evolved, and everyone gets the ending they deserve!
This story is an absolute devastating rollercoaster, so get comfortable, fasten your seatbelts and get ready to be emotionally thrown around.](this is now finished)
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14 Dec 2025
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“Take me,” Dean says. He doesn’t have to think about it. “Take me as your vessel, Cas.”
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or: Cas is cursed into an endless sleep. Dean offers himself up as his vessel while they try to break it.
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06 Dec 2025
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So, the first thing that happens is Castiel comes back.
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"Right," Dean says eventually, gruffly. He looks down at his shoes. "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life, man. It's—you know, yours. Do your thing, love who you love, whatever. I can't really stop you from loving me, if that's what you've decided to do, but I don't—I can't—"
"I know," Castiel murmurs, still just smiling a little, not looking heartbroken at all. "Don't worry about it, Dean, that's all I ask."
"So we're—" Dean risks a glance up, swallowing thickly. "We're good?"
Castiel hums. "We're good."
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28 Nov 2025
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Hiatus fic set after the S11 finale. Dean's alive, Sam's alive, they're going to get Cas from wherever he got zapped to, and everything's finally gonna be all right. Dean's on top of the world.
A little voice in the back of his head is whispering "It's never that easy," but Dean ignores it.
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28 Nov 2025
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All Dean wants is a little privacy. Cas doesn't understand.
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27 Nov 2025
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Cas asks Dean to marry him, and Dean can't think of a reason to say no.
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"Dean," Cas says calmly, gingerly sitting his fork down, and oh, this is gonna be a thing, Dean can tell. Sure enough, it is because Cas goes on to say, "What would you think if I suggested we get married?"
Dean blinks and swallows the food in his mouth, staring at Cas curiously. "I would think...you were either on drugs or going insane, why?"
"I'm not inebriated, nor mentally unstable."
"I—I…" Dean takes in a deep breath, then blows it out heavily. "Cas, you're not fucking with me, are you?"
"I'm not," Cas tells him.
"Okay," he says, "fuck it, let's get hitched."
"Thank you," Cas murmurs sincerely, then picks his fork back up and goes right back to eating.
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27 Nov 2025
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"... you wanna what, now?" Dean asks, because he definitely didn't hear that right.
Castiel tilts his head, a leftover tick from his angel days that Dean would be lying if he claimed to find anything but idiotically endearing. He knows this is his own fault, owing to that rather memorable moment a week ago when Cas wandered into this very same kitchen with a (fairly) legitimate question and Dean just didn't know when to shut up.
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25 Nov 2025
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They're doing that thing again, where Cas is staring at Dean with the intensity of a dog trying to remind his owner that it's past dinner time. Dean's staring right back like the first one to blink is buying the next round. Sam's aware there's a conversation going on that he isn't privy to — and he's used to it, by this point — but it's still rude.
"So, as I was saying," Sam tries to interrupt the resounding silence, "if we can just figure out a — "
"Sure," Dean says, and Sam stutters to a halt, because sure what? "I mean, yeah. Yes. Dude, you don't even have to ask."
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24 Nov 2025
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After their disastrous trip to the brothel, Dean takes a more direct approach to getting Cas de-virginized ... and gets a lot more than he bargained for. With the world on the fast track to Armageddon, can Dean finally find the courage to reveal the secret he's kept for almost twenty years?
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20 Nov 2025
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It's been weeks since Dean became a demon and Sam and Cas have finally found a cure. Cas, with his rapidly depleting Grace, and Sam follow the trail of blood Dean has been leaving in his wake with the goal of bringing him home and returning him to his former state. The process won’t be easy and Cas has to ask himself one very important question, is he capable of killing the man he loves if he can't cure him in order the protect the world from his ever growing destruction? Dean isn’t going to go down easy though and both men might end up learning more about themselves before the week is through. Will Cas be able to save Dean, or will he end up burning the world down just to keep him?
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How much would you be willing to change for the one you loved?
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20 Nov 2025
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Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.
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"You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"
Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.
Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.
"What?" Dean grits out.
"I love you, too."
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04 Nov 2025
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In which Amara doesn't bring back Mary, she brings back John Winchester.
Dean is uncertain what Amara's meaning is when she brings John back, and struggles with coming to terms with the new family dynamic. Sam tries harder to keep the peace than he used to, and Cas does not get along with John at all- though he tries. Testosterone is at an all-time high as these four men struggle to coexist in the hunting world with very different ideologies.
We explore just how much the brothers have changed in the ten years without their father's guidance, the trauma they still haven't resolved, and the feelings that Dean and Cas hold for one another despite the very real and new barrier that is John.
This story begins 12x01 and ends around 13x06
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04 Nov 2025
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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18 Oct 2025
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Five Dimensions, or Dean's Crusade: A Dance with Self Discovery by anyrei, queerwolf79 for PawneePorpoise, , Patricia1974
Fandoms: Supernatural
20 Jun 2017
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What if you were able to see your life as it progressed in an alternate timeline? Would you find yourself grateful for what you have? Or would you be side swiped by the realization that you might not have it as good?
Dean Winchester couldn’t care about either possibility. None of that mattered as long as it helped him bring back his best friend. And that’s exactly the chance he’s going to get, with the help of a certain nephilim.
[If you read this anywhere but Ao3, you've been duped! Had! Swindled! This beast is free on Ao3]
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- Part 1 of Five Dimensions Series
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17 Oct 2025