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  1. Public Bookmark 24

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    No matter how much he loved his husband, Shane had always wanted to be a star hockey player first and foremost, not a 'gay hockey player' defined first by his sexuality.

    He had also made peace with what their marriage meant, and the challenges they faced in hockey because of it; he had found happiness in the bubble they had in Ottawa with the Centaurs.

    That safe bubble burst one day with an unexpected call from Hockey Canada, and by the time it was all said and done, there was going to be a picture of Shane beside ‘gay icon’ in the urban dictionary.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    beautiful beautiful beautiful

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    There hadn’t been a whole lot of tape, back then, not on a bunch of kids who were likely to get chewed up and spit out by the KHL, but Rozanov was a special case – his agent had clearly known his aim was for North American leagues, and there’d been a few tapes leaked here and there of the fourteen, fifteen, sixteen year old phenom who had more trick plays up his sleeve than Yuna, personally, thought was true hockey. The video of his spin on the Michigan had made the rounds in David’s McGill email chain, and Yuna had tipped her chin up and sworn up and down he’d be a one-trick pony who’d be flat on his ass the first time he tried that shit in the pros.

    Shane had downloaded the video to his desktop and studied the tape like he did old games of Scott Hunter.

     

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    Yuna Hollander works through years of memories in attempt to discover when she should have known her son didn't trust her with all of himself.

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    21 Jan 2026

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    “What is grailed dot com?” Shane reads out loud from the computer screen.

    “How have you spent almost fifty grand on it in the last year?”

    Ilya doesn’t reply.

    “Is it a-” it’s like Ilya can hear the gears turning in Shane’s head, “Is it a porn website?”

    Ilya laughs lightly, endeared by Shane's choice of words, “As if you would know.”

    “Fuck you, I’ve watched porn.”

    Ilya turns to face him, a look of pleased incredulity painted on his features. He watches as Shane processes what he just said and then shakes his head as if to rid himself of the trance. Shane both hates and loves these moments when Ilya gets him to say ludicrous things in his own defense. As if he even needs to defend himself.

    Shane and Ilya talk about personal finance, porn and they are in love.

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    21 Jan 2026

  4. Rec 76

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    Shane pulled the film strips out of the dryer with quick, deft fingers, and glanced down at the cells as he brought them to the light box on the far end of the room. As Shane slid it gently into a clip, he felt his eyes widen as he caught a glimpse of what was featured on the strip.
    “Holy shit.”
    He stared down at a full frontal nude.
    Against his own moral superiority for being above the nosiness of his coworkers, he bent down to inspect closer. He was only human. Shane’s mouth prickled, and he switched off the light box with a panicked huff. He hadn’t seen this man before in his life, he knew that much.
    Someone who looked like that, he would remember.

    . . .

    Shane works in a film shop. Ilya picked up a new hobby.

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    21 Jan 2026

  5. Rec 28

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    Or, Love in the Time of Low Blood Counts.

    Satomi is diagnosed with cancer at 26. Together, he and Kyouji face sickness, loss, and life in death’s shadow.

    This is a love story.

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    20 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    absolutely crying