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Seen. That small, clinical word beneath his text feels heavier than it should. Rozanov has read his message, has processed that information, so by this time he must have made a conscious decision to not reply to Shane. He doesn’t know why this is bothering him so much. He has no right to be upset, he is not entitled to Rozanov’s time nor constant attention. They are not… together, he isn’t even sure if they count as close—as friends.
And yet, he keeps staring at his phone, feeling the familiar and prickling discomfort under his skin. Why isn’t Rozanov replying?
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He hasn’t prepared for any of this—for the tenderness that follows the storm, only for the storm to sweep away everything again. He doesn’t know how to deal with Rozanov’s confusing words and contradicting actions, with both fire and ice, both closeness and distance, all at the same time.
Every time Shane feels like he manages to understand Rozanov a little, the pattern shifts, and he is once again left with splintered pieces that don’t make sense.
Or: All the messages Shane sent to Ilya during the six long months between Sochi and Vegas, and the ones he did not send.
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- Part 2 of Woe like velvet, tears like jewels
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Rozanov frowns. The air around them stills for a few seconds, and embarrassment starts to creep in as Shane thinks he has made a mistake—
But then Rozanov reaches out for him, and the world splits open.
Fire ignites in his palm, flaring through every nerve in his hand, cutting through skin and sinew and bones. His chest is so full it might burst, and his lungs forget how to work. The heat shoots up his arm like lightning, down his spine and across his ribs, continuing down, down, down. He feels it—feels his seed erupt into something sharp and blinding, roots threading under his skin and stem unfurling onto his flesh.
Shane immediately jerks back his hand, as if he was electrocuted. Air crashes into him all at once, as the burning fades into a tingling throb. He stands there stunned, his mind in tatters and unable to comprehend all the sensations happening to him.
His right ankle, his soulmark... And it just reacts to Ilya Rozanov.
Or: In a world where soulmarks are living seeds that grow with touch, Shane's flowers bloom when he is with Ilya. Yet, he cannot find the traces of any mark on Ilya's body.
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The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.
So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?
Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.
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Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.
And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.
Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.
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- Part 1 of Woe like velvet, tears like jewels
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Hayden:
Sooooo who do you think came up with Jane and Lily?
I bet it’s ShaneCliff:
oh roz for sureSvetlana:
I also think it’s Ilya!Cliff:
SEE??? sveta agrees with meHayden:
No way dudeCliff:
ok lets make a real bet
loser gotta buy 10 rounds of drinksHayden:
Deal---
Cliff:
do u think they still save each other as jane n lily?
fuck i wish roz is still here so i can lookHayden:
Oh I see Shane’s screen all the time
He doesn’t even bother to lock his phoneCliff:
well then go look at itOr: Cliff, Hayden and Svetlana make a group chat to gossip about Montreal Jane and Boston Lily. Naturally, Ilya finds out.
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Your name is CLIFF MARLEAU.
You play hockey for the BOSTON RAIDERS, and your Captain is ILYA ROZANOV. Well, your former Captain was Ilya Rozanov, ‘cause that fucker just announced that he will fucking move to OTTAWA right fucking next season.
You are very confused, and frankly a little bit hurt (a lot, actually). You need to figure out exactly why, as this could be a ground-shattering, season-changing SECRET KNOWLEDGE that only you can uncover. What could possibly push Roz to move to Canada? What comes to your mind when you think of Canada?
Wait… Fuck, he is always texting that mysterious MONTREAL GIRL, right?
Holy shit! Is he leaving Boston for a girl?!
Or: A ‘Choose Your Own Adventure’ game, featuring Cliff Marleau trying to be a detective and possibly even a relationship consultant to Ilya, with different choices and endings.
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A collection of missing scenes and unspoken thoughts, as Shane and Ilya stumble through denial, acceptance, heartbreak, loss, and love.
Mostly canon-compliant and set in show-verse, with some "What If" scenarios.
Some current WIPs I plan for this series (for now):
- What if Shane rejected Ilya in Vegas?
- The aftermath of Shane's night with Rose.
- Their getting-back-together moment in Tampa.
- How Ilya deals with making Shane upset, over and over again.
- Ilya’s conversations with Scott and Cliff before the cottage, or maybe after, I'm mulling over the idea.
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Shane and Ilya's love, as seen through the eyes of the people who love them.
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You've got mail by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Apr 2026
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While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.
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Bookmarked by rubygoby
02 Apr 2026
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missing scenes from TLG 📖 by blankjournals
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
06 Feb 2026
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Scenes from TLG I felt deserved to be explored more. Fics can be read seperate from each other.
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Bookmarked by rubygoby
14 Mar 2026
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unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though
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Bookmarked by rubygoby
14 Mar 2026
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Tadpoles Come In Groups (Baldur's Gate Fics) by PurpleCatGhost
Fandom Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
22 Mar 2024
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Putting all the BG3 fics I write here! They’re not connected to each other unless stated otherwise!
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Bookmarked by rubygoby
12 Mar 2026
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While attending a high society party with his father, Wyll is determined to unravel the puzzle of a mysterious elf.
Bookmarked by rubygoby
23 Feb 2026