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    22 Feb 2026

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    “My mom said, uh, that his name was Buck. That he was going to go to the fire academy and that he had a—” she broke off, rubbing her own forehead, exactly where his skin went pink. “She said he went by Firehose.”

    Buck didn’t need all of his coworkers to look at him in alarm; he was pretty sure he’d gone deadly pale. His daughter knew four things about him, and one of them was his old tinder profile handle. He felt a little like he was going to die.

    “She’s got your eyes,” Eddie commented, unhelpfully.

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    Buck finds out he has a daughter, and also a stupidly big crush on his best friend. It's an adjustment.

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    05 Oct 2025

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    i sobbed through the entire last chapter

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    Chimney: So I noticed the couch looked remarkably not slept on

    Buck: How can you tell if a couch has been slept on??

    Ravi: I think it was more the fact that it’s obvious two people have been sleeping in that bed

    but he didn’t want to admit to snooping

    Chimney: I plead the fifth

    Hen: That’s not how that works.

    Buck: Why were you in our bedroom????

    Chimney: I-

    Do I even need to say it?

     

    Buck has left the chat.

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    05 Jun 2025

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    10/10 will read again

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    “I’m showing people Buck!” Eddie explains excitedly, turning his phone screen towards Chimney to show him a picture of Buck smiling at the camera. But after a moment, the joyful expression fades from Eddie’s face, replaced by something more somber.

    “I miss him,” he says, his eyes downcast.

    “Shit, is he dead?” the stranger slurs. “I’m sorry, man.”

    “He is not dead,” Chimney hurries to clarify. “They’re just codependent. Don’t worry about it.”

    Or: Buck and Eddie are engaged and have separate bachelor parties. Unfortunately, all either of them can think about is the other's absence.

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    02 Jun 2025

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    Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
    An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.

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    or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.

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    27 Apr 2025

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    beautiful 10/10 no notes

    if my memory got wiped i would come read this again for the first time