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ive finally caught up to you (finally caught up in you) by pbandjeremiah
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Mar 2022
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"So why not tell him, then?"
He doesn’t want to hear the words he’ll know will come, the same words he said to Taylor, when she noticed that his entire life was meaningful relationships: it’s not the same.
He smiles at May, knowing that it’s nothing but a sad smile. Some days it feels like there’s no joy in any part of him except the pieces he siphons from Eddie and Christopher whenever he’s allowed into their orbit. “Because it’ll hurt.”---
or, evan buckley is bobby's son, may and harry's big brother, hen's little brother, and the dad to two incredible kids (eventually)
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Eddie roves his eyes over Buck's form. The paleness of his skin, the starkness of his veins under. The way Buck's clothes are starting to hang a little loose on him, the way he never changes where anyone can see him anymore.
Buck just sighs and looks away, breathing measured. It makes Eddie all the more certain that he’s doing the right thing; if Buck really was okay, he would have had the energy to fight back.
It breaks something in Eddie. Almost as quickly as it rose, his anger burns away, leaving behind only pain and fear. He can't lose Buck. He can't.
Buck would do anything to protect Eddie. Even if it means keeping the truth hidden — right to an early grave.
Bookmarked by sohelpmegod
06 Nov 2025
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Such a creative and heartfelt take on the trope
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Eddie falls in love with Evan when he’s nineteen. He falls in love with Buck when he’s twenty-seven.
And he loves him all the years in between.
(or the one where Eddie and Buck meet when they work together on Eddie’s uncle’s ranch, and again when Eddie walks into the 118 eight years later.)
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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.
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20 Oct 2025
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Insane insane insane. Beautiful fic
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am i comfortable in silence, or is it eating me alive? by buckasagirl
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
09 Oct 2025
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“I don’t really care about my birthday, honestly. It’s not a big deal.”
Suddenly, the man is back in front of him, setting a plate in front of Buck.
“Alright,” The man says mostly to himself, reaching forward with a hot pink bedazzled lighter, clicking it on to light what is in front of Buck: an old fashioned donut from the coffee shop with a tea light balanced in the middle he recognizes from a restaurant nearby. He lights the candle, cupping a hand around it to protect it from the breeze, and hands the lighter back to a young girl walking past, thanking her.
“What is happening?” Buck asks quietly, staring at the man in front of him. He doesn’t answer, just starts very softly singing.
“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear…”
“Buck,” He smiles.
“...dear Buck, happy birthday to you,” He moves his hand away from the flame and pushes the plate closer to Buck. He sits in disbelief for a short moment, but leans forward and blows out the candle. The man smiles wide and Buck can’t help but laugh.
Or, pain and loneliness manifests in ways probationary firefighter Buckley doesn't quite understand. When he needs a friend, the world brings him Eddie.
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Join Bareback Rider Rodeo Cowboy Eddie as he falls in love with city boy Buck.
When Buck moves into a ranch in Cody, Wyoming, to help his pregnant sister Maddie, he meets the openly gay catholic cowboy Eddie Diaz and immediately makes his way into his life. Follow Eddie’s story as he surrounds himself with the noise he’s been longing for his entire life. Eddie goes on to discover how to be his true self. Allowing himself to just want something with no guilty aftertaste for the first time in his life, Evan Buckley.Or where Maddie has been living with Eddie during her pregnancy in his 40 acre ranch. Eddie is a bareback rider and Buck is a born and raised New Yorker obsessed with matcha and- well now Eddie Diaz. What can go wrong?
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16 Oct 2025
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Transcendent, gorg, incredible. Love a cowboy accurate gay catholic love story
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"So," Pepa says without missing a beat, her crow's feet sinking their talons into the delicate skin around her eyes as she smiles beatifically at him. "You love him. What are you going to do about it?"
Eddie's brakes come to a screeching halt again, proverbial smoke coming out of his ears. "I…hadn't got that far."
Right. "I mean, uh, tell him…eventually?" Eddie guesses when Pepa doesn't respond to him and instead stares at him like he's just started speaking Pig Latin.
"Ay," Pepa says in an exasperated little huff. "We used to have romance."
Pepa teaches Eddie how to woo Buck. Buck doesn't quite get the picture.
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“Thanks, baby,” Eddie murmured, sipping quietly at the cup of coffee Buck had just passed to him.
And – Eddie was probably exhausted. Chris had gotten sick and he was up half the night taking care of him. So, Eddie was exhausted and mixing things up.
That didn’t stop Buck’s cheeks from burning red or from Hen to look up at the two of them with a gleeful look.
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He grasps at consciousness as he listens to Eddie moving around, the bed dipping close to him. Everything smells familiar here, like them, him and Eddie, and the bit of him that’s still able to think realizes he hasn’t been afraid of falling asleep. That he hasn’t been thinking about waking up in that other place, that he hasn’t wondered if he’s halfway to the grave, if he’s going to end up in that not quite right dream again.
That he knows where he belongs, and he wants to keep it. He wants it, desperately wants it, more than anything he’s ever wanted, and he has it, he’s not going to destroy it, and it’s a relief, knowing that.
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After getting struck by lightning, Buck’s emotions have been a tidal wave. As always, Eddie’s there to catch him.
Or, Buck and belonging.
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tmasc demi eddie gets his dry spell cured by buck
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Living with the Diaz’s is easy.
There’s a lightness to it, a comforting familiarity in those walls that Buck never manages to find back at the loft. A warmth that feels like a hug fills each room, even on the dampest days L.A. has to offer them. To Buck, it’s the only place that’s ever felt like home.
Except he knows it’s not.
It’s all just temporary — until Eddie is back on his feet again and no longer at the mercy of his pain meds.
Buck intends to embrace it for all its worth when he has it, though. It’s easier that way.
OR Buck temporary moves in with Eddie after the shooting.
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“Look,” Buck says. “It’s not like I-I’m gonna move back in or anything, but you're still in pain. A lot of it, and I know you’re trying to downplay it—don’t look at me like that—so just let me help out with stuff for a couple days.”
Eddie quirks his lip at him. “You wanna rub ointment on my cast rash?"
“Who else would,” Buck says. It was supposed to be a question, lighthearted, but it’s just there. It hangs in the air, a miasma of all of Buck’s fully-realized feelings stinking up the place.
It’s gonna be a long six to eight weeks.
Three months after Buck moves out and two days after Buck realizes he’s in love, Eddie gets badly injured on the job. Buck unofficially moves back in to look after him.
He’s gonna be normal about it.
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Bookmarked by sohelpmegod
19 Sep 2025
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So much yearning so well written
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“C'mere," Buck says, sitting up to scoot closer to Eddie.
"What are you doing?” Eddie asks, and Buck sighs.
"You can just kiss me, get a taste of the lip balm, and tell me what flavour you think it is.”
Eddie can’t believe his ears.
"That is such a stupid way to win a bet, Buck."
“Oh so you concede?"
Eddie rolls his eyes, shaking his head before planting both hands on the sides of Buck's face and hauling him in to press their lips together.
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Buck and Eddie make a bet on whether or not Eddie can guess all of Buck's lip balm flavours, and in order for Eddie to get a taste, they have to kiss.
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The picture on the back is a dark tree line contrasted by the wide blue sky above it. It’s faded, like it has taken one too many trips in the back of a mail truck, tattered and worn.
Eddie flips it over, the back scrawled with quick but somewhat neat handwriting. Scanning the words his eyes drop to the corner—the address.
‘Maddie Kendall, 1500 Hemlock Ave, Hershey, PA 17033’
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An AU where Buck's postcards, which he sent to Maddie, were forwarded to Eddie on deployment by mistake. He becomes attached to the man behind the letters and his stories of his travels. Until, by a twist of fate, they bring him face to face with Buck himself. -
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“Come on, you’re telling me you wouldn’t consider sneaking into a storage closet with me?”
“Obviously, I would!” Eddie was whisper-yelling now, and Buck wasn’t sure exactly what point he was trying to make, but he was enjoying every second of this. “But one of us is going to have to have restraint and it has to be the—the one with the most experience.”
Buck felt his mouth drop open in delight. “Eddie,” he admonished. “Are you calling me a whore?”
“No!” said Eddie, looking increasingly flustered. “I just mean—clearly you have the power to do—” he gestured at Buck, “that, so you have the—the responsibility to, like, use it. Responsibly.”
“Did you just quote Spiderman?”
Eddie propped his elbows on the table and dropped his head into his hands, groaning dramatically. “I’m going to die. The first date, and I’m going to die.”
“Been there, wouldn’t recommend it.”
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Buck and Eddie and the first date.
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Learn Not to Burn It Really Works by CourtepointeClementine for sunlight
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Jul 2025
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"Should we — should we tell Bobby?" Buck keeps his eyes straight ahead as he pushes their grocery cart through the produce section.
"Tell Bobby what?" Eddie asks distractedly as he darts off to grab the particular brand of cheddar that Chris likes, dumping it in the cart.
"About — you know. Our change in status. Or, maybe it goes straight to HR? I think we tell Bobby first, though."
Eddie puts his hand on the cart handle and stops it rolling. "Our change in status," he says slowly.
He reaches over and presses a fingertip to the spot where Buck's neck joins with his shoulder. He's touching Buck's St. Christopher medal necklace chain, Buck realizes, which is kind of a weird thing to do out of the blue, in the middle of the produce section, but then Eddie pulls back and turns away, starts searching through the avocados.
"I don't think we have to report anything to HR," he says in a completely normal and casual tone of voice. "It's not like we got married."
Buck is so happy to have Chris and Eddie back in his life, and so confused about what it all means.
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- Part 2 of Partners in Fire Prevention
Bookmarked by sohelpmegod
30 Jul 2025
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cure constipated and complicated
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No matter the distance, the silence, or the storms in between – what’s meant to find it’s way will always do so. The universe, in its quiet wisdom, knows how to bring hearts home.
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Buck and Eddie can’t stand each other, constantly arguing and getting on the team's nerves. On a call, a botched magical encounter leaves them stuck hearing each other’s thoughts. Forced into unbearable closeness, they unravel secrets, past wounds, and inconvenient desires. What begins as a curse turns into the most intimate connection either has ever known. But falling in love when your enemy knows everything you’re thinking? That’s the real risk.--
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“I’ll do it,” Eddie repeats, looking at Buck in one of those silent conversation ways again, but Buck actually can’t figure out what he’s trying to say this time. It messes with his brain, until Eddie speaks again, “I’ll pretend to only be a little offended none of you have thought to ask me before, but Buck, I’ve fixed a lot of cars. I can look at yours.”
(or, the check engine light comes on in Buck's Jeep, Eddie volunteers to fix it and carpool with him in the meantime, and it all breaks down from there, literally and metaphorically)
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“Are you homophobic?”
“What?”
“Will you be my boyfriend?”
“Yes,” Eddie answered, automatically, even though his mind had volunteered several other pressing questions, like what are you talking about and what is happening and did I recently sustain brain damage.
“Thanks,” said Buckley, and then he pushed Eddie back against the side of the firetruck and kissed him.
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It's the 63rd Annual Los Angeles Fire Muster & Firefighter’s Family Day, and inter-station relations are about to get real friendly between fire houses 6 and 118.
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30 Jun 2025
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SOOOO SOOOO GOOD AND SWEET AND AWESOME
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Eddie unexpectedly runs into his ex, Ana, at a sapphic wedding. A handsome stranger jumps in and pretends to be his boyfriend. Buck is certain love at first sight is real.
Or, what if Buck and Eddie's first meeting was at a wedding.