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Things were finally starting to settle between Buck and Eddie after the lawsuit. More than settle, something had began to really change between the both of them for the better. But the other shoe always has to drop.
A calm evening between Buck and Eddie turns into the worst night of their life when Eddie is arrested for murder.
Buck and Eddie have to figure out what life looks like for them now that Eddie may be gone for the near future. What is Buck without Eddie? And who is Eddie when he trapped in a cage for a crime he's sure he didn't commit?
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“Athena?” Eddie called stopping just behind Buck. “What are you doing here, is Bobby okay?”
“Bobby's fine.” Athena took a deep breath, a wash a pain crossed her face. “Eddie, there's a warrant out for your arrest.”
Buck felt himself freeze, he felt Eddie tense up behind him. Eddie saw it coming, not closely, not exactly, but he had always seen something coming. The other shoe to drop, per se.
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*Title from Unknown/Nth by Hozier*
Merlin, born without a father, with more secrets than he knew what to do with.
Arthur Pendragon, born without a mother, with a secret that could have him killed.When Merlin arrives in Camelot, he is terrified of anyone learning of his magic, but he also has a tendency to run head first into danger. The two traits don't offten get along. After saving the life of a Prince who may not have deserved it, Merlin's life becomes more than the secret he kept close to his chest. It became about destiny, one that he apparently had to achieve with a Prince who was terrified of his future.
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Kneeled in Shaking Thrill (I Chase the Memory of it Still) by spxdyr
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
09 Jun 2025
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It wasn't that Eddie didn't want to see him again, he did. He really, really, did. Eddie hadn't been able to stop thinking about him since that night.
They didn't do anything that night but talk, but Evan "Buck" Buckley—as he later revealed, three beers into the evening—had been a permanent fixture of his dreams ever since.
So, it wasn't a matter of not wanting to see him again. It was more the matter that whatever bravery that allowed him to step through the doors of Inferno those three long weeks ago, had long since scurried out of his chest and hid away in a hole he'd yet to find.
Instead, Eddie buried himself into settling in Los Angeles. In the three weeks since he'd first met Buck, Eddie had finally gotten Chris enrolled in school—it wasn't the school he wanted but it would work until he could decipher the paperwork sitting on his dresser.
He'd finally closed on the house he'd bought for him and his son. A silent promise to Chris that Los Angeles would be home forever.
And the days quickly ticked by, and before he knew it, the pages of the calendar had ripped away to his first day at the Los Angeles Fire Department, Station 118.
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- Part 2 of Common Tongue (A Sub!Eddie Exploration)
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Buck and Tommy had been together for six months and things were good. Well, not good, but they weren't bad. And Buck is trying to keep it, keep them together.
Throwing together the barbecue wasn't how he'd planned to do it, but it seemed to work out that way. Only, every thing leading up to the day in question seemed to pull them further and further apart.
And Buck was beginning to think that maybe Tommy wasn't the person the universe was pulling him toward.
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Title from Hozier 'It Will Come Back.'
Summer of Buddie Week Three: Smut
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During his second week in LA, Eddie visits Inferno, a BDSM club, as apart a challenge from his therapist to quote 'explore his sexuality in a more literal manner.' Eddie expected to go in, keep his head down, and run out after the allotted two hours he was supposed to be there. Instead, he caught the eye of a beautiful stranger and ended up watching a scene between him and a partner. Buck ended up being more than a beautiful stranger with a penchant for rope, however.
Eddie is about to venture further and further into the world of BDSM and explore a part of himself that he'd never thought possible.
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Part One of a larger series!
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Shane pulls back, carefully cradling Ilya’s face. “Maybe we shouldn’t.”
“You don’t want to?” Ilya’s eyes are bottomless; swimming with grief. He says it like he really means, You don’t want me?
“That isn’t what I mean,” Shane says gently, brushing his thumb over Ilya’s cheekbone. Ilya’s eyes flutter shut, as if being treated so tenderly causes him physical pain. Like he isn’t used to it. “You’re hurting. I don’t want you to regret it in the morning.”
Ilya’s eyes open. “I have never regretted a moment with you.”
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Or: the missing hotel room scene in Florida after Shane comforts Ilya.
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24 Dec 2025
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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19 Dec 2025
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Dean is a novice in the dom/sub world asked by his employer as a desperate last resort to be a sub for his recluse of a brother, Castiel. Castiel is a diagnosed OCD suffering from PTSD and agoraphobia, mysophobia, and dystychiphobia. Needless to say—he’s a mess who hasn’t stepped out of his home in literally seven years. The only times Gabriel can see traces of the way his brother used to be is when he feels in control—specifically when he has control over a sub. However, due to his idiosyncrasies and paranoia, keeping a sub around has been impossible. Enter Dean, who’s not a very traditional submissive, to try his hand at subbing for the hermit.
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“Have you considered the possibility that Neil has chosen you, but believes you have not chosen him?” Renee says. "Have you ever explicitly told him what you want?”
“Neil knows what I want,” Andrew snaps. This is not Andrew’s fault.
“How do you know?”
Because Neil always knows. He is as fluent in Andrew’s micro-expressions as he is in German and French. He knows which head tilts mean “go on” and which ones mean “shut up.” Without ever asking, he learned what it meant to see Andrew wearing double layers of long sleeves, or taking multiple showers in a day, and learned to hand Andrew the car keys.
That has always been the most terrifying thing about Neil — his patience to wait, watch, listen, learn. The prospect that if Neil were given enough time, there would be no part of Andrew that was just Andrew’s anymore.
“He has to know,” Andrew says.
“Does he?” Renee says. “Have you ever known Neil to assume that he is wanted?”
Five times Neil tells someone that he and Andrew aren’t dating, and one time Andrew uses his words to set the record straight.
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10 Dec 2025
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In a world where being dominant or submissive is part of your biology, Dean Winchester is a sub in trouble. Resistant to his submissive nature and the role society expects him to play, Dean fights against his body’s instincts until he’s sent to Purgatory—a high-class facility meant to train subs and help them find their perfect match. Skeptical and wary, Dean warms up to the program for one reason, and one reason only: his trainer, Castiel Novak. Castiel is the poster-boy of dominance, a workaholic outside the playroom, and probably the hottest Dom Dean has ever seen.
As their bond becomes more passionate and profound, the boundaries between them blur and feelings begin to surface. But not everyone approves of their powerful connection…in fact, someone might just do anything to stop it in its tracks.
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