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  1. Public Bookmark 45

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    The Dark Urges have grown louder. Stronger. It takes everything she has not to give in and drown the world in blood.

    Astarion’s love keeps her sane.

    But when she finally kills the wrong person there are consequences, and now she may be lost to him forever.

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    10 Jun 2024

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    “Easy, darling.” Astarion worries at your face as you pant for air, swiping aside a trickle of blood dribbling down your chin. “That’s it.”

    You’re crying, you realize, something not even the torture had been able to draw from you. You’ve known your situation long enough, but this is the first moment that you’ve understood at your core.

    What you are now. What you need. What cannot be undone.

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    07 Jun 2024

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    Love

  3. Public Bookmark 44

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    Astarion learns he has more powers than he knew, including the ability to become the most fabulous little bat! ... Now if he could just work out how to change back. Or at least use these damned wings!
    Luckily Silence is there to help, or at least offer scritches until things are sorted out.

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    15 Apr 2024

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    Astarion had a plan. A nice, simple plan: seduce Tav, sleep with her, manipulate her feelings so she'd never turn on him.

    All she had to do was fall for it.
    And all he had to do was not fall for her.

    Which is where his nice, simple plan fell apart.

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    Exploring Astarion's POV throughout the game while romancing Dark Urge/Tav. Canon is followed in most cases, including with lines of dialogue from the game, but Act 2 and 3 break off from canon a few times in fun ways.

    Content warnings are listed ahead of the more intense chapters. Overall this fic (like the game) explores what healing from abuse looks like and has a lot of references to those themes.

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    12 Apr 2024

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I love this fic sm

  5. Public Bookmark 26

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    I’m sorry, she mouthed. I love you.
    And then she turned back to face Bhaal, chin held high, and told him without a trace of regret “I don’t need any of this. The only family I know are those who fight by my side.”
    If Astarion’s heart were beating, it would have stopped. He was frozen, rooted to the spot and unable to look away as Nerissa’s nose began to drip blood. Her body violently shuddered, and she clutched at her stomach as she doubled over, falling to her knees with a dull thud.
    “You reject my blood,” commanded the voice of Bhaal. “And so I will reclaim it.”

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    Astarion's POV during the Dark Urge's duel with Orin, and how he copes with the aftermath. Major spoilers for the Dark Urge.

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    11 Apr 2024