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The View from Halfway Down by supersillynewt
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jul 2026
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It went something like this:
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On January 10th, at approximately 3:29 a.m., a single-vehicle collision occurred on the overpass of Charlesgate over Commonwealth Ave. Witnesses at the scene and surveillance footage indicate a an orange Porsche 718 Cayman traveling northbound on Charlesgate, in the rightmost lane on the Phillip G. Bowker Overpass. Footage shows the vehicle veering suddenly off the overpass at high speeds, colliding with a nearby tree. The driver, male, approximately mid-to-late twenties, was injured and unresponsive when authorities arrived. Airbag w/out seatbelt deployed successfully. Driver was quickly transported to Massachusetts General Hospital for treatment, there identified as Ilya Grigoryevich Rozanov. No other vehicles or pedestrians were involved in the collision.
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15 Jul 2026
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Tell Me You Know (Tell Me It’s Okay) by inkstainzed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jul 2026
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"Okay." Ilya takes a deep breath, letting it out. He lays down, resting his head on a pillow, and lays the phone on his diaphragm after he puts it on speaker. He hums, thinking. "Do you like chai actually? Or your, uh— friend, he decides for you?"
There's a long, long silence after that. Ilya swallows, hoping he hadn't asked the wrong thing. He went on a limb, in a way, because that's what Ilya always does. He assumes things, and butts in where he probably shouldn't and gives boys who look like they're emotionally one foot in the grave notes with his number on it. For some reason.
"No, he doesn’t." Shane says, eventually, and all Ilya's muscles un-tense. "I do really like chai. Caramel chai, mostly, if wherever I go has it."
"This can be arranged." Ilya says, his hands behind his head. "I am very good barista."
Shane snorts, then. Ilya makes it his goal to get him to laugh, and he'd say he's making pretty good progress so far.
Or, Shane is in a severely abusive relationship with his boyfriend, Ash. When they visit a nearby café one day, their server, Ilya, realizes something isn’t quite right between them.
Ilya can’t help but try and do something about it.
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09 Jul 2026
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It feels like a dam has broken inside of him.
All he wants is pizza. A donut. A milkshake.
If he can’t have Ilya - if Ilya doesn’t want him - maybe he can have pizza instead.
It’s a stupid thought. A dangerous thought. But it won’t leave.
Or, Shane doesn’t get injured in the game and Ilya breaks it off between them. Shane’s eating disorder spirals out of control as a result.
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28 Jun 2026
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snow angel (i'll make it through the winter if it kills me) by floydfairy, p3erhapschaotic7
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Jun 2026
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The pain has become too much for Ilya Rozanov to carry. For years, he’s lived with grief that never really healed, loneliness that followed him from Russia to Boston to Ottawa, and the constant exhaustion of pretending he’s okay when he hasn’t been in a very long time. Hockey gave him purpose. Shane Hollander gave him love. But neither could silence the ache left behind by losing his mother or the growing belief that maybe it was time to see her again.
So one morning, after one too many days suffering in silence, Ilya decides he’s done fighting. He leaves behind a letter for Shane, swallows a bottle of pills, and waits for the pain to end. Unfortunately for him, he is loved far too deeply for the universe to let him go that easily.
When the Hollanders find him in time, Ilya is forced into something he never planned for: surviving. And surviving means psychiatric holds, therapy sessions, difficult conversations, and learning how to let people care for him without believing he’s a burden. Most terrifying of all, it means letting Shane see every ugly, broken piece of him he tried so desperately to hide.
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Or: Ilya Rozanov attempts suicide, but the Hollanders love him too much to let him go quietly.
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27 Jun 2026
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the third option by sevdim
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
15 Jul 2026
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A teenage Ilya arrives at development camp already planning to kill himself. Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.
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