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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    16 May 2026

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    Shane was finally starting to get through all the trauma of the last few years when he's hit with something new: Rose's phone is hacked and intimate details of his sex life--and his autism diagnosis--are revealed. Somehow it's worse than the last leak when he was outed, and he ends up in the ER. Things get worse from there. A lot worse.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    01 Apr 2026

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    Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him.

    Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse.

    Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Ilya let himself soften into it. He’d missed this, the simple camaraderie between teammates. He did feel lonely, but in some ways he felt safer with this team, and Shane had given him that, it was because of Shane that he moved to Ottawa. All the good things in his life curved back to Shane. Looking around, he tried to imagine him here, not Shane Hollander the hockey player, but his Shane, the man who made the darkest rooms feel like home. He felt suddenly certain that they would welcome him with love and respect. And, God help him, he was still hoping like an idiot that Shane would walk through the door.

    Ilya tightened his grip on his roasting stick, jaw set, trying to divert his thoughts back to the present, when a ripple went through the group. Conversation dipped, then stopped completely.

    “Um… what the fuck,” Dillon muttered, eyes flicking toward the house. “Is that Shane Hollander?”

    Or Shane decides to go get his man after seeing Ilya’s instagram post in Chap.23 of TLG.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Jar!” Hayes calls out from across the room.

    “What? We didn’t even do anything!” Shane insists, rather indignantly.

    “Oh, please. You can’t look at each other like that and call it nothing. I know that look - I have a wife.”

    “So I can’t look at my husband now?” Ilya whines. “This is workplace bullying!”

     

    (Or, the Centaurs get Ilya and Shane a PDA jar. It doesn’t work.)

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    25 Mar 2026

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    “You didn’t like it the last time we tried it,” Shane said.

    Ilya gave a one-shouldered shrug. “Was years ago. Maybe it is an acquired taste, like licorice.”

    “You also don’t like licorice,” Shane pointed out.

    “Yes, but I keep trying it because Luca likes it so much.”

    “And then you make a face and tell him how awful it is.”

    “When have I ever told you your dick is awful?” Ilya said, looking mildly offended. “I am its number one fan.”

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    24 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are solid.

    Married. Stable. Established. The NHL’s favorite “we didn’t see that coming” love story turned domestic success.

    They have a house. A dog that likes Ilya better. A shared calendar that Shane actually uses.

    They’ve learned how to grocery shop without arguing about brands of pasta.

    They are, objectively, fine.

    Which is precisely the problem.

    Somewhere between sponsorship shoots, playoff runs, and arguing over whose turn it is to unload the dishwasher, the fire that once burned hot enough to survive secrecy and rivalry has… softened. Not gone. Not broken. Just familiar.
    Comfortable. Predictable.

    When a league marketing campaign crowns them “Hockey’s Ultimate Love Story” and assigns a documentary crew to follow them around for the season, Shane jokingly tells Ilya:
    “Guess you’re going to have to fall in love with me again on camera.”

    Ilya smirks. “Please. I could make you fall in love with me again in one week.”

    It’s a joke.

    Until it becomes a challenge.

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    23 Mar 2026

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    “You’ve slept with other couples?” It came out so, so squeaky. Shane immediately cleared his throat.

    “Uh-huh!” Fabian gave him a big smile, which contained just a hint of knowing.

    “H-how was… how was that?” Shane stuttered. Under the table, Ilya squeezed his thigh reassuringly.

    Fabian laughed, a hot little sound low in his throat.
    “Why, are you interested?”

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    22 Mar 2026

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    It’s Ilya's turn to watch Shane in action. He doesn’t care who sees his face, but he’s not the one in front of the camera right now so he lets himself lean into his folded arms against the arena fence, keeping his face warm in the cold Canada winter.

    He’ll never get sick of watching this. The way Shane moves on the back of his horse is poetry in motion. It’s as beautiful as Shane is when he’s underneath him, all the walls and barriers toppled over and nothing but open prairie left.

    The way Shane moves in the arena, it’s no wonder the crowd loves him. He is the shining jewel of rodeo, calm and calculated as if each twitch of his muscle is timed perfectly. While Ilya is brash and loud with his movements, Shane’s are so incandescently controlled. How anyone would want to change that in him, clearly does not understand the magic that comes from that man’s limbs.

     

    Or: when two rodeo stars come together as partners and they must keep their love a secret from the world that would tear them down with its teeth if given the chance

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Shane hates himself for being an omega, hates his body and what it can do. He has tried to keep away from having heats using strong birthcontrol. He's a world famous Hockey player and it hasn't been a problem. Until one day, a game day, he suddenly faints on the ice. The doctor tells him it's the birth control, he should take a break from them. The doctor tells him it can be a lot going through a heat alone after not having one at all. The doctor tells him about this alpha service, where you can order an alpha to help you through it. Shane looks into it, he finds a alpha name Ilya, he's profile speaks to him. Ilya is assigned as his heat-season guardian—purely professional, no feelings, obviously 🙃They meet up at Shane's cottage. Except Ilya is way more attentive than expected. Shane starts realizing that the way Ilya sees him isn’t as fragile or lesser. The tension builds not only around sex—but around trust, vulnerability, and letting someone close to him.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    They’re not dating. They’re barely even friends. Shane should be in bed preparing for tomorrow’s game. But when Ilya shows up in Nashville wearing a stupid cowboy hat and that dangerous smile, things go from routine to risky: meeting up with Rozanov is a terrible idea. Dancing with him in a crowded bar where anyone could see is worse.

    But Shane’s never been good at saying no to Rozanov.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    After a brutal season and a mind that refuses to slow down, Shane Hollander ends up at a secluded wellness retreat to clear his head.

    The last person he expects to find there is Ilya Rozanov.

    His rival.
    His constant competition.
    The man who checked him into the boards two weeks ago.

    Away from the rink, away from cameras and the rivalry the league built around them, something unexpected begins to surface: the realization that the man Shane thought he knew might not be the real Ilya at all.

    And that the tension between them might never have been just rivalry.

    Because rivals aren’t supposed to look at each other like that.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov’s college life was going smoothly until he received those handwritten letters. Letters that were oddly similar to his own handwritings. Letters claiming to be from his future self.

    Ilya could’ve sworn this was some prank that his roommate was playing on him but things got a bit too real when those letters could actually predict what would happen next in his life.

    What’s worse was that this "future Ilya" kept telling the current Ilya to save his husband from a big tragedy. Of course, the husband turned out to be the campus’ heartthrob band member, Shane Hollander, whom Ilya has never interacted with at all.

    Ilya sighed in frustration, “Hollander, listen to me. I know this is hard to believe but trust me, please. These letters from my future self keeps telling me to save you and-”

    “Okay,” Shane nodded.

    Ilya blinked, “What?”

    “I said okay. Whatever it is, I'll trust you.”

    Or Ilya got these sudden letters appearing on his desk every night, claiming to be from his future self and telling him to save a certain person called “Shane Hollander”, who turned out to be Ilya’s future husband.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been an Ottawa Centaur for 5 or 6 years, around the same amount of time Shane Hollander called off their relationship just before Ilya had a chance to meet him at his Cottage. Ilya panics when he learns Shane Hollander is now being traded to Ottawa.

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    Shane breaks up with Ilya, and then gets traded to his team 5/6 years later.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Shane glanced at his fox, Akane. Still between Rozanov’s legs.

    Dark eyes staring back at him. Akane didn’t have dark eyes. She had hazel eyes, brilliant, multifaceted gems that glimmered playfully in even the dimmest light.

    That was Rozanov’s daemon. Of course it was.

    Rozanov’s daemon was identical to Shane’s. The same body shape. The same small white diamond above the nose. The same deeper red blaze along the spine. But he still should’ve been able to tell it wasn’t Akane.

    Who can’t recognize their own daemon?

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    13,961

    21 Mar 2026

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