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For the last eight decades, Jasper’s existence had been defined by three rigid pillars: military discipline, intense emotional repression, and Carlisle’s suffocatingly noble framework of "The Moral Struggle." Each passing decade, Jasper had harbored a faint, foolish hope that existing among mortals might get easier. Instead, the decades seemed to actively compete for which could be the bigger disappointment. The promised peace he had been searching for after his years of war was nowhere in sight.
So, he counted. He kept a precise tally in his notebook of how many dreaded mornings were left until his graduation. His family had outvoted him a few years back on replaying the high school scenario, forcing him into a world of lockers, linoleum, and overwhelming human hormones. Of all the possible roles they could assume in human society, this one was his personal hell. If he believed in gods, he would consider them petty.
It was a Monday morning in January. Customary for Forks, the rain did not fall; it hung in the air like a damp towel someone was actively attempting to smother him with. He missed the dry heat of the South.
Jasper lingered behind the arts building, flicking a silver Zippo open and shut while trying to calculate if another day of skipping class would impact his matriculation. He lit a cigarette—an entirely unnecessary habit, given his lack of functional lungs—imagining with each inhale that the smoke was somehow filtering the overwhelming wave of teenage angst rolling off the parking lot.
Alice had offered to predict whether he’d get caught by the principal if he cut, but he had told her not to spoil the surprise. He preferred the gamble.
Then, a sudden spike of sharp, resolute defiance entered his emotional radius, cutting cleanly through the background noise of hormonal panic, math anxiety, and teenage existential dread.
He looked up.
Next to an ancient pickup truck painted a ridiculous shade of faded orange stood a girl, holding a bright yellow umbrella that made her look like an overgrown dandelion.
As if aware of his botanical inner monologue, her eyes locked onto his. She took one look at the half-finished cigarette, then at his marble-pale face, and raised a single eyebrow.
"You know smoking kills, don’t you?" Her voice was light, calm, and utterly devoid of the awe, nervousness, or predatory fascination most humans experienced when interacting with a Cullen.
"I’m willing to take the risk," he replied, dryly. He took a drag, letting the ash fall on its own. "Dandelions don't usually pop up in a January drizzle. Are you lost, or just a particularly stubborn perennial?"
Bella sighed, a deeply authentic what-can-you-do reaction that hit his emotional radar with refreshing, unpretentious clarity. "I need to get to the administration office to complete my class enrollment."
"It's the building over there," Jasper said, gesturing toward an offensively nondescript brick structure on the far side of the lot.
"Thanks," she replied, and set off into the drizzle without another word.
The first class where their paths crossed again that day was AP Literature.
Bella sat in the middle row, her parka draped over the back of her chair. Next to her, slouched so low in his desk it looked painful, was Jasper. He looked less like a high school senior and more like a minimum-wage retail worker forced into mandatory anti-union training. His entire body language screamed leave me alone, harboring a desperate hope that if he stayed still enough, the teacher would mistake him for a coat rack.
Then, Edward entered the room.
Bella watched the collective awe wash over the front rows of girls. If you were a teenager raised on a steady diet of Brontë novels and BBC period dramas, Edward Cullen was the living, breathing embodiment of your dreams.
He wore a muted wool coat instead of the garish Gore-Tex everyone else in Forks utilized to survive the Pacific Northwest, paired with a crisp button-down shirt and tailored trousers. No jeans. Probably never jeans. His bronze hair was cut in a precise, classical style that should have looked neat, but Bella had already caught onto his highly practiced gesture of running his fingers through his locks, resulting in a perfectly calculated art-school bedhead.
As the teacher, Mr. Varner, began shuffling papers, Edward slid into the desk directly in front of Bella. A classmate turned around to ask him a mundane question about the reading assignment. Edward didn't just answer; he leaned forward, closing his eyes briefly before opening them to frown in deep, soul-shattering concentration, listening as if the boy were reciting a deathbed confession rather than asking for a page number.
He really does look like the textbook definition of a tragic romantic hero, Bella thought, a wave of amusement washing over her.. Emotionally, she felt a profound sense of detachment—the same feeling she got when looking at a very expensive, deeply dramatic oil painting in a museum that she had absolutely no desire to take home and put in her living room. It was simply too much theatre for a Monday just before lunch.
Right on cue, Jasper’s Zippo lighter clacked inside his pocket. He wasn't lighting anything yet—school rules—but the rhythmic, metallic clack-clack was his version of a nervous tic.
Bella peeked over. Jasper hadn’t shifted an inch, but the corner of his mouth twitched upward by a single millimeter.
Mr. Varner tapped his podium. "Let's begin with the Romantic poets. How do we interpret the tragedy of the Byronic hero?"
Edward didn't raise his hand so much as elevate it with grace, holding a heavy tortoiseshell fountain pen like a scepter.
"It is the burden of profound perception," Edward started, his voice rich, velvety, and entirely too loud for the acoustics of a public school basement. He stared out the rain-streaked window, his brow furrowing into that signature expression of deep, intellectual agony. "The Byronic hero isolates himself because society cannot bear the weight of his truth. He broods not out of vanity, but because he is a creature trapped in a lesser era, mourning a purity the world has discarded. His soul is a storm, and the storm must feed on itself."
A girl in the front row actually whimpered.
Bella felt a sudden, violent spike of pure annoyance. She could bet real money that Edward saw himself in that exact description—tragically misunderstood, inherently superior, and terribly alone.
Before she could stop herself, she leaned across the aisle toward Jasper's desk. "Is he for real? I hope this guy is in the school theater department."
Jasper let out a sound. It wasn't a laugh—vampires didn't chuckle naturally in public—but it was a sharp, suppressed hiss of air that came remarkably close to one.
"That is my younger brother, Edward," Jasper whispered back, and Bella registered his Southern drawl. "He is very special."
Bella bit the inside of her cheek as she fought down a hysterical laugh. "And you, non-brooding Cullen? What’s your thing?"
"It’s actually Hale," Jasper corrected quietly, a genuine glint of amusement in his eyes. "And my specialty is lacking gravitas."
A wave of pure, unfiltered joy radiated from the dandelion girl, her emotional field hitting Jasper like a breath of fresh mountain air amidst the murky swamp of the classroom.
"Mr. Hale?" Mr. Varner’s voice suddenly shattered their private corner of the room. The teacher was looking past Edward’s poetic grandeur, searching for signs of life in the back row. "You’ve been remarkably quiet. What are your thoughts on Byron’s view of the passionate, untamed human spirit?"
Jasper slowly closed his notebook. He looked at the teacher, his face instantly returning to that perfectly smooth, blank mask. His eyes were deadpan, devoid of a single ounce of Romantic fervor.
"I think," Jasper said, speaking as slowly and thickly as warm molasses, "that leisure has always improved philosophical output. It's easier to admire the untamed human spirit when your estate feeds you."
Edward stiffened in his front-row seat, his fountain pen freezing mid-stroke. The entire class went dead silent.
Bella didn't even try to hide it this time. She ducked her head behind her open textbook, burying her face in her hands, her chest heaving with silent, ecstatic laughter. The contrast between the two brothers was the most absurd, brilliant thing she had ever witnessed. She was incredibly glad she had registered for AP Literature.
___
Bella hadn’t even managed to zip her backpack before she was effectively ambushed outside the AP Literature doorway.
"Hi! You're Isabella, right? The Chief’s daughter? I’m Jessica!"
The girl hovered in her immediate personal space, radiating a level of bouncy, unbridled energy that felt completely out of sync with the gloomy Monday morning. Before Bella could process whether she should wave or duck, Jessica had looped her arm tightly through hers and was already steering her down the hallway toward the cafeteria.
"Everyone calls me Bella," she said, adjusting the strap of her bag as she was dragged along in Jessica's orbit.
"Bella! Perfect. You have to sit with us for lunch. I’ll introduce you to everyone. So, what do you think of Forks so far? Terrible, right? But the drama here makes up for it. Did you hear about Lauren and Tyler? They broke up over a bowling alley argument on Saturday, but they’re already talking again..."
Bella let the gossip wash over her like white noise, nodding in all the right places. Honestly, it was impressive. Jessica had an encyclopedic mental file on every minor social infraction committed in the county since her primary school days.
When they hit the cafeteria, Jessica navigated them toward a large table near the center of the room. Bella was promptly introduced to a chorus of names—Mike, who gave her a goofy, eager grin that immediately triggered her fight-or-flight response; Tyler, who was currently trying to fit an entire apple into his mouth; and Angela, who gave her a friendly wave while concentrating on the food in front of her.
Bella unpacked her brown-bag lunch—a thick, glorious garlic-and-herb pasta dish she’d prepped the night before—and began to dig in.
Then, the temperature in the room seemed to drop five degrees, and the collective noise level of the cafeteria plummeted.
The Cullens had entered.
They moved through the drab room like a walking, high-fashion advertisement for a designer brand Bella couldn't afford. Everyone stared. It was obnoxious, really. Bella chewed her pasta, watching the five of them from the corner of her eye while Jessica gave her the rundown of their family and circumstances.
Man, Bella thought, it must be exhausting to be them. Imagine having to navigate high school when every breath you take is under a microscope. If you have a bad hair day? It’s public news. If you drop a fork? A tragedy. Whether it was the ridiculously good genes, the rumor of their wealth, or their straight-A averages, they were trapped in a perpetual spotlight. It sounded like an absolute nightmare.
"That's Rosalie and Emmett," Jessica whispered loudly, leaning so close her shoulder dug into Bella's. "They’re together. Like, together-together. They live in the same house! It's so scandalous, right?"
"Good for them," Bella said mildly, taking a bite of garlic bread. "Saves on gas."
Jessica blinked, momentarily derailed, before leaning in closer to point her fork toward the copper-haired boy trailing slightly behind the rest. "And that is Edward."
"Ah," Bella said. "The Byronic hero."
Jessica swooned, literally leaning her head back for a second. "He is unbelievable. I’ve asked him out, like, three times. Every single time, he declines, but he does it so... gentlemanly. He looks you dead in the eye, gives you this tragic, lingering smile, and says something about how he’s 'not good for anyone' and 'doesn't deserve company.' It’s infuriatingly hot."
Bella glanced over at the Cullen table. Edward was sitting stiffly, holding an apple he had no intention of eating. Suddenly, he stiffened, his golden eyes snapping across the room to land directly on their table. He looked... pained. Like he was carrying the physical weight of the universe on his narrow shoulders.
Bella picked up another piece of garlic bread and held his gaze for a second before turning back to Jessica.
"Jess," Bella said, setting her fork down with deep, strategic seriousness. "I share AP Lit with him. The guy isn’t just dramatic; he’s practically choking on nineteenth-century Romanticism. You’re approaching this all wrong."
Jessica’s eyes went wide. "What do you mean?"
"You're asking him out like a normal person," Bella explained, gesturing with her bread. "Edward doesn't want normal. He wants agony. He wants turmoil. Next time you ask him out, you shouldn't just ask him to a movie. You need to woo him with poetry."
Across the room, Edward’s hand twitched so violently his apple rolled off the table. He physically cringed,
Jessica didn't notice. "Poetry? Like... Shakespeare?"
"No, Shakespeare is too mainstream," Bella advised smoothly, catching the tiny, almost imperceptible twitch of Jasper’s lips at the next table over. "Think darker. Lord Byron. Percy Shelley. Next time you see him in the hallway, corner him against a locker, stare deeply into his soul, and recite 'She Walks in Beauty' like you're mourning a dead pet. He’ll probably fall at your feet."
At the Cullen table, Edward bowed his head into both hands, his shoulders hunched. Rosalie, sitting beside him, made a sudden, choking sound into her napkin, her shoulders shaking with suppressed laughter. Emmett just let out a sudden, booming snort that drew looks from two tables away.
Beside Emmett, Jasper Hale was leaning back in his chair.
When Bella caught his eye, Jasper raised his milk carton toward her in a silent, solemn toast, the corner of his mouth curving into a genuine, dimpled smirk.
You're terrible, his eyes seemed to say.
Bella gave him a modest, single-nod bow, picked up her fork, and went back to her pasta.
"Wait, Bella," Jessica said, hurriedly scribbling on a napkin. "How does the second verse of 'She Walks in Beauty' go again?"
"Don't worry, Jess," Bella grinned. "Come over to my place tonight. We’ll do a full dramatic workshop—memorization, tragic sighs, the whole nine yards."
—-
It was a strange lunch break for Jasper—nearly peaceful, which was a word he never thought he'd associate with a room full of two hundred mortals.
He was swept away by the sun-warm aura radiating from the new girl. He wasn't just observing her; he was reveling in it. Jasper drank in the absurd, chaotic cocktail of Bella’s mind—her pragmatic pity for their fame, her complete lack of fear, her refusal to view Edward as anything other than a walking Victorian cliché, and the sudden, brilliant spark of pure mischief as she set Jessica up to woo Edward with Romantic poetry.
It was a sanctuary. In a world where every human emotion hit him like a physical blow, Bella's mind was an effortless, cozy haven.
He was going to have to find a way to stay close to her. He needed more of her brand of insanity in his life
—-
The Swan household smelled gloriously of warm butter, vanilla, and defiance.
Jessica sat at the small kitchen table, clutching a crumpled piece of notebook paper like a sacred text, while Bella stood by the oven wearing a pair of giant, aggressively pink silicone oven mitts.
"Bella," Jessica said, her voice trembling slightly with high-stakes teenage anxiety. "Are you sure the recitation is going to help?"
"Don’t worry, take a cookie. Carbs are essential for high-level brain function, Jess," Bella stated with absolute authority, sliding a fresh portion of cookies off the rack and piling them onto a plate into a pyramid worthy of a high school football team. "You cannot properly project your voice on an empty stomach. It's science."
Before Jessica could debate the nutritional benefits, the heavy front door thudded open. Chief Charlie Swan stepped into the hallway, stamping the Washington rain off his boots. He paused, sniffing the air with deep suspicion.
"Bells?" Charlie called out, hanging his gun belt on the wall rack. "Is that actually edible food?"
"It’s homemade cookies, Dad," Bella called back, stepping out of the kitchen with the plate of steaming baked goods. "Dad, this is Jessica. Jess, this is my dad, Chief Swan—and baked goods connoisseur."
Jessica sat up straight, instantly adopting her most polite, innocent smile. "Good evening, Chief Swan! Your home is so cozy!"
Charlie looked from Jessica’s hyper-enthusiastic grin to Bella’s completely unbothered expression, then down at the plate of cookies.
"Nice to meet you, Jessica," Charlie said slowly, taking a cookie with the caution of a man inspecting a suspicious package. He took a bite, his eyes widening in genuine surprise. "Huh. Not bad, Bells. You're not going to set the house on fire after all."
"I told you," Bella said smoothly. "Jess and I are going upstairs to study literature."
"Right. Literature," Charlie repeated, looking deeply relieved that he wouldn't be drawn into whatever high school drama was currently brewing. "I’ll be downstairs watching the game. Have fun."
Upstairs in Bella's bedroom, the rain drummed a steady, monotonous rhythm against the glass. Jessica immediately dropped onto Bella’s bed, looking around the modest, yellow-hued room.
"So," Jessica began, leaning back against the pillows. "What was Phoenix actually like? I mean, going from sunny Arizona to this place must be like moving to a different planet. Don't you miss the crowded malls? The tans? The boys?"
Bella sat cross-legged on the floor, popping a warm cookie into her mouth. "Phoenix was hot, loud, and full of people trying too hard to look cool. Here, it’s quiet, raining, and the local boys think wearing Gore-Tex counts as formalwear. Honestly, it’s a wash."
"What about romance?" Jessica pressed, her eyes gleaming. "No tragic high school sweethearts back home?"
"The only tragic thing in my life in Phoenix was my mother’s attempt at making vegan lasagna," Bella replied deadpan. "Now, focus, Stanley. We have a Byronic hero to break."
Jessica sat up straight, slapping her hands onto her knees. "Right. I’m ready."
The next forty-five minutes devolved into absolute, magnificent theater art.
Bella stood near her desk, striking a rigid posture to act as a cornered Edward, while Jessica paced the length of the bedroom floor.
"No, Jess, you’re saying 'She walks in beauty, like the night' like you're ordering a latte at Starbucks!" Bella instructed sternly, gesturing with a wooden spoon she’d brought up from the kitchen. "You need more agony. Stare into the middle distance. Imagine your favorite sweater just got ruined in the wash!"
Jessica gasped, clutching her hands over her heart, her face contorting into a mask of pure, exaggerated tragedy. "She walks in beauty, like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies!" she dramatic-read, projecting her voice. "And all that’s best of dark and bright meet in her aspect and her eyes!"
"Yes! Perfect!" Bella applauded solemnly. "Now, sigh deeply, drop to one knee, and look like you’re mourning a dear friend!"
Meanwhile, outside the second-story window, fifty feet up in the soaking-wet branches of a Douglas fir tree, Edward Cullen was having the worst evening of his eighty-year immortal existence.
He sat hunched on a slippery branch, his muted wool coat thoroughly drenched, clutching his knees to his chest like a deeply embarrassed, overgrown owl.
He had come to watch Bella—to observe the mysterious, quiet human whose thoughts were a maddening, silent void. He had expected quiet reflection, perhaps the soft turning of book pages, or the gentle hum of a radio.
Instead, he was trapped listening to Jessica Stanley shriek Lord Byron’s poetry at the top of her lungs, while Bella Swan offered tactical theatrical critiques between bites of chocolate chip cookies.
"Remember, Jess!" Bella’s voice echoed clearly through the glass. "If he tries to back away, clutch his jacket lapels and whisper about the fleeting nature of bliss! It gets 'em every time!"
Edward closed his golden eyes, resting his forehead against the rough, wet bark of the tree trunk. A quiet, pained groan escaped his lips.
He could only imagine Jasper’s smugness. Edward looked down at his marble-white hands, his shoulders slumping in sheer, unadulterated mortification.
I am a creature of the night, Edward thought tragically to himself, shivering as a dollop of cold rain dripped off a pinecone and landed directly on his nose. I am a predator of the dark. How can mere highschoolers mock me.
Inside the room, Jessica let out a theatrical, breathless sob, falling dramatically onto Bella's rug.
"Bravo," Bella said, casually tossing another cookie to her pupil. "Edward Cullen won't know what hit him."
Outside in the rain, the overgrown owl in the tree groaned again.
–
The next day, the hallway outside the art class had effectively turned into the Globe Theatre, and Edward Cullen was trapped on stage in the only tragedy he hadn't auditioned for.
A tight, stifling ring of teenagers had formed, their collective thoughts a deafening wall of hyper-fixated noise: Is she really doing this? Is he gonna cry? Oh my god, Jessica is insane. Look at his face! Are they going to kiss?
And right in the center stood Jessica Stanley, her hands clasped over her heart, her posture dramatically contorted as she launched into the second stanza of Byron’s She Walks in Beauty. She wasn't just reciting; she was emoting. She dropped her voice into a dramatic, breathy rasp, taking a slow, deliberate step toward him.
Edward stood frozen. His jaw was clenched so hard the enamel on his teeth threatened to splinter. Every predatory instinct he possessed was screaming at him to vanish, to vault through the second-story window, or to punch his way through the outer wall.
Instead, he was forced to stand there in his tailored coat, clutching a sketchbook like a shield, enduring the indignity of a sixteen-year-old reciting Romantic poetry at his chest.
His golden eyes scanned the crowd for a way out. And that was when he caught her.
At the back of the circle, standing on her tiptoes next to a deeply amused Jasper, was Isabella Swan.
She wasn't just watching. She was actively coaching.
Bella gave Jessica an emphatic, slow-motion nod, mouthing the words, "Sigh deeper!" and making a subtle, sweeping gesture with her hand to encourage more arm drama. When she saw Edward glaring directly at her over the crowd, she didn't flinch. She didn't blush. She simply raised two thumbs up in silent, cheerful solidarity, her face a picture of pure, unadulterated encouragement.
She is enjoying this, Edward realized, his mind reeling in absolute horror. She weaponized Jessica Stanley.
Worse than the visual was the silent mental assault currently hammering him. From three feet away, Jasper wasn't helping. In fact, Jasper was broadcasting a steady loop of a jaunty, bluegrass banjo cover of She Walks in Beauty directly into Edward’s brain.
You're doing great, brother, Jasper’s internal voice drawled, dripping with dry malice. Keep your chin up.
Edward’s upper lip twitched, a faint, near-imperceptible curl that hid a desperate urge to bare his fangs and grawl at the entire room. His knuckles turned translucent white against the leather binding of his sketchbook.
"And all that’s best of dark and bright..." Jessica breathed, taking another dramatic step and clutching at the lapel of his wool coat, "...meet in her aspect and her eyes!"
Edward took a sharp, unnecessary breath through his nose, tasting the heavy scent of hairspray, cheap lily-based perfume, and Bella’s lingering butter-cookie aura.
He couldn't growl. He couldn't sprint away at eighty miles an hour. He had to play the human. He had to play the gentleman.
Slowly, with the agonizing, mechanical grace of a man signing his own execution warrant, Edward reached down and gently, firmly detached Jessica’s fingers from his lapel.
He leaned down slightly, his voice dropping into a low, velvety, and deeply strained murmur that barely carried over the crowd, though every word was laced with absolute, apocalyptic fatigue.
"Jessica," Edward said, his golden eyes wide with a soul-shattering intensity that was ten percent vampire restraint and ninety percent genuine desire to be swallowed by the earth. "Your passion... is terrifying. But as I have stated... I am a creature unfit for such light. I must walk my dark path... alone."
He didn't wait for her response. He didn't look at the crowd.
Edward broke through the ring of teenagers with fluid, deliberate speed, his coat billowing behind him like the wings of a defeated bat. As he passed Bella, he threw her a single, murderous glance—a silent promise of tragic, brooding retribution.
Bella just smiled, taking a slow sip from a juice box, and gave him a polite little wave goodbye.