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Dazai looked again at the reflection: hollow cheeks, bruised-looking eyes, collarbones too sharp, limbs too narrow to pass for anything healthy. Not beautiful. Not masculine. Not feminine. Just wrong. A body that refused to disappear but refused to feel alive. A body he maintained like a crime scene, because that’s what it was— taped off, segmented, handled indirectly.
or: Dazai’s body has never felt like his own—too sharp, too empty, too present. He starves it, ignores it, punishes it; it betrays him anyway. Chuuya tries to touch him, Odasaku tries to feed him, Mori tries to control him. None of it helps.
⟢ A mosaic of vignettes about hunger, shame, and the quiet violence of living in a body you don’t want.
BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 - Day 2 - Eating Disorders, “It doesn’t hurt. That’s the strange part.”, Sadism/Masochism, Vomiting (Alt)
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- Part 2 of 🕊️🪦 BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 🪦🕊️
- Part 12 of the dove is on morphine
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Dazai looked so small and fragile on the white hospital stretcher. His school uniform had been placed in a bag as evidence, soaked in blood and semen, and a hospital gown had been tied over him. From his shoulders down to his knees, his skin was covered in bruises, bite marks, and wounds. One of his legs was bent in a way it shouldn’t have been, unmistakably broken, and despite his unconscious state, it trembled, as if the shock had not yet left his body. Blood and urine continued to seep from between his legs.
“NO!! NO—” One of Yosano’s hands clung to the edge of the stretcher, as if she refused to let her brother be taken even a centimeter out of her sight, holding on with everything she had. “THIS ISN’T SAMU! THIS CAN’T BE! I SAW HOW HE LEFT THE HOUSE! HE WASN’T!—"
This could have been the worst moment of an big sister’s life but in time, she would witness even worse. By the time the others managed to pull her out of the room, it was already too late.
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Aka. Dazai was an omega who had been raped in the past. At seventeen, Kunikida, who dreams of working at the ADA, is unexpectedly forced into becoming the new friend of the Fukuzawa family’s youngest omega son, Dazai.
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- Part 1 of KuniZai by Goblin
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Eyes in the Corner of the Room (They’re Moving) by AdoreDazai (AdoreLove1)
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
13 Apr 2026
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Falling down the stairs hurts like hell. This is not how he wanted to go out.
It takes an excruciating infinity of tumbling before he comes to a stop at the bottom of the stairwell. He feels like a limp doll, tossed to the wayside. Except dolls cannot feel the fire mixed with numbness that fills every inch of his nerves.
He feels wetness pooling underneath his head as he lies on the ground, unable to move, the world spinning around him. Footsteps approach as the world goes hazy, and then he hears a phone call being made as the person who shoved him stands over him, watching him die with clinical coolness.
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Dazai gets killed, revived, and kidnapped in that order by a stranger obsessed with him, and Chuuya and the ADA are left to pick up the pieces and try to bring him home.
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“Don’t worry about me,” Dazai says.
How can he say that when it all strangely feels like a goodbye?
The day before his arrest, Dazai visits Atsushi at night with cold hands in the pockets of his coat and ominous words on his lips. All Atsushi wants is to warm his hands up.
written for pamper dazai week 2021 | day 1 prompt "Stay tonight, please."
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- Part 1 of when I see you again
- Part 1 of author's personal bsd favorites
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like footsteps home (I will follow) by lostdandelion
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
21 Oct 2021
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But that was before. Before they almost lost everything, before they almost lost each other. Before they became something they haven’t named yet, but something nonetheless.
Atsushi wouldn’t forgive himself if he lost Dazai now when he’s finally within his hand’s reach again. But how do you free someone from the prison of their mind?
The Agency celebrates their victory over the Decay of Angels. As always, Dazai disappears from the party and Atsushi follows to search for him.
for bsd rarepair week 2021 - day 6 | healing/shaking
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- Part 2 of when I see you again