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Pushing It Down and Praying by alexcath
Fandoms: Superman - All Media Types, Batman - All Media Types, DCU (Comics)
06 Oct 2025
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Clark can't have sex with Lois without picturing Bruce instead. Of course, he feels incredibly guilty but doesn't know what to do about it. After a gruesome fight, Bruce calls Clark for help, which Clark answers in a heartbeat. Almost losing his best friend makes something snap in Clark, and he kisses him. To his surprise, Bruce returns it with passion. They throw all their precautions out the window and give in to their selfish desires, not thinking of the aftermath.
Plot heavily inspired by Lizzy McAlpine's Pushing It Down and Praying.
(I would like to extend a public apology to Lois Lane. I'm so sorry, girl. I love you.)
(Also, I'm awful at summaries. I'm so sorry.)
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"You don't deserve to feel of devotion of guilt," (Not while it's my fault) by ku1naluhvs
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
12 Oct 2025
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"Even though there's always a part of me with you, I can't help but want you all to myself, Yoshiki. Ain't it selfish?"
Hikaru croaked slightly, eyes flicking up to meet mine through my curtain of dark bangs. I could only clench the small, hard mishappen object through my shirt pocket. It felt strange, knowing that was a part of him. I was the reason he was so weak right now, and was losing control of himself.
If only I had trusted him from the beginning.
My hand comes up, hesitant before threading through the fluffy white locks of hair, which 'Hikaru' gladly leans into.
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After Bobby’s death, Buck reverts back to his old ways of coping. He needs Eddie to pull him out.
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I Want You to Need Me by SpiderMan69
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
13 Sep 2025
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Bucky doesn’t remember when Sam and Bucky became Sam and Bucky, became SamandBucky.
He thinks it was at some point during the whole Flag Smasher fiasco, when Sam became less of a bother to him, and more of someone whom he had come to rely on wholeheartedly.
Bucky also doesn’t remember when the whole… thing between them had started.
There were parts of him that genuinely forgot things, a sieve for a brain resulting from years of memory wiping. When he finally left Wakanda, he couldn’t remember how to tie his shoes, having been so used to buckling them. Laces could get in the way of The Winter Soldier's work.
And then there were other parts of him who would push things down so far that he would intentionally forget them, his memories clouded from being mashed together and tossed away.
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- Part 5 of Pushing It Down and Praying
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when suna and atsumu go to volleyball training camp without osamu, he decides this is his final chance to tell suna how he feels in a letter before he moves out of hyogo to go professional with atsumu.
suna never finds the letter and five years later is engaged to atsumu.
will the truth ever come out?
oreveryone only gets half of the story and suna only gets half of what he wants when he settles for atsumu out of not being able to have osamu.
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Men’s 2 read
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Between a first love lost and a greatest love found, you learn that love is never replaced—only carried.
"He is stable, you are deep."
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ONGOING -- CHAPTER 2 JUST POSTED!
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⋆˚࿔ The Other Side 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ by Jords_conehead
Fandoms: This Song - Conan Gray (Music Video), Vodka Cranberry - Conan Gray (Song), Caramel - Conan Gray (Music Video)
13 Oct 2025
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Wilbran social media au (kinda) all characters are relatively popular on social media, there’s doomed yuri and lots of Wilbran angst 🩷 you can also find this on @wilbransworld on insta !!!
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YAYY!!
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Pushing it down and praying by thatonedudewholikesbooks
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games)
06 Aug 2025
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"I'm always there, always in that fucking building."
"That's not your fault"
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Post silver lake but I make everything just a little (lot) worse
A bunch of one shots surrounding that summary
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🌸❤️
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When people are hungry and lonely, who can blame them for what they do?
Diluc is starving and alienated.
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HOW DARE YOU BE SO WELL WRITTEN
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10/10 omfg first i see of my headcanon ab diluc. so heartbreaking to read i cried i love it
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I love him, kiss his mouth, praying (he can’t see what I see) by sonic_theredwoodtree
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
07 Sep 2025
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Compartmentalizing can only get someone so far. For JJ, she wanted control.
And she found control, while her sense of self slowly warped into something she thought she would never become.
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Alex Cabot should want Trevor Langan: safe, simple, straight. But every touch, every kiss, only makes her think of Olivia Benson and the desire she can’t push down, no matter how hard she tries.
Based on "Pushing It Down and Praying" by Lizzy McAlpine.
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Bob, Yelena, and all of the love languages.
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- Part 4 of Pushing It Down and Praying
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Set during 8x11 'Holy Mother of God'
Buck is in bed with Tommy but his mind is riddled with thoughts of Eddie (Inspired by the song Pushing It Down and Praying by Lizzy McAlpine)
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It's stupid for Wilson to keep trying at all. Trying to fall in love with other people, trying to tell House he wants him without having to say it, running into the arms of whoever to escape from it.
Wilson keeps trying to avoid the voice in his head reminding him he's in love with a man, whilst constantly giving in to it.
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it's hard to say i love you.
especially when she’s far from the one I love.
(updates once or twice a week)
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Arthur is with Isaac but misses George.
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Normal People AU. They want each other. That’s never been the problem.
James turned, slowly, as if dragged by something heavier than guilt — something ancestral. His hands remained in the pockets of his borrowed jacket, a gesture both casual and cowardly. The streetlight above them flickered, catching the edge of his profile like a sketch someone had given up on finishing.
“That’s not what happened.”
Regulus laughed. It came out dry and scalpel-thin, a single breath honed into dismissal.
“No?” he said. “Because it felt a lot like you were pretending I didn’t exist.”
James looked at him then — really looked. Not the kind of glance you throw over your shoulder to see if the past is still chasing you, but the kind you give a painting you’ve stared at a hundred times and only just realized was about you.
“We were with my friends,” he said, as if that was a reason and not an excuse.
“And I’m not allowed to know you when they’re around? Do you have any idea what it’s like? Standing in a room and having you look through me?”
There it was — not a plea, not a break, but something far more dangerous: a mirror.
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If you just need a piece to feel like sitting in silence without judgement, this is the work for you
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Pushing It Down and Praying by SpiderMan69
Fandom: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
13 Sep 2025
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Thunderbolts* (Bob and Yelena) fanfics I wrote while listening to Pushing It Down and Praying by Lizzie McAlpine
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Bob wasn’t a touchy person by any measure, and he wouldn’t say that Yelena was either, but he found that the two of them were practically glued at the hips whenever they were in the same room.
Yelena’s hand on his thigh stops him from moving backwards.
“I do not usually like it when people touch me, but, you are making me enjoy it more.” She says candidly, looking him in the eyes. Bob looks away, suddenly shy.
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- Part 2 of Pushing It Down and Praying
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As much as I love these two shipping wise, aro/ace Yelena gives me life
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Bob couldn’t sleep.
He had never been a good sleeper. He thinks that his father's disdain for him started from the moment he became a fussy baby who refused to sleep. It’s no surprise his parents stopped after one child.
Meth had made him even worse of a sleeper.
Really, it made him worse at a lot of things, but there were times that he went for weeks at a time without sleeping, only able to find sleep in the restless tossing and turning of a crash.
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How Bob and Yelena start sharing a bed
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- Part 3 of Pushing It Down and Praying